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YAY I JUST TURNED 16 years old! (December 18th)

I have not written much lately... for a long time now. I guess I've gone through a very long stage of writers block and pray that it comes back because some days it's on the tip of my tongue and i miss pulling out a piece of paper and jotting it all down, but it just won't come out. I still have quite a few pieces uncommented I'm sure, and comments are still much appreciated until further notice of writes.
I did write a piece about a week ago. A sad attempt, but it was for a contest and I just went with it and forced it out of me >_<. thanks for reading, please feel free to read my writes!
much appreciated
~Madi~

The rest of this page is preettttttyyyyyyyyyyyyyy darn old.








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I love to write. I could sit down and write anything. I am a very sensitive person at times I'll admit. And I have numbed myself for a long time now. But I am slowly healing with the help and prayer of friends and of God.

Please do not assume I am a strong christian. I just last year was a gothic depressed anti-christ. I mean ANTI.... I didn't beleive he was there for me. And I beleived in Him. But like many teens I was mad at God. He turned my life around. And until I went back to the camp I became a christian by, did I realize how much He can work in your life and you not even notice.

Anyway I am a red Head girl of the age of 15

I like punk-rock/metal/emo music. I love sitting in my room with the shutters shut and lying down on the carpet and just letting go of thoughts. It usually takes a while. And in a way it IS meditating. But once you drain your thoughts, your so numb it feels better almost.(almost). then that razor!

I had an AP family but they sort of abandoned me, and we do not talk much. But I am free for anyone who wants to adopt me, I make a good servent as well *bows*.

I do not know much more to put in here about me, that would be worth reading so I will leave it at this for now. Love to all.





~Madi~

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If I cut myself wide open would you crawl inside and save my soul?


Any teen who can wake up in the morning
and be willing to face another painful, agonizing day
out there in that dark, cold, ugly world
is mentally powerful.
The one with so many shattered hearts and broken dreams,
just searching relentlessly for something, someone to hold on to and believe in.
No one in the world is as strong as a teen trying to persevere
in this media-centred culture we're living in.
Always being pressured to act like someone else,
look like someone else, talk like someone else...be someone else.
Listening to rumours and lies said about them,
crying themselves to sleep at night,
being made fun of for looks and interests,
and as a result: suicides, shootings, depression,
and sometimes leading up to even terrorism.
So think about the things you say and do before you pursue them,
because the actions you perform today
might have an effect on the world tomorrow.







People who have changed my life (in a good way): (not in order) : Mrs.Derrick, Jane, Jannette, Melissa, Katie, Carolyn, Erica E., Ashley V., Kelly, Mrs.Martinez, Senora Crump, Sadie, Jazzy (AP twin), Julie C., Aaron M., Danielle D., Meg, Rosie, Thorn, Charity, Jackie, Mrs. Lora, Mrs. Brandi,







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some of my sites

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other AP screen names: The POssessed Twin, XxThornxX

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{~Vampire Freaks~}:{relatively old, unused}:
www.vampirefreaks.com/o/ImUrFadingMemory
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{~Piczo-very very old~):
www.XxThornxX.piczo.com
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{~Here is my myspace~}:www.myspace.com/snapeschoolnerd

{haven't been on in 8 months now-mostly because I was away, but I should be on again sometime soon--hopefully}
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imurfadingmemory.freewebspace.com
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AND I LOVE MY AP FAMILY!

{though we haven't talked in AGES and I'm sure everyone else has stayed in tough, I apologize greatly--- But wherever most of you are! (think most of you/all of you are on my favorites, though you have changed many of your names a billion times before but you're still on there! WELL YOUR AP DAUGHTER, TWIN, AUNT, ECT... MISSES YOU ALL!!!!

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SOME AWSOME POEMS!-short songs-and dark quotes (the quotes were placed on here long time ago when I was severely deperssed.. i mean more than now... and I still find them as if they were a part of the person I was, but I'm afraid keeping them on here makes me look like some dark freakish person... but oh well maybe I'll remove them someday... :

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Razors and knives, horrible things,
Explanations, slip my mind
Press and drag, for comforting stings,
Soon, addiction's what you find.
No longer can you wait a day,
An hour's far too long,
Despite what you hear them say,
You still don't think it's wrong.
You like the sting, it makes you smile,
While the blood dripping down makes you snicker,
Finally, something worth your while,
As the lines grow thicker and thicker.."




"I'll draw you a picture,
I'll draw it with a twist,
I'll draw it with a razorblade,
I'll draw it on my wrist.
And if I draw it correctly,
a red fountain will appear...
to wash away my sorrows,
to chase away my fears."




Hogwarts, Hogwarts, Hoggy Warty Howarts
Teach us something, please,
Wether we old and bald
Or young with scabby knees,
Our heads could do with filling
With some intresting stuff,
For now they're bare and full of air
Dead flies and bits of fluff,
So teach us things worth knowing,
Bring brought what we've forgot,
Just do your best, we'll do the rest,
And learn until our brains all rot.

LOVE HP!!!! LOVE JKR!!!! LOVE PROFFESSOR SNAPE!!!!


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QUOTES:

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If i cut myself wide open would you crawl inside and save my soul?


Yesterday was History Tomorrow is a Mystery but today is a gift that's why it is called the preset.


"Scars are stories, history written on the body."

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How will you know I am hurting,
If you cannot see my pain?
To wear it on my body
Tells what words cannot explain."


"And despite what I might say
I measure pleasure by the pain
Measure pleasure by the twisting
Of the metal in the vein."


?Where do you go to get anorexia??


what if the person you secretly loved
tells you that he already found
that special someone that he wants
to spend forever with.
would you be brave enough to ask him who it is?
or bear the pain inside, not knowing
it was you all along...


Before love I was an optomistic girl
During love I was a happy girl
After love I was a broken girl
Now I'm just a dead girl
Stuck inside a living body
LOVE KILLS


Another cutter, Another freak,
Another dork, Another geek,
Another prep, Another jock,
Another whore, And more punk rock,
Another hater, Another "G",
Another scar they put on me.
Another label that happens to fall
when no one really knows the person at all.



She's so sick of never being beautiful enough, never being stronger, or better. She?s sick of going home everyday, & wishing she was someone else. For once she wants to look in the mirror & be happy for what she sees back. She's so sick of everyone telling her "you can do so much better then that". Maybe she can't? She's sick of people bringing her down & telling her that she isn't good enough. But i guess all she really wants, is to be more then 2nd best.


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That's it for now!!!!

~Madison G.~
(AKA: madi, mado, possessed twin, RED)
please don't call me Imur or fading or memory or any abbreviated form of my name--- I'll give you my name Madi! but if you do refuse to use my name please call me by my FULL name, otherwards what would be the point of the whole thing being there?
THANKS- MUCH APPRECIATED!