Kevo MF Last• Show poetry

*DISCLAIMER* if I write a poem about you, you cant start acting weird about me and my crazy romanticism.


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*MY AP FAMILY*

Someone who I happend to stumble across by pure chance but im so glad that I did. Im not sure if its the engaging conversations, the intellegence she shows, or the understanding of life in general....but something tells me she will become a very good friend: sunshine2005

my mum (and one of my biggest fans): Janice M Pickett

Okay so theres this girl on here, her name is katy, and shes amazing, end of story, and she has a couple million accounts. So im not going to bother listing them all. Just yeah. shes amazing.



bands that are more worthy of your attention than any of the shit MTV feeds you:

The killing tree
Minor threat
the unseen

Random things you prolly dont know about me:

-I used to be really shy, but now I'm one of the boldest people I know
-I resent the fact that I will never have a relationship with my father even though we live(d) in the same house, were just two completely different people
-I love my sister and miss her to the brink of tears at times, the same goes for the rest of my family.
-I am a good boyfriend
-I have no idea what love is even though ive been in love before
-I only consider a handful of people to be true friends
-Theres only one person in the whole world that knows every one of my secrets
-I dont listen to the radio
-I practically protest against MTV
-I hate when I hear people I dont like listening to bands that I do
-People who dont know the lyrics to a song but try to sing along anyway annoy me to no end
-My eyes are my best physical assets
-I'm REALLY tall, six foot six inches to be exact, seriously
-I'm underweight and prolly malnourished
-Sometimes when I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror I get turned on
-Im really not THAT attractive
-I'm SUPER insecure
-I have smoked meth before
-And popped more pills than I could possibly name
-But I'm NOT a drug addict
-Music is more important to me than some of the people I consider friends
-I'm not shallow, just honest
-I can talk to anyone about anything
-I'm sexually confused
-I think I'm bi
-I'm not arrogant, I'm just the most important person in my life
-I feel useless if I'm not an important factor in someones existence
-nice guys do finish last in my world
-Let me rephrase that *I* finish last, only somedays though
-I have more self confidence than I let show
-I doubt my skills as a poet
-Even though I'm constantly told that I have talent
-I cant rhyme to save my life
-My true friends play a bigger role in my life than I do
-I like to walk
-Even when its 5 below zero
-I went to an alternative education school
-I'm actually quite intelligent
-I like to talk philosophy
-Christian theology is actually my favorite to discuss
-I'm pagan(kinda)
-More than half of my school had no idea what that meant
-Less than 40 kids went to my school
-I'm a Scorpio and proud of it
-If you hurt me ill hurt you more
-It hurts me to hurt you
-Once I had a very depressing realization when I figured out that ive lived less than a quarter of my life expectancy
-I feel like I'm thirty
-I'm introverted
-Ive spent four years of my life looking out my bathroom window
-And I dont regret a day of it
-My mom tries to be my best friend but there's so many things that she doesnt know and I have no idea where to begin to tell her.
-I really wish I could fix that
-I have a mohawk, and it is longgggg
-I analyze myself to no end
-I analyze my friend even more
-I regret not asking the girl behind the counter at the bay city Spencer for her number(to this day)
-Chances are ill never see that girl again
-I love when people find things I'm my poetry that I didnt intend to be there
- I like foreign ladies
-I have kissed one of my best friends girlfriends before
-I got my ear pierced on December 28 of 2005, that was the first time id hung out with my friend Brian in practically 2 years. That's also the day I saw that girl in Spencers. That ear is no longer peirced.
-I dont believe in love at first sight
-All of my friends are losers
-Gobstoppers are the best candy of all time
-Its nearly impossible to lie to me in person
-My first kiss was from a boy
-I am a recovering masochist
-Keyword: RECOVERING
-Everything I write about is true
-I'm not suicidal
-I had a suicidal thought and planning on going through with it when I was prolly 15/16 and it scared the shit out of me
-I used to be known to cut with a safety pin
- I used to carry a razorblade in my wristband
-I cant spell, or type
-I have the most illegible handwriting of all time- but it sure looks pretty
-I have to write all of my poems on paper
-I cant find inspiration behind a keyboard
-I dont wear underwear
-Video games arent that important to me anymore
-You cant win an argument with me
-Kevo motha fuckin last nough said haha
-Wearing womans cloths is something that I'm notorious for
-I sometimes think I was suppose to be a girl
-I make a prettier girl than a boy
-And I fit the stereotype better
-I constantly contradict myself
-I want to be a psychologist when I grow up(somedays)
-I have this best friend appeal so everyone feels super close to me for some reason
-Calling me protective is the understatement of the year
-I don't think anyone is going to actually read down this far
-This list was a lot easier to make than I thought
-I live(d) in gladwin Michigan
-Its a really small town
-Prolly 10 thousand some people
-I dont know most of the kids in my town
-But somehow a lot of them know me
-I live in kearney, mo now, and all of the above statments about where I live still apply
-I'm still a virgin
-By choice
-as of 8/18/2006 the previous to statements are false -smile-
-I was molested as a child
-By my cousin and her friends
-The cousin has been my neighbor for the past 18 years
-But she recently moved
-She WAS my best and only friend when I was younger
-The previous facts probably explain quite a bit to some people who read my stuff
-I want to become a famous poet
-Not for the fame
-Just to let the kids know that someone has been there before
-I want to have kids
-But I think I might be impotent
-I want to be tested
-But I'm to scared to know the truth, and I don't want the occward conversation with my mom
-My right testicle is substantially larger than my left
-Yes that prolly was TMI
-I was picked on by the other boys when I was younger
-They used to stomp the shit out of me
-I had a best friend from second to 5th grade
-Then I called his house one day and his mom said that he got better friends
-Ive always been a slacker in school
-Atleast since third grade
-I was a really intelligent child
-I loved to learn about dinosaurs and ocean creatures
-I still have most of the books
-I learned to read because of the Goosebumps book series
-Once when I was in kidnegarden I though a pumpkin went in a salad
-And the teacher gave me mad shit about it
-Even back then all I wanted was a good friend
-Oddly enough my best friends ended up becoming a really big jock and one of the losers of the town
-In first grade I accidentally walked in on a girl going to the bathroom, it was awesome, lol
- Yes, that was important, ok really I just wanted to lighten the mood
-In 6th grade I was officially labeled the underachiever
-A friend of mine and I started a cult in 9th grade
-I was on the school newspaper at one point
-It was my favorite class ever
-Then it was canceled to do lack of funds
-Most of the kids in my school dont know that poetry is more than just a hobby for me
-Even less realize that I take my poetry seriously
-I'm known for causing trouble
-I almost got into a fight when I went to see passion of the Christ
- I had bad ache when I was younger
-I still fight a constant battle with it
-I'm a blue jeans and tee shirt kinda guy
-I like incense
-Ive had the same backpack for a long time
-It got pink paint spilled on it
-I think it adds character
-This list is officially four pages long
-My biggest fear is that I become a failure in life
-I set my expectations to high
-But I would rather have high expectations that I hardly ever reach then low ones that never let me shine
-I like answering questions
-But I like asking them more
-actually reverse that
-I'm a very curious creature
-It will prolly end up killing me
-I think I'm going to die from a car crash
I wear wristbands to cover up my scars(not anymore)
-I don't mind the cold
-But I hate how it makes your scars show up better
-I'm not ashamed of my scars
-There part of my life story
-But I hate having people notice them
-Especially the words
-Big dogs scare me WAY more than big snakes
-I get startled easily
-I have abandonment issues
-I'm sure than ive repeated a few things but I dont feel like checking
-Shaving is the worst thing about waking up in the morning
-I dont think I'm ever going to be good enough for my parents
-Now I realize that they're so ungodly proud of me that i smile whenever I think about it
-Maybeh I feel like theyre to good for me
-I wont ask you to do something that I wouldn't do myself
-Theres something that I want to put on this list but it keep slipping my mind
-This is officially five pages
-Thats about four and a half more pages than I expected to come up with
-I secretly like to dance ALOT
-90 alternative music is my favorite kind ever
-Dont call me emo, even though I can be at times
-I cried when i watched might ducks three a couple years back
-Seriously i did
-I hate waking up and having to get dressed
-I ran away when i was 15
-I didnt get to far though
-yes it was a cry for attention
-I have more problems than i like to admit
-I dont write as much as I would like to
-I forgot half of the things ive put on this list
-im done using this as a relationship updater, i swear
-My true friends are just as important to me as my family


new addition: 2/17/08

-I have a mohawk and I love it.
-missouri isnt nearly as bad as it used to be
-I love hardcore punk
-I have a constant debate in my mind about whether i should go strait edge or not
-I secretly have a crush on someone who I consider to be one of the most close minded people in the world
-Im slowly starting to think that there is no "right girl" for me, and that I should just settle for someone close.
-Im having a much harder time doing this then I thought I would
-I despise mass media but I cant cut the cord for myself
-I guess that makes me a hypocrite, but thats been common knowledge for years
-I love talking to people about God
-I hate how I cant find a nice punk rock girl. They dont exist
-I really dont have a clue what im looking for in a woman, but I deffenatly know some of the things I dont want.
-I dont get ANY action in the winter time, save for hugs, its a proven fact.
-I cant wait for spring to come around hahaha
-Drugs do apsolutely nothing for me. There not even a social lubricant anymore. They only bring me down.
-I want to be famous someday and plan on it, once I get my shit together.
-Mind you i have no idea what "my shit" entails
-Im a pretty big procrastinator
-I dont really play video games anymore. except rock band
-Speaking of which, I want to be in a hardcore punk band. I just dont have the initiative to find the right people to start one. Or the heart to be told I suck a million times over but keep playing until we get it right.
-I admire Ian McKay even though his new band sucks
-I wish i could have been involved with the 80's hardcore scene
-I dont have religous views.
-I think that the only way we can really discover a "universal truth" is to devolve ourself as much as possible.
-I try to take one more step back from sophistication each day. its not something I keep track of, but its in the back of my mind.
-Im more punk than you!
-so is Mc Lars
-if punk points really did exist I would have over a bajillion. I shit you not.
-I activly protest against the WBC
-I have big plans for them when the wether warms up and they come back to missouri
-Most of them are actually really nice people though, like this one girl, i dont know her name, but shes super nice.
-Im pretty much incapable of speaking eligantly, but when it comes to written word, im the shit lol.
-I spend way too much money on junk food
-I have a love hate relationship with my job at mcdonalds
-I owe a movie place over 100 dollers in late fee's.
-Music is still my life.
-Im very lonly right now, but ive been alot lower in the past.
-I wish that I could change the world tomorrow.
-I wish that I had the nerve to approach girls in public instead of having to resort to finding them online.
-The thing about that is I seak a girl with intellegence and tats a very hard thing to find out if someone has in the few briefs moments most girls will allow you to have before they want you to get to the point of the conversation which is the inevitable "can I get your number"
-I crave human contact
-Sadly ive never found a woman who I can show the true extent on my sexuality to.
-Im most deffenatly a night person.
I dont have a favorite pattern.
-I love patterns by the way.
-I look for them in my life and I didnt realize it until a girl pointed it out to me one day.
-I really shouldnt talk tot hat girl because the fact that she doesnt want to fuck me brings me down too much
-Im a firm believer in casual sex, although I have forbidden myself from engaging in it anymore because it wont satisfy my real needs or desires.
-The first time I had sex it was incredibly casual, and the girl was drunk, I kept trying to look into her eyes as we were fucking and she never returned my gaze. THATS why I dont like casual sex.
-im not a whore, just a scorpio, there is a difference, I just cant explain it to you.
-I have three cats and I have a love-hate relationship with them.
-I only have two sex bracelets left. One is from my sister, the other, a whore (not literally) I cherish them both.
-I traded one of the shower curtain rings I had for the blue sex bracelet, and I wish I could get it back
-I lost the other ring in the fry vat for the fillet-o-fish at mcdonalds. I couldnt find it afterwards. *secret*
-brian desperatly wants me to do some sort of hallucinogenic with him, but I think when the time comes I will say no.
-I seriously want to be strait-edge, but there are too many things holding me back right now. Mostly peer-pressure.
-Im happy I made this list.




-I found someone else who has a list similar to mine and im putting some of her stuff on here as well. the following are hers that apply to me:
-music makes me feel alive and i really believe that it can save you
-sometimes i don't make sense like i want to
-i am a dreamer
-crying doesn't always make you a wuss
-a hoodie(or tee-shirt) and jeans is comfort at it's best
-i want to get married outside
-i always look up when i walk outside at night
-i'm a sucker for anything acoustic
-i'd rather expierence things than have lots of things
-i like long hair
-i really believe that you can't waste time wishing
-i don’t like how there's always going to be times when i wish i had my camera
-i like making people smile/laugh when they don’t want to
-being out of line just to make sure you don’t want to be there is okay, sometimes
-i don't like borrowing money
-i don't like dogs that fit into purses.
-wooden docks are perfect.
-i am a huge procrastinator
-i always have a song stuck in my head
-i really am fascinated by the sky
-michigan (almost) always felt like home
-i eat lots of junk food
-i don't wash my clothes every time i wear them
-i usually learn the hard way
-lots of things make me happy
-few make me sad
-i don’t believe in giving up. on anything.
-i'd rather have 3 best friends than 50 friends
-the best communication is without words
-starry nights and shooting stars define summer
-i take hot showers even in the summer
-i always overplay my favorite songs.
-the best lyrics are the ones that make you scream
-I change, just like everyone else
-i don’t buy pants if they aren’t too long
-computer viruses piss me off soo much.
-i hope someday i’m completely open-minded
-it’s best to think maturely but act entirely immature
-i have learned that perfect isn’t always perfect and most things worth having aren’t easily won
-my standards change
-I appreciate ALL the good times
-it’s okay to attempt looking pretty and smelling good for only one person
-i hate when there’s a catch.
-you’re only really alive in people’s hearts.
-I have no idea where im going, but ill tell you when I get there
-i love going on walks.
-nothing is not worth feeling
-i like sharing space and still feeling comfortable
-i’d rather be working for a paycheck, than waiting to win the lottery
-it’s not where you ride, it’s who you’re with
-no one wants to hear about potential
-there's a difference between love and comfort
-and sometimes, all it takes is that perfect song on that perfect drive to feel infinite.