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Due to school and such, I've not been around for a while.  Hopefully this will change very soon!  Til then, keep penning the great stuff!

If you've not read "Shattered Angel Renewed Hope" by Onxy Fire Tear (Angel) I suggest you do, especially if you're into angels, as I am.  It's a very moving poem, and one in which I think most of us can relate.  While Angel had no way of knowing, she described my soul perfectly, and it had a similar affect on others as well.  I've never had a poem move me so deeply.  Thank you Angel; my comments on your poem speak for themselves    allpoetry.com/Poem/691659 

This poem to me by DarkenedRainbow made my day. It's wicked to know I have made a difference in somebody's life.  Thank you my friend  allpoetry.com/poem/768772

Here's a few quotes I've seen around that I like, so I thought I'd put them here to share.  Most of them seem to come from song lyrics I can relate to LOL:  Enjoy

~*Nothing is more painful than realizing that he meant everything to you, and you meant nothing to him*~

~*What happens when the only person who could make you smile when you were down and upset is the one who put the frown on your face and the tears in your eyes?*~

~*I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I'm going to smile*~

~*You saw me crying, but you didn't want to look; you heard me hurting, but you didn't want to listen*~

~*The worst way to miss someone is to be standing right next to them and know you can't have them*~

~*I want a reason for the way things have to be; I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me ~ "Calling All Angels" Train*~

~*Did you miss me while you were searching for yourself out there? ~ "Drops of Jupiter" Train*~

~*There's a place I like to hide, a doorway that I run through in the night ~ "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche*~

~*If you open your mind for me, you won't rely on open eyes to see ~ "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche*~

~*I thought I lost you somewhere, but you were never really ever there at all ~ "Here Is Gone" Goo Goo Dolls*~

~*I'm over this, I'm tired of living the dark.  Can anyone see me down here?  This feeling's gone; there's nothing left to lift me up, back into the world I know ~ "Away From the Sun" 3 Doors Down*~

~*This love has taken its toll on me....~ "This Love" Maroon 5*~

~*Oh, what a tangled web we weave, we first we practice to deceive*~

~*Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought, and the thought has found words ~ Robert Frost*~

~*Believe those who seek the truth; doubt those who find it*~

~*You suck - but not in a good way*~

~*I respect your opinion, I just think it's stupid*~

~*It infuriates me to be wrong when I know I'm right*~

Ok, in case you want to know a little about me:  See the pic - well, that's me LOL, and  I live in Michigan, which is a total kickass state.  I love it here anyway, nasty cold winters and all!  I love hockey (go Red Wings ~ this year, right boys?!) and football (GO BLUE!!!)  Michigan football is f-ing great - sorry if you're a State fan.....I promise I won't hold that against you  

Sometimes I can have an attitude, especially if I feel I'm being dissed.  I've been told I'm naive but like I care; I'm happy with who I am and how I was raised.  I was raised to be trusting and if that's a bad thing, then I'm truly an evil person LOL  Actually, I HAVE been told I'm evil, which is totally cool with me   Also, if you abuse my trust and faith, I'm not one to forgive easily.  Once I'm hurt badly, you're done.  I'm so much like the poem above by Angel it's not funny.  Really, you should read it.  You'll get a better understanding of who I really am.  

As some of you may have noticed, I tend to write a lot about angels and some of my poems are spiritual.  Angels are definately something I believe in, as I know I have quite a few around me (Mike, I love you )  They've helped me out a lot of times, so I do write about them quite a bit.  They give me the comfort I seek most of the time through dreams or thoughts, or something weird will happen just out of the blue and I'll think of that person and know my angel is near me. I have my faith but rely more upon my angels than a specific "God" although I do believe; I just believe in my angels more   I'm into a "dark" stage at the moment, to match my mood, but I'm sure the angel and happier poems are deep inside somewhere; they will surface when I'm over what hurt I'm going through - at least I hope they do. 

I'm totally into music with Metallica, Goo Goo Dolls, Matchbox 20, Train, Ozzy, Black Sabbath, Staind, 3 Doors Down, Third Eye Blind, and other heavy metal/rock/alternative rock bands on my list of faves.  As of now, my favorite band is 3 Doors Down.  As i'm "abnormal" that will probably change soon  

For now, my "song of the moment" is Queensryche, "Silent Lucidity"  Check it out if you want - that song can make me cry  but I love it anyway.

Hush now you don't cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over...or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run to in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the tears
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly, you hear and see
This magic new dimension

CHORUS
I-will be watching over you
I-am gonna help you see it through
I-will protect you in the night
I-am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity

If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumblng down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but... (CHORUS)

Also, for some reason, blonde and blue-eyed guys make me weak hahaha!  I have dark hair so go figure; blonde guys are wicked!!  There's one in particular, and to him I wish nothing but love, happiness, and joy.  Actually, I wish him to rot in Hell and may all horses he ride buck him off   I've never met a more selfish prick and asshole in my life so to him - I hope you just fade away like you should have before.  I have a fantastic new boyfriend who was raised properly.  Imagine that - having manners *gasp*  Wow, what a concept!!!  Sean-Michael - you're the best knight I ever had LOL

To my bud Cici - I just want to say thanks for telling me about this site.  Her poems are wicked and dark, so if that's your thing, I suggest you check her out allpoetry.com/poets/DarkenedRainbow 

I also need to give big hugs to Angel (Onxy Fire Tear), Nikki (TheEnigmaOfLife), Jacki (Jacki D) and Swanee (Night Hope) - who's encouragement keeps me going!  Their poetry (as you all probably already know!) is just excellent.  if you've not checked them out, please do so.  Their support of me has been tremendous    I know there are many more of you i wish to put here and eventually, i will have a list - with LINKS - one of these days   Omissions are not intentional!!

I hope you all enjoy my poems, and it seems many of you already do and, for that, I kindly thank each and every one of you for taking the time to read and reply to them!  Your kindness is greatly appreciated more than you know - Cheers and much love to you all

Contests won:  Gold for "Song Titles" 7/8/04; Silver for "The Hardest Part" 6/3/04, "The Truthful Mirror" 6/19/04, "My Autistic Brother 7/9/04, "Packing Away Memories 7/29/04; Bronze for "The Knife" 6/3/04; "For Reiche" 7/20/04; "Tears" 8/30/04