Kaylee whatever• Show poetry

FYI... My author info and some of my poems have explicit language in them.





myspace= www.myspace.com/kayleeee61305

msn=kaylee_wh0a_420@hotmail.com

(the o in whoa is a zero for those of you who aren't fond of copy and paste.)


add either and or both if you wish..



My name's Kaylee.
I decided to change this up again
I feel optimistic today so...
Well here's a brief history about me...
First off, I've been here since June 2005,
But have gone through fazes where I don't come on here
Around August, 2004, I started cutting myself, wanting to kill myself, etc.
When I got together with my first love, all that went away, he made everything better for me.
After 9 months, we broke up, I resorted back to cutting for a while, then got really into drugs and alcohol. I was mainly popping pills and drinking alot. I overdosed one night and whatnot
In February of 2007, I almost died from alcohol poisoning, I had a blood alcohol level of .248.. I was diagnosed with bi polar disease but never treated.
I quit smoking weed around late August/early September of 2007
I have a boyfriend who I have been with since August 2, 2007, he makes me very happy, and has showed me that life has so much more to it than meets the eye. He is my everything, he is my life.
I've matured alot from being this person that couldn't see the light that comes with life, and only looking at the bad.
I still am very depressed, but am able to look at the good things as well.
I was not and never have been saved by "god" I don't believe in god, I used to, but not anymore. Weird thing is that when I did believe, that's when I was going through my hard times. I don't believe but I'm happy. Don't get into it with me about religion, it's my personal opinion.
I don't do any drugs anymore. The only drugs I have ever done is marijuana and I used to pop cough and cold medication pills, between 8-20 pills a day for 10 months. I've never done meth, heroine, extacy, acid, cocaine, or anything like that, and I never will. I smoke cigarettes and drink. I don't go to school, I have a job, I'm getting my G.E.D and then am going to start studying web design.
Uhm wow, okay, that was actually a not so brief history.

Okay..
So I come on here very randomly, never a set time or date. So if you need to contact me, the best way to get ahold of me is my email. (kaylee_wh0a_420@hotmail.com once again)
or on my myspace

If you read all this, I'm proud of you

Regards,
Kaylee.



"All That I've Got"
The Used.

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got