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ONCE A CUTTER ALWAYS A CUTTER! NO MATTER IF I HAVENT CUT IN YEARS. THATS WHO IM GOING TO BE.




I am the person every one wants to be.
They think I have everything.
But really my life is horrible.
I hide from the truth.
I smile so no one suspects anything.
I go to High School to escape Home.
I runaway from everyone that tries to get close to me so i won't be hurt.

When I'm at home or at school i put on a smile to show everyone that there is nothing wrong,
but really I'm a mess

I hate being alone but I want every one to leave me alone.
I hate people who try to get inside my head and try to figure out how I tick.
Is it so hard for people to realize that every thing I do is a cry out for help.
And yet no one hears me.
Its like i'm invisible.

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I haven't cut since: July 22nd

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I cant take it anymore...all i think about is that one night. i constantly have flash backs to that one night when i went to the hospital. i just cant seem to get over it. its like im sitting in class and my teacher is talking and its like im not really there its like im reliving the past and i can just start crying out of the blue. or i can be sleeping and have a dream of being in lock down and wake up sweating and crying. then there are some days that i cant handle everything that goes through my head and ill have panic attacks. i cant tatke this anymore. its really brirnging me down.

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Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe, Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, IwuvMyKenshyPoo, Heidiplease, iNsOmNiAc BiLlIe JoE lOvEr, Black Panther Warrior,Mina the Mischevious, SnowNeko, KylaMizuki, SkyeEyesSparkle7135, Ms.Misery, runaway-666.

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"If you want to call me weird, go ahead. If you want to judge me withougt walking a mile in my shoes go ahead. You don't know me. So you can't hurt me. Live with my weirdness. Work with it. If you can't like me for me than you don't know me. If you can't live with me... well that's not my problem... now is it?"
~Jade

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"92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile."

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Don't Suicide
by Nbrez

Suicide is the permanent solution
To a temporary problem
Time heals all wounds
Though we can't know how much time
That we will need to pass
Just know that you can last
And when you feel you can't
Well, that's why I'm here

I'm here for you
The one in need
And so I plead
Do not suicide
Come to me, I will be kind
And together we will find
A better answer
One that won't rob the world of your beauty
Of your mind
Of who you are
Hold on

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I can't stand talking to people that don't understand what I'm going through. And all the conselors try to do is treat me like I'm some kind of diseise. And I can't take it any more. When they made me talk to them they asked me if I hurt myself if I cut and tryed to deny it but they made me show them my wrists. It hurt for me to do that they brought in a specialist to deal with me and that made me so angry they say they're trying to help me but they're not and I dont know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of all this I want it to all go away I want to go away. Then they said that they had to tell my mom but what they don't get is that she is the one that caused me to cut. I cant take it anymore... It's to much pressure on me to talk to someone about why I cut and what happens at home. They said if I talk about it I'll feel better but all it wants to make me do is hurt myself more...

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Why does every one tell me its bad to sleep with a knife next to my bed, a gun under my pillow and many razor blades in my pocket. Why is it that no one trusts me to do the right thing or am I that much of a freak that I have to be watched every second Im some where I can hurt my self. Does any one really know what I’m going through or are they just blind. Am I supposed to live this horrible life forever, am I doomed to be tortured for the rest of my life. You don’t really know how much I want to die. Or actually how many times ive attempted suicide. But when they tell me I’m suicidal I choose not to believe them even though in the past week I’ve tried to kill myself 9 times. Is it that hard for someone to try to help me or am I invisible to everyone. For me when I cut it releases all the emotion in me all the sorrow and the anger. And when I take drugs it’s just a way to forget all my problems and numb the feelings I have and when I drink it’s just for me…. I can’t take living anymore or maybe just in this world …. Most people don’t realize that what they say to a deeply depressed person like me, takes way more affect on them than a happy person. Or are most people blind to all that is wrong in other people lives. And as I sit here typing this I come to the realization that even this morning ive tried to kill my self twice. And is what everyone saying about me true, do I really have problems, am I just ruining everyones life. And would every one be much happier if I was …….Dead…….

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i hide from the truth by covering up what is real...
i cut, starve myself, drink and take alot of drugs....
i do all of this because i dont like myself and want to die..
i feel like im a bad friend cuz i broke most promises and its just the one person i was talking to cant talk..
and i feel like a total disaster and a failure...
and maybe i should end my life since i have no one to talk to....
to trust...
to actually belive in...
i feel like i am nothing my dad never wanted me..
my mom hates me and doesnt listen to one word i have to say...
my brothers treat me like crap...
my uncle ignores me...
so pretty much dont exist and maybe that one deep cut should happen.....


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How many of you are sick of being called a "freak" or "cutter" or "attention seekers" Well i am sick of it, and i know we don't deserve it! We are just people...some more heartbroken than others. Another thing, the whole "Oh she's emo so she spends her whole day slitting open her wrists" thing...stop. Not all emos cut! And for those who do, we have a damn good reason! And ya want to know a secret.....WE CAN SMILE! We can laugh, think, love, everything! We are normal people, and we do not deserve the abuse that we get. We are called names and get bad reputations...makeing our pain even worse! We don't need your sympathy...but we do need your moral. Just stop with the emo jokes and the whole deal with thinking that we can't have fun and spend our whole days crieing and sliceing open our wrists! If you have been abused, our feel remourse for those who have...please repost and spread the word. We don't deserve this...please help it change. write your name and see how many people actually agree and if you have bad comments about this KEEP THEM TO YOURSELVES! Copy and repost if You Feel the same way: suicidal-tears-666,

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Reasons why people self-injure:

1. It's chemical. Cutting releases endorphins in the brain. Those endorphins are adreanaline, which makes you feel better.

2. It puts you in control of your pain. You are causing the pain, and you can stop the pain.

3. It allows emotional pain to become physical. Not only does this make it easier to heal, it allows your feeling to become something tangible.

4. It makes you feel stronger.

5. Control, Control, CONTROL. Cutting makes me feel stronger. It puts me in control. No matter how my life seems to be spinning out of control, I am suddenly grounded. It clears my mind.

6. Eases tension.

7. It allows others to see your pain.

8. It reminds you that you're alive. Sometimes I forget, and everything feels numb. The blood reminds me I am here.

9. It vents anger. Sometimes I am just so angry at myself, the world, whoever, and I feel I'm just going to explode if I don't let it out.

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DO THIS ONE BY ONE! DONT LOOK AHEAD! THIS IS LIKE 99.9% TRUE!!

1) Write the name of a person of the opposite sex.
2) Which is your favorite color out of red, black, blue, green, yellow?
3)your first initial?
4) Your month of birth?
5) Which color do you like more black or white?
6) Name of person of the same sex as you?
7) Your favorite number?
8) Do you like California or Florida more?
9) Do you like the lake or ocean more?
10) Write down a wish (a realistic one)
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THE ANSWERS
1) You are completely in love with this person.
2) If you chose:
Red- you are alert and your life is full of love.
Black- you are conservative and aggressive.
Green- your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue- you are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow- you are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.
3) If your initial is:
A-K you have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R you try to enjoy life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z you like to help others and your future love life looks very good.
4) If you were born in:
Jan-Mar The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you will fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
Apr-Jun You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep You will have a great year and experience a major life changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec Your love life will not be too great but will eventually find your soul mate.
5) If you choose:
Black- your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White- you will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.
6) This person is your best friend.
7) This is how many close friends you have in your life time.
8) If you choose:
California- you like adventure.
Florida- you are a laid back person.
9) If you choose:
Lake- you are loyal to your friends and to your love. And you are very reserved.
Ocean- You are spontaneous and like to please people.
10) This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN in one hour

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