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[[Latest Update: Going to work with Dad tomorrow!!]]












Yes, I did love my old page, but sometimes you just need to change things up, you know?

To start off, I am very blunt - especially on the internet (now I sound like a geek).

I'll treat you like you're new to me, and start -all over.-
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I am 13 years old, in the 8th grade,

I have drank alcohol,

I have done drugs,

I have smoked cigarettes,

I have been to wild parties,

I have been abused,

I have dealt with self-harm,

I have let myself & others down,

I have dated a girl [[I'm bisexual]],

And I'm most likely letting Y-O-U down right now, because you hoped I would be amazing.
[[w.r.o.n.g.]]
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I have a therapist named Phil who I see every second Tuesday.
Of course, I don't tell him much, because then he would try to get me help.
I have a separate account on AllPoetry where I write poetry about doing drugs, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, etc. Because I have friends who know this account and to be honest, I don't want help at this point.
The only thing I need in life, to be happy, is a friend (: [[and possibly some booze.]]

I live with my mother and 2 sisters, my parents got divorced when I was 3 years old.
One sister is older, her name is Sam, the other one is younger and her name is Molly. My mother's name is Gina.
Molly is my half-sister. If you feel like trying to understand, I'll explain my confusing family to you:
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1) My mother and father met and got married at a very young age.
2) My mother miscarried 3 children.
3) My mother eventually gave birth to a girl named Samantha, 3 months premature, on the verge of dying but obviously lived.
4) My mother and father delivered their second daughter, Me, a late baby who almost died as well.
5) My mother and father got divorced when I was 3 years old, the same year I broke my arm. [dunno why I tolja that]
6) My father lived in the same city I did, I saw him every week, then every two weeks, then not at all. He ended up moving to Massachusetts for his job, and married my deaf stepmother, Amy. Amy already had a child named April, who became my step sister, and my father's stepdaughter.
7) My mother got remarried as well, to a man named Joe. Joe already had 3 children - 2 girls and 1 boy - Lissa, Becky, and Will, who became my step-siblings. My mother and Joe delivered a baby girl named Molly, who is now my half sister.
8) Joe was abusive, after 5 years he finally got kicked out, and my mother and Joe divorced. So I have 2 step sisters once removed, and 1 step brother once removed.
9) My mother is still dating new people, and isn't remarried.
10) My father is still married to Amy.
11) Because my stepfather was abusive, my mother kept their child.
12) My mother also took me and Sam. Sam is my only full sister.
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Get it? If you do you're amazingly smart :3
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At this moment I am deaf in my left ear, there's a possibility I have an ear infection but mother is refusing to take me to the doctor's. Sooo I guess I'll just have to deal with it xP But it is a bit upsetting that I can't listen to my music. Speaking of music, I literally like anything - and I always love new music - so feel free to send a couple songs my way.

I have OCD, and possibly ADHD and Bipolar Disorder. I am taking Fluoxetine, a medication prescribed for depression & anxiety. I tried to kill myself with those once. Anyway! Things always have to be in order or else I freak out, and sometimes I have to tap my feet a certain amount of times, or blink, or make a noise, or move in certain ways. If I don't do those, there are "consequences" which don't even concern the circumstance - For example, I might have to run across the road RIGHT NOW even though a car is coming, or else my bird will break her wing. Silly and irrelevant things like that.

I'll be adding more later but I don't feel like it right now =] LMAO. Anyway, sign my guestbook to let me know you've been here, and I love new friends so it's a win-win situation for the both of us! =3

Haha, bye.