KestralWolfe• Show poetry

"Fate - monstrous
   and empty,
      you whirling wheel,
         you are malevolent,
             well-being is vain
         and always fades to nothing,
      shadowed
   and veiled
you plague me too;
   now through the game
      I bring my bare back
         to your villainy."
Carl Orf-"O Fortuna"



                  "I lack the beauty you display
                   See here they are the bruises
                   And some were self-inflicted
                   And some showed up along the way"


                 "So now we've come upon the hardest thing ive ever done
                  It's telling you that i'm a mess
                  What sort of mess i mean
                  Is self-destructive gasoline
                  The kind that strips you of your best"
Blue October-"Chameleon Boy"


I'd call myself normal if I didn't fee that was an insult.  I was born and have lived almost all my life in the same city, and am annoyed at how many people live here now.  We have smog... who would have guessed it 10 years ago... or 15?  Ah well, I suppose things are allowed to change... whether I want them to or not.

I've been writing since I was about five, random things, poetry, short stories and novels, but have never had the courage to get anything published.  

I've been through alot of pain, alot of horror in my life, and never fully healed from one when the next came around to slap me.  So I've got more than my share of morbidity, depression, and yes, physical scars.  Oh well.  Everyone goes through shite in their life, and I'm trying to deal with mine, and heal without driving those around me completely insane... hence the prolific writing.  ^_^

Hmmm what else?  I'm a Texan but I've never sounded like it unless I'm near my family... redneck by birth if not by action.  I have a rather chameleon accent, I like it except when people think I'm mocking them.  Then I have to go through a lengthy explination on my accent and how it changes depending on who is around me.

I'm a social chameleon.  People... most who know the surface face, have no idea.  People terrify me... I've always been shy, but when I'm forced to it, I can become what I need to be to fit in.  I suppose it's a skill, but it's also a shame.  I wish I could show my real face to those I meet without having to put on a mask.