Ktulu Blackwolfe• Show poetry

First of all, I want to say thank you to B Chandler for this awesome background..................so thank you Rae




Now, before I continue I have to give credit to the one person responsible for making me who I am today. She has stood by me for the last nine years, (even when I was wrong and a complete asshole.) She is my love, my Mistress and my best friend. Without her love, I would be nothing. She has my heart and soul for all eternity, no matter what happens in our life and it is with all my heart and soul that I love her with. Elizabeth, on AP she is Erotik Rose. She writes from the heart and the depths of her soul, and though I may be the reason for some of her darker and more angry writes, I believe she is one hell of a poetess and an even better person.





I love you with all my heart and soul, Elizabeth

http://allpoetry.com/poets/Erotik%20Rose


Now, I also have my very talented daughter on AP as well. She is only 7 years old but has a very young talent. And both Mommy and I are very proud of her. Her AP name is Jessie Lynn.

I love you Jess!

http://allpoetry.com/poets/Jessie%20Lynn


Along with our daughter, there is also another young talent that posts here on AP. My stepdaughter, whos talent has really begun to grow recently and of whom I am also, very proud of. Her name on AP is A n g e l e y e s.

I'm a pain Sara but you love me!

http://allpoetry.com/A%20n%20g%20e%20l%20E%20y%20e%20s


Her brother, my stepson, also posts on AP. I am proud of his work as well and he has a very dark side to his words and when he gets mad....BEWARE! His pen flows just as angry as his words.... You can find him here as Brujah.


http://allpoetry.com/poets/Brujah


Elizabeth and I also have a 5 year old, however she is still a bit too young and to date her greatest artistic accomplishment is drawing on the ceiling of her bedroom, (Yayyyyy! Go Kayla! Don't ask, she had bunkbeds)


I guess you could say that I have been writing for most of my life. From poetry to lyrics and erotic writes to prayers....I've written in a variety of genres and even though I prefer freeverse writing over form writing, I have made a few attempts at forms.

I have a variety of influences that have helped shaped some rather interesting writes. Love, family, anger, hurt, TV and music have all been influences on my writing.


A very talented list of poets that I call my AP family




~Sisters~

Celticmoon http://allpoetry.com/poets/Celticmoon
Sylvyrwyng http://allpoetry.com/poets/Sylvyrwyng
The Painting Poet (AKA DLC-Jem) http://allpoetry.com/The%20Painting%20Poet

~Nieces~

MiniMoon http://allpoetry.com/poets/Minimoon
Amadahy Rayne http://allpoetry.com/poets/Amadahy%20Rayne










Favorite Quotes

"If it was a dream.......there'd be rum"
~Cpt. Jack Sparrow



"Out here in the perimiter..there are no stars.
Out here we is stoned.....immaculate"
~Jim Morrison


"I am the lizard king......I can do anything"
~Jim Morrison



"In the end...I guess I had to fall"
~Amy Lee


"Fear is only in our minds......
taking over all the time."
~Amy Lee


























THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH POETRY OR MUSIC BUT IT IS SOMETHING THAT IS PERSONAL TO ME................

"From days of long ago... From uncharted regions of the universe... Comes a legend... The legend of Voltron: Defender of the Universe... A mighty robot... Loved by good... Feared by evil... As Voltrons legend grew, peace settled across the galaxy... On planet Earth a Galaxy Alliance was formed.. Together with the good planets of the Solar System they maintained peace throughout the universe... Until a horrible menace threatend the galaxy... Voltron was needed once more... This is the story of the super force of Space Explorers... Specially trained and sent by the alliance to bring back...."

~Voltron opening


If they made a movie based on my life it would be in black and white and this would be the soundtrack

Opening credits: The Movie by The Doors

Waking up: Bring Me To Life by Evanescence

Average day: Come As You Are by Nirvana

First date: Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer

Falling in love: Me and You by Kenny Chesney

Love scene: Nymphetamine by Cradle of Filth

Fight scene: Seek and Destroy by Metallica

Breaking up: One Solitary Tear by Sherrie Austin

Getting back together: Forgiven by Within Temptation

Getting Married: You're Still the One by Shania Twain

Life's okay: America Honky Tonk Bar Association by Garth Brooks

Mental breakdown: Voices by Disturbd

Driving: Riders on the Storm by The Doors

Learning a lesson: Lessons Learned by Tracy Lawrence

Deep thought: See Who I Am by Within Temptation

Flashback: The Severed Garden by The Doors

Partying: Roadhouse Blues by The Doors

Happy dance: Beer For My Horses by Toby Keith

Regretting: Hurt by Nine Inch Nails

Long night alone: Our Solemn Hour by Within Temptation

Death scene: Sleepwalk by Frankie and Johnny

Memories of Me: Memories by Within Temptation

Closing credits: I Stand Alone by Godsmack




My Favorite Lyrics;


"Lithium" by Evanescence

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.








"Forever" by Papa Roach

In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me
Can't get over you. can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start
Take these memories that are Haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors
He'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her...

Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever

Sitting by a fire on a lonely night
Hanging over from another good time
With another girl... little dirty girl
You should listen to this story of a life
You're my heroine-in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams
All these drugs all these women
I'm never forgiven... this broken heart of mine

Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever,
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever

One last kiss,
before I go
Dry your tears,
it is time to let you go

One last kiss (one last kiss)
Before I go (before I go)
Dry your tears (dry your tears)
It is Time to let you go

Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever

One last kiss (one last kiss)
Before I go (before I go)
Dry your tears (dry your tears)
It is time to let you go

One last kiss,
Before I go,
Dry your tears,
it is time to let you go,
One last kiss









"Lacrymosa" by Evanescence

Out on your own,
Cold and alone again.
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?

Blame it on me,
Set your guilt free.
Nothing can hold you back now.

Now that you're gone,
I feel like myself again.
Grieving the things I can't repair and willing...

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

I can't change who I am.
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough.

And you can blame it on me,
Just set your guilt free, honey.
I don't want to hold you back now love.





"Feast of Friends" by The Doors

Wow, I'm sick of doubt
Live in the light of certain
South

Cruel bindings

The sevants have the power

Dog-men & their mean women
Pulling poor blankets over
Our sailors

I'm sick of dour faces
Starong at me from the T.V.

Tower, I want roses in
My garden bower; dig?

Royal babies, rubies
Must now replace aborted

Strangers in the mud

These mutants, blood-meal
For the plant that's plowed
They are waiting to take us into
The severed garden

Do you know how pale & wanton thrillful
Comes death on a stranger hour
Unannounced, unplanned for

Like a scaring over-friendly guest you've
Brought to bed

Death makes angels of us all
& gives us wings
Where we had shoulders
Smooth as raven's
Claws

No more money, no more fancy dress
This other kingdom seems by far the best
Until its other jaw reveals incest
& loose obedience to a vegetable law

I will not go
Prefer a feast of friends
To the Giant family



"What I've Done" by Linkin Park

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty


[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!

[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done

What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done







"You Wouldn't Know" by HELLYEAH

You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to,
Everything I've been through. You wouldn't know
Live your life, soaking up all my sunshine,
And smile your whole life,
I wouldn't know

18 wheels are rolling,
18 wheels are crushing,
Me down,
Running me down
Cars are crashing
Cars are crashin, all around me
Running me down,

All my days are numbered,
All my days are grey,
All my skies are covered,
All my ends are frayed,

You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to,
Everything I've been through. You wouldn't know
Live your life, soaking up all my sunshine,
And smile your whole life,
I wouldn't know

Lightning's crashin'
Thunder's rolling all around me,
Bringin me down
Stars are falling,
Fires lighting all around me,
Burning me down

All my days are numbered,
All my days are grey,
All my skies are covered,
All my ends are frayed,

You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to,
Everything I've been through. You wouldn't know
Live your life, soaking up all my sunshine,
And smile your whole life,
I wouldn't know
(Wouldn't know)
You wouldn't know
(Wouldn't know)
You wouldn't know

Feels like I'm falling down,
Inside a fever rising,
Buried my life deep in the ground,
Left my existence lying, so lets go

You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to,
Everything I've been through. You wouldn't know
Live your life, soaking up all my sunshine,
And smile your whole life,

You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to,
Everything I've been through. You wouldn't know







"The Truth Beneath The Rose" by Within Temptation

Give me strength to face the truth, the doubt within my soul
No longer I can justify the bloodshed in his name
Is it a sin to seek the truth, the truth beneath the rose?
Pray with me so I will find the gate to Heaven’s door

I believed it would justify the means
It had a hold over me

Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
The veil of my dreams deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins

Pray for me cause I have lost my faith in holy wars
Is paradise denied to me cause I can’t take no more
Has darkness taken over me, consumed my mortal soul
All my virtues sacrificed, can Heaven be so cruel?

I believed it would justify the means
It had a hold over me

Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
The veil of my dreams deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins

I’m hoping, I’m praying
I won’t get lost between two worlds
For all I have seen the truth lies in between
Give me the strength to face the wrong that I have done
Now that I know the darkest side of me

How can blood be our salvation
And justify the pain that we have caused throughout the times
Will I learn what’s truly sacred?
Will I redeem my soul, will truth set me free?

Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
The veil of my dreams deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins



"Bring Me To Life" by Evanescence

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)








~The Phantom of the Opera~


Christine:
In sleep he sang to me,In dreams he came,
That voice which calls to me,And speaks my name.
And do I dream again? For now I find.
The Phantom of the Opera is there-Inside my mind.

Phantom:
Sing once again with me, our strange duet,
My power over you, grows stronger yet.
And though you turn from me, to glance behind.
The Phantom of the Opera is there -inside your mind.

Christine:
Those who have seen your face,
Draw back in fear.
I am the mask you wear.

Phantom:
It's me they hear.

Both:
You're/my spirit and my/you're voice in one combined.
The Phantom of the Opera is there inside my/your mind.

(in the background)
He's there,the Phantom of the Opera . . .
Beware the Phantom of the Opera . . .

Phantom:
In all your fantasies,you always knew that man and mystery . . .

Christine:
...Were both in you.

BOTH
And in this labyrinth, where night is blind,
the Phantom of the Opera is there/here inside your/my mind . . .

Phantom:
Sing, my Angel of Music!

CHRISTINE
He's there,
the Phantom of the Opera...






"Music of the Night" from The Phantom of the Opera


Night-time sharpens,
heightens each sensation . . .
Darkness stirs and
wakes imagination . . .
Silently the senses
abandon their defences . . .

Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it -
tremulous and tender . . .
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to
the music of the night . . .

Close your eyes
and surrender to your
darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts
of the life
you knew before!
Close your eyes,
let your spirit
start to soar!
And you'll live
as you've never
lived before . . .

Softly, deftly,
music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it,
closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind,
let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which
you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of
the music of the night . . .

Let your mind
start a journey through a
strange new world!
Leave all thoughts
of the world
you knew before!
Let your soul
Take you where you
long to be !
Only then
can you belong
to me . . .

Floating, falling,
sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me
savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write -
the power of the music of the night . . .




"Beauty And The Beast" by Nightwish

Remember the first dance we shared?
Recall the night you melted my uglyness away?
The night you left with a kiss so kind
Only a scent of beauty left behind

Ah, dear friend I remember the night
The moon and the dreams we shared
Your trembling paw in my hand
Dreaming of that northern land
Touching me with a kiss of a beast

I know my dreams are made of you
Of you and only for you
Your ocean pulls me under
Your voice tears me asunder
Love me before the last petal falls

As a world without a glance
Of the ocean's fair expanse
Such the world would be
If no love did flow in thee
But as my heart is occupied
Your love to me now has to die
Forgive me, I need more than you can offer me

Didn't you read the tale
Where happily ever after was to kiss a frog?
Don't you know this tale
In which all I ever wanted
I'll never have
For who could ever learn to love a beast?

However cold the wind and rain
I'll be there to ease up your pain
However cruel the mirrors of sin
Remember, beauty is found within

...Forever shall the wolf in me desire the sheep in you...




"Sleeping Sun" by Nightwish



The sun is sleeping quietly
Once upon a century
Wistful oceans calm and red
Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my night
The truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime

I wish for this night-time
to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you

Sorrow has a human heart
From my god it will depart
I'd sail before a thousand moons
Never finding where to go

Two hundred twenty-two days of light
Will be desired by a night
A moment for the poet's play
Until there's nothing left to say

I wish for this night-time...

I wish for this night-time...



"Nemo" by Nightwish

This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart
as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom
gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh, how I wish...



"Are You the One?" by Within Temptation and Timo Tolkki

Are you the one?
The traveller in time who has come
To heal my wounds to lead me to the sun
To walk this path with me until the end of time

Are you the one?
Who sparkles in the night like fireflies
Eternity of evening sky
Facing the morning eye to eye

Are you the one?
Who'd share this life with me
Who'd dive into the sea with me
Are you the one?
Who's had enough of pain
And doesn't wish to feel the shame, anymore
Are you the one?

Are you the one?
Who's love is like a flower that needs rain
To wash away the feeling of pain
Which sometimes can lead to the chain of fear
Are you the one?

To walk with me in garden of stars
The universe, the galaxies and Mars
The supernova of our love is true





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