No one will ever get me. I can except that. I just hate when they try to change me. They can't see that I am tired of changing. I wasn't always what I am today. I used to be happy. I used to value myself. But I changed over the years. So I don't want to change anymore.
Authors to Check Out
chained anti-christ
innocent-harlot
born for the road
nickn
nick iz mint
(\ /)
(O.o)
(>" <---
/_|_\
Never reflect on your life, it will just depress you
The Hush Sound
Magnolia
Your heartbeat is pulsing at night in your chest
It's gold and it's glowing with all the life you have left
I received your words from hospitals where you felt alone
Your words like smoke, they made me sick but they kept me warm
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
Your eyes are like sea glass, so weathered and worn
From all they've seen of adolescence torn
The lovers who have tainted you, they pulled you into the night
They touched your skin with velvet gloves and made you feel alive
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
There's not much time
The blush in the sky begins to fade
You are weathered and worn
Your petals soft and torn
The fading color
You have bent your shoulders
To hold the weight of the world
You will surely shatter
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
There's not much time
The blush in the sky begins to fade
Chiodos
"The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined"
I've been hiding in this bed for weeks from this
Throats raw from screaming and I haven't said a word
The sky is calling, and the stars, they point to this
To a chair we see your breath in the air (breath in the air)
but only for a little while
Your cold pale skin and tainted purple lips
Let me embrace you with this kiss
And together we'll float like angels
Together... together we will float like angels
Higher than the heavens the clouds part ways
"Promise me to never look down!", and we'll stay like this forever
If your stomach feels weak, then my work here is done
To hide from our twisted ways,
I've been hiding in this bed
Been hiding in this bed for weeks
Reggie And The Full Effect
What The Hell Is A Stipulation?
She said she doesn't want a boyfriend, she's better off with friends
She doesn't like getting hurt when serious relations end
He only wants to see her whenever she will permit
He only wants to be with her and quit feeling like shit
All that he can give, he gives her
more then he really should now
whenever they meet he'll see her
and he'll tell her that he's happy
She feels good
This simple situation is easier unsaid
He knows just by him asking her it goes straight up to her head
All that he can give, he gives her
More then he really should now
Whenever they meet he'll see her
And he'll tell her that he's happy
If she could give the time she see that everything's fine
Its not up to me
She wishes that he would see its nothing to be that she will for he
She says she'll never need a boyfriend, she's happy with
her friends
She's keeping all her secrets with her up until the end
All that he can give, he gives her
More then he really should now
Whenever they meet he'll see her
And he'll tell her that he's happy
She feels good
She...she...feels...good
She feels good
Lostprophets
Broken Hearts, Torn Up Letters And The Story Of a Lonely Girl:
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better...
Her hands are in her pockets
And she's scared to look
The picture's frozen
And she's closed the book
Jealousy has only got one friend
And Joey's heart was never meant to mend
Walking faster now she holds him close
The timing matters just to take the dose
Empty pockets tell the stories..
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't fall in love
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better...
The nights are getting darker
And the wind is cold
The summer sun
Has now become so old
Her closest friends
Were never meant to fade
With all these dreams
That didn't make the grade
Close the doors but never look inside
Time will tell if all your love has died
Empty pockets tell the stories...
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't risk it all
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Times like these won't last forever...
Close the doors but never look inside
Time will tell if all your love has died
Empty pockets tell the stories...
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't fall in love
You'll regret it all
(Broken hearts and torn up letters)
Living behind your wall
(Girl you just can't dance forever)
And you'll never fall in love if you don't risk it all
(If you want to make it better...)
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Times like these won't last forever...
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
"The End"
Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry
Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!
I said yeah, yeah!
I said yeah, yeah!
C'mon C'mon C'mon I said
(Save me!) Get me the hell out of here
(Save me!) Too young to die and my dear
(You can't!) If you can hear me just walk away and
(Take me!)
"The Coldest Heart"
A couple of years and I'm a silhouette
My halo is broken now and I'm all that's left
I hate to disappoint but it's the way things went
I was blind to the things I did
And deaf to what was said
Tie up these loose ends
These voices are calling me out
I've got the solution
You can feed me to something
That is leaving this town
[Chorus:]
Whoa, I'm losing hope
There's a hole in my heart
That's been cut out of stone
Whoa, cold comes cold goes
Could you fill this hole?
Cause I can't do it alone
A couple of tears and I'm a broken mess
The sadness has taken me far too deep in regret
So sing me a song about something good
My heart's on the thrashing floor
And I've done every single thing I could
I use to believe in
Some kind of feeling
That could change everything I thought I knew
But that door is closed and
My heart feels like it's frozen
If you hear me I can feel you
[Chorus]
[Bridge 4x]
The coldest heart can be brought to life
When it's thrown into the fire of goodbyes
[Chorus 2x]
I've got the coldest heart [4x]
(Cause I can't do it alone)
A Fine Frenzy
Wretched, look at me, I've lost it, melting on the table
In parking lots and markets
I cant help it, loves you like a starfish loves the salty water
Like a selfish daughter
But I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
Foolish, how was I so careless
Pawning off my treasure, the envy of an heiress
Now my dollars are crumbled in my pocket
How can I reclaim it?
What if someone's got it?
When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
How could the world have turned so ugly
I am dying
Could you touch me again?
Touch me again
When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
Anya Marina
Clean And Sober
Darling you know I loved you something like a drug
Darling I twist and turn so in & out of love
And now I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
But I’ve got a black & blue hangover
Darling for you, Darling I do
Darling you know you tell me tiny little lies
Darling you’re such a pro with pretty little lines
And so you say you’re glad it’s over
And you’ve never felt so clean and sober
And you wish me luck and four leaf clovers
Darling you do, darling you do
I hope you die a fiery death
I love you. God, I need you yeah
I hope you choke
I wish you all the best for all the rest of your days
Darling I do…
And though I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
And though I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
Darling for you, darling I do
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Authors to Check Out
chained anti-christ
innocent-harlot
born for the road
nickn
nick iz mint
(\ /)
(O.o)
(>" <---
/_|_\
Never reflect on your life, it will just depress you
The Hush Sound
Magnolia
Your heartbeat is pulsing at night in your chest
It's gold and it's glowing with all the life you have left
I received your words from hospitals where you felt alone
Your words like smoke, they made me sick but they kept me warm
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
Your eyes are like sea glass, so weathered and worn
From all they've seen of adolescence torn
The lovers who have tainted you, they pulled you into the night
They touched your skin with velvet gloves and made you feel alive
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
There's not much time
The blush in the sky begins to fade
You are weathered and worn
Your petals soft and torn
The fading color
You have bent your shoulders
To hold the weight of the world
You will surely shatter
Run where you'll be safe
Through the garden gates
To the shelter of magnolias
There's not much time
The blush in the sky begins to fade
Chiodos
"The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined"
I've been hiding in this bed for weeks from this
Throats raw from screaming and I haven't said a word
The sky is calling, and the stars, they point to this
To a chair we see your breath in the air (breath in the air)
but only for a little while
Your cold pale skin and tainted purple lips
Let me embrace you with this kiss
And together we'll float like angels
Together... together we will float like angels
Higher than the heavens the clouds part ways
"Promise me to never look down!", and we'll stay like this forever
If your stomach feels weak, then my work here is done
To hide from our twisted ways,
I've been hiding in this bed
Been hiding in this bed for weeks
Reggie And The Full Effect
What The Hell Is A Stipulation?
She said she doesn't want a boyfriend, she's better off with friends
She doesn't like getting hurt when serious relations end
He only wants to see her whenever she will permit
He only wants to be with her and quit feeling like shit
All that he can give, he gives her
more then he really should now
whenever they meet he'll see her
and he'll tell her that he's happy
She feels good
This simple situation is easier unsaid
He knows just by him asking her it goes straight up to her head
All that he can give, he gives her
More then he really should now
Whenever they meet he'll see her
And he'll tell her that he's happy
If she could give the time she see that everything's fine
Its not up to me
She wishes that he would see its nothing to be that she will for he
She says she'll never need a boyfriend, she's happy with
her friends
She's keeping all her secrets with her up until the end
All that he can give, he gives her
More then he really should now
Whenever they meet he'll see her
And he'll tell her that he's happy
She feels good
She...she...feels...good
She feels good
Lostprophets
Broken Hearts, Torn Up Letters And The Story Of a Lonely Girl:
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better...
Her hands are in her pockets
And she's scared to look
The picture's frozen
And she's closed the book
Jealousy has only got one friend
And Joey's heart was never meant to mend
Walking faster now she holds him close
The timing matters just to take the dose
Empty pockets tell the stories..
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't fall in love
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better...
The nights are getting darker
And the wind is cold
The summer sun
Has now become so old
Her closest friends
Were never meant to fade
With all these dreams
That didn't make the grade
Close the doors but never look inside
Time will tell if all your love has died
Empty pockets tell the stories...
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't risk it all
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Times like these won't last forever...
Close the doors but never look inside
Time will tell if all your love has died
Empty pockets tell the stories...
And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't fall in love
You'll regret it all
(Broken hearts and torn up letters)
Living behind your wall
(Girl you just can't dance forever)
And you'll never fall in love if you don't risk it all
(If you want to make it better...)
Broken hearts and torn up letters
Girl you just can't dance forever
If you want to make it better
Times like these won't last forever...
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
"The End"
Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry
Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!
I said yeah, yeah!
I said yeah, yeah!
C'mon C'mon C'mon I said
(Save me!) Get me the hell out of here
(Save me!) Too young to die and my dear
(You can't!) If you can hear me just walk away and
(Take me!)
"The Coldest Heart"
A couple of years and I'm a silhouette
My halo is broken now and I'm all that's left
I hate to disappoint but it's the way things went
I was blind to the things I did
And deaf to what was said
Tie up these loose ends
These voices are calling me out
I've got the solution
You can feed me to something
That is leaving this town
[Chorus:]
Whoa, I'm losing hope
There's a hole in my heart
That's been cut out of stone
Whoa, cold comes cold goes
Could you fill this hole?
Cause I can't do it alone
A couple of tears and I'm a broken mess
The sadness has taken me far too deep in regret
So sing me a song about something good
My heart's on the thrashing floor
And I've done every single thing I could
I use to believe in
Some kind of feeling
That could change everything I thought I knew
But that door is closed and
My heart feels like it's frozen
If you hear me I can feel you
[Chorus]
[Bridge 4x]
The coldest heart can be brought to life
When it's thrown into the fire of goodbyes
[Chorus 2x]
I've got the coldest heart [4x]
(Cause I can't do it alone)
A Fine Frenzy
Wretched, look at me, I've lost it, melting on the table
In parking lots and markets
I cant help it, loves you like a starfish loves the salty water
Like a selfish daughter
But I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
Foolish, how was I so careless
Pawning off my treasure, the envy of an heiress
Now my dollars are crumbled in my pocket
How can I reclaim it?
What if someone's got it?
When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
How could the world have turned so ugly
I am dying
Could you touch me again?
Touch me again
When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it
Anya Marina
Clean And Sober
Darling you know I loved you something like a drug
Darling I twist and turn so in & out of love
And now I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
But I’ve got a black & blue hangover
Darling for you, Darling I do
Darling you know you tell me tiny little lies
Darling you’re such a pro with pretty little lines
And so you say you’re glad it’s over
And you’ve never felt so clean and sober
And you wish me luck and four leaf clovers
Darling you do, darling you do
I hope you die a fiery death
I love you. God, I need you yeah
I hope you choke
I wish you all the best for all the rest of your days
Darling I do…
And though I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
And though I say I’m glad it’s over
And I’ve never felt so clean and sober
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
I’ve got a black & blue hangover
Darling for you, darling I do
92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch or Hollister said it wasn’t cool to breathe anymore. If you’re part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile.
- Last seen 2 days ago. Member since February 3, 2005.
- I'm a onyx dragon poet for 784 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "I Am So Alone And So Are You We All Live And Die That Way".
- I am a 20 year old girl from Oregon (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm Looking For That Missing Piece Of My Heart.


- I am in the groups A Hard Rock and Heavy Metal Lovers Gro
- I have 784 comments, 2 contests, 178 poems, 2 stories
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I'm just so broken and useless tonight
I didn't know I could let my heart go25 lines, 2 comments, April 14, 2008 -
I know now that this is worthless My calls and pleas have silenced
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He takes his hand away To push you to the side
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She closes her eyes in the darkness And remember that no one is there
My Poetry
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She tasted the love on those tender lips
And saw the life that would be with him -
I would speak his name in whispers So he'd lean a little closer to me
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To make him remember me I'll tear out my weak heart
My Stories
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I think I need to see my therapist again
Things are starting to build up106 lines, 3 comments, April 28, 2005. In <200 lines, Depression -
When I was seven years old my father left me and my mother for and 18 year old girl. He Left and didn't come back for about 2 years. He was doing crank and a bu113 lines, 5 comments, March 20, 2005. In <200 lines, Depression
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Brugge is dood : you on December 5, 2006thanks for commenting me on my poetry... I think some of the things you say actually get me more than what other people say.=D
