JasmineMarie• Show poetry

I am constantly trying to think of myself, and everyone as a little deeper. We dont usually give credit to the things that are emotional and I want to be the person to do that. I want to make people think about the deeper side of things, even if it is only for a second. Poetry is the way that I do this, and I will continue to write poetry, until I am certain people are thinking to their fullest ability. This means I will be writing poetry until the day I am gone. Writing however is not a burden, I wouldn't do it if I didn't love it. I dont always get to do the things that I love to do. But where ever I am as long as I have paper, and something to write with I can write poetry. Its dependable, it all depends on what I am thinking. My poetry usually doesnt have a system or form. I speak from whatever I feel and think. If the poem comes out a little messed up thats ok, because it is all raw material anyway. I try not to limit myself to a length or style, cuz thats not me, I am many different things and I think that my poetry should be too. I grow everyday with everything I do, and there is one person who has helped me to grow alot lately. Teaching me to not be so, full of myself and keeping my harsh ego in check. I wont ever forget that. I wrote a poem for this person, one which will never be featured here, because its just too personal and way too dear. And it took me months to finally complete it. With many trials and errors, but thats what life is about.

Recently I have had terrible writers block. It is actually making me a little bit angry because I have all these creative ideas in my brain, just no way to get them on to paper or to type them out. Its like they are stuck in my mind and when I try to set down and get them out... they dissappear. Also if I do get ideas, I can only write in one form or another. I cant widen my herizons and try new things which is what I really want to do. ...

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Places I have lived:
Fair Oaks, CA
LA, CA
Inglewood, CA
Dearborn,MI
D-Town, MI
Gillette, WY
Rozet, WY
Somewhere in TX
Shreveport, LA
Other places probably... I travel... unwillingly.

I dont understand why some people are so upset with their parents for not ever moving and giving them the chance to explore. Because moving sucks to be so honest with you. I have moved too many times to too many places and its physically and mentally and emotionally staining.No matter how much of a people person one is, its still so hard to build and re build the relationships that have been eroded from years of not seeing each other or meeting new people.

I watched this movie not too long ago. Called Born into Brothels, it was about these children in India... It was a documentary, The kids were born into these brothels and they had little or no education. This little girl in the opening statements was 10 years old. She said that she feared that soon, she would have to be a prostitute. 10 YEARS OLD!A baby, a child and she was worried about becoming a prostitute there was no hope in her eyes. I began to cry. It went on to tell the stories of several children just like her. All living in the same red light district in India. The only thing that gave them hope, and brought them out of their world for a short while was the pictures they take with their cameras for photo class. These pictures are some of the most amazing photographs I have ever seen in my entire life. The kids were so talented and smart and humble and FULL OF LIFE! It was amazing to me to see how resiliant they were and how they adapted to still be able to allow themselves to be a child when so much around them is trying to force them to grow up so fast. Most of my poems lately have been about being humble and this is why. Because seeing those babies 10-14 years old, coming to the realization that they might have to be prostitutes and trying to do anything to get out of the in-escapeable situation they are in made me realize that I have it so good I would be a HUGE HUGE FOOL to take anything that I have for granted. I am not doing this story justice by simply telling you about it. Watch it for yourself and you will understand. This movie HAS made an effect on my life and I dont know maybe it will make one on you too. I am humbled because of this movie and I dont know what else to say.

www.kids-with-cameras.org/bornintobrothels/

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HOW WOULD I DESCRIBE MYSELF......?... Well read "I Am" 1 AND 2 lol.
I am a Libra.... for all of you who dont know, that means I am an extrovert and I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee balance in my life. And I strive to keep that. September 30th birthday Kudos to myself! lol. Obviously I am a little corny, or alot depending on how you percieve me. I have been through alot of things. Some things that NO ONE knows about. And I mean no one, not my parents, friends,peers,elders,no one. Well... maybe a few select people.lol... I contradict myself alot (obviously)I think thats partly because I am a libra, and I like to see both sides of the spectrum, whether in an arguement or otherwise. I am smart... NO REALLY I AM! But I am a slacker sometimes which isnt the best habit to have as a senior in highschool. I love singing and dancing, long walks on the beach lol.... JOKING.(For all you who didnt get that joke)My favorite show... to watch ever that grabs my attention and inspires me is probably Def Poetry. I can watch an episode and come out with 5-6 new ideas or ways of thinking that I never even thought about before. Not saying I bite their things just saying those people are amazing especially to me who I must say has a mildly severe case of stage fright. For them to go up there and deliver these amazing poems leaves me in awe, because I write most of my poems to be delivered like that, orally ...not just read, but will I ever have the chance or courage to get up and say things like that.... most likely not. And unfortunate truth that I have come to terms with. Its funny that I am an extrovert but I am afraid of people. If you just talk to me first or something like that it is much easier for me to just be like ahhhhh which can be intimidating but I dont bite trust me. I think that I am very loving, its just all about finding the right person to give all my love to... which is challenging.I wont elaborate on that lol. Anyway I just felt like writing, and I think I was feeling a tad bit concieted so I decided since I cannot write a poem, for some odd reason, that I would write on here. Is it possible to have writers block from one type of writing???... hmmmm maybe.

I am African American and Italian
and I am so proud of that.
So many people view me as....
I dont even want to explain that
but I am just SO PROUD to be what I am
to be ME and I am proud not be so proud
so you can ask me whats the best race or
nationality and I am going to say that
we are all the same.
And that no one need be judged by
the color of their skin because
that is ignorant and naive and
I dont take part in that.
I have learned from being what I am
that coming together is what its all about.
Just living without judging and thats all me.

I AM GRADUATING IN 2006!!!!!!!!!!! I cant ever wrap my head around the idea yet, but before I know it, I know that it will be gone and I will have moved on. I dont know I have been emotional lately and I just want to thank everyone who has ever helped me do anything ever. Because I am at a point of thinking. What if... That one person didnt help me at that one time... how would my life be different and how would i be changed. I dont know... complicated butterfly effect... type random thought from JASMINE AS USUAL. ANYWAY I love you all.

I have been in a place in my life that hasn't been so cheery. Its hard to be happy. And to smile, but I do, I put on that face, for everyone to see.
But Its Hard
Honestly
Hard
Challenging
I dont know what else to say.
:'(


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So as I was saying, I was interested in what services you have to offer?

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Customer: Shoot.

Fredricka: Whats wrong sir? Dont curse at me please.

Customer: No its just a figure of speech, sorry continue.

Fredricka: I will start with the "pet services" first, we have the shave your pet service, grooming, washing, nail trimming, large pet care, small pet care, semi-small pet care, almost medium pet care, medium,, lil more then medium, nearly large, might as well be called large but still medium pet care, large, larger, largest, bigger then that pet care(elephants giraffs etc.), Ocean pet care, tank pet care, I care for my pet pet care, I sorta care for my pet pet care, I at least feed my pet pet care, TAKE IT AWAY pet care. Do you have a pet sir?

Customer: Errm No.

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Customer: You were on a roll I didnt want to interrupt..

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Ainsley Burrows 910


THIS is gonna hurt
like a power outtage during your abortion.
hurt like
the 666 is now the American flag

THIS is gonna hurt like
Adolf Hitler came back as CNN,
now the Muslims are the Jews

THIS is gonna hurt like
the Holocaust was an independent film,
slavery was a blockbuster, made
billions for motherfuckers

THIS is gonna hurt like
America's a big gas chamber,
but niggas don't burn well,
believe me, they've tried.

THIS is gonna hurt like
the wolf ain't comin in sheeps
clothing, the wolf is comin as a
chain store sellin FUBU on UPN
with a bucket of popcorn chicken,
a cross and a crack pipe through
the infommercial allowed to spread AIDS in Africa

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
pulling a bowling ball backwards through your dick

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a urinary tract infection *pauses* in your tear ducts,
don’t cry motherfucker!!

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a blow job from your sister *pauses*
with your mom’s coaching her

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
the scent of your ancestors blood
caked on the psyche of white America
hurt like the memories locked up in
broken bones, like the steel of
starvation like the blood face
on the window of colonialism

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a "FUCK YOU!" note to the third world

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a 14yr old girl giving birth to her brother

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
your third eye in a glass of white milk

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
the metal in your ankh was mined
by oppressed Africans

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
theres more racism and apartheid
in your engagement diamond,
than in all of South Africa

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a tight pair of Nikes,
two sizes too small,
crafted from the skull of a
Chinese sweatshop worker

THIS is gonna hurt like
the World Bank, like the IMF,
like the Center for Disease control

THIS is gonna hurt like
free bibles for enslaved peoples
THIS shit is gonna hurt like
Reagan was playin' president

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
George W...W...W..W...W...W....
that motherfucker is ALSO playing president

THIS is gonna hurt like
the opium trade, and the World Trade Center

THIS is gonna hurt like
genocide in our music
hurt like
being double crossed and framed by hip-hop
hurt like
Iraq, Iran, Afghanistan, Algeria, Panama, Palestine, Nicuaraga, Nigeria, Liberia, Lebanon, Libya

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
being double-crossed by the CIA

THIS is gonna hurt like
Osama bin Laden lives in New Jersey

THIS is gonna hurt like
Osama bin Laden was killed in 1997

THIS is gonna hurt like
9/11 ...Fuck 9/11 !!!

THIS is gonna hurt like
1492, like 1555, like 1690, like 1776, like 1865 like

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
three fifths

THIS is gonna hurt like
Japanese concentration camps on American soil

THIS is gonna hurt like
Tuskegee Experiments, like small-pox, like the word Indian, like reservations, like the same bullet that killed Malcolm, Medger, Kennedy, and King was fired by the same

THIS shit is gonna hurt like
a nigga late for his own lynching

This shit is gonna hurt bad, its gonna hurt good!
and ugly and beautiful, but most of all
it's gonna hurt
simply
because thats how Karma works
America. ~Ainsley Burrows