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----I LOVE DAVID LIKE OMFG----

~I just love to express myself in poetry when I'm down and questioning things that are happening in my life.

    *I just can't deal with my life anymore, all this pain, is folding up inside of me, it's getting to hard to control it. I yell at the ones I love for nothing, I tell them I don't care and ignore them. I just can't deal with crying anymore. Sometimes I'm up at 3 in the morning waiting to fall asleep, I can't, I sit there and think of what to do with everything that's happening in my life and start to cry. Crying seems like the only way I can get to sleep lately. It's to hard for me to hold all my emotions back for as long as I have, they are over powering me and I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried the worse things possible, I've cut, I've carved, I've even smoked and started drinking, nothing seems to work for me, I just can't handle everything in my life at once.  I try to deal with my friends leaving me, I try to deal with my loved ones hating me, NOTHING I do works for me to cope with it all. I'm just so confused on how to handle everything in my life. I wish I could find one simple way to deal with everything that's going on.
   
   *I live in West Salem and it sucks more than anything because everyone knows eachother so you can't get away with anything. I love Shopping and I love hanging out with my friends like Sara.  She is the best friend and the best sister I could ever trust. I feel down and she helps me, she knows exactly what to say to me to help cheer me up(well most of the time).  

   *I just love doing the things I do best like writing and hanging out with all my friends. I love them all and they love me(or at least I think they do). I love skateboarding and going to concerts, its just the best thing to do.
   
   *I have lots of people that I love, but really there is one I Love the most right now, and you shall never find out. muahahahahaha. He cares for me and I care for him.

*I love alot of other people like

~Sara(My sister and My best friend, she has always been there for me and I'm going to be here for her when she needs me forever and always.)

~Dani(Very nice and The Queen Ho, she is a nut, truely funny and always knows how to make someone laugh.)

~Cassondra(She has been there for me even if we do get in lots of fights and she's a good kisser(don't ask), she's an awesome friend and nothing well fights might, but otherwise nothing is going to split us up.)

~Meggan Tizzurner(She loves watching like Pirates of the Carribean and that movies the best she is also a Johnny Depp freak, but it's okay Johnny Depp is kick butt in Edward Scissorhands.)

~Erika(She's a cool girl who has the same pair of black pants as me and she has a really nice boyfriend named Colin, she's an awesome friend who has me as a friend match on a school matchmaker thing.)

~Dana(I can honestly tell her anything about everything(i think haha), she's always there for me and I'm always there for her. I love her<333, I think i love her more then her own boyfriend does, OMFG, she just kissed me.)

~Matt(He's just a really nice boy and one of my ex's, he's pretty fun to hang out with, he can make you laugh and have the best time.)

~Dustin(He's a really close friend and an ex, if I loose him I don't know what I would do, he cares about me tons and I care for him loads.)

~David(My lovely honey, I love that boy so much, He has always been there for me when I needed him mostest, and on the ending note, may I add he is fairly sexy, well according to me &Dana at least. )

~Brittny(My bestest poetry buddy and a girl I can share good laughs with in study hall while passing notes back and forth the whole hour, she's a nut but it doesn't matter, she is now dating one of my ex's Chris, may you guys have the best of luck.)

   *I know I love more people then that, I can't remember them all gosh, well I can remember them just not at the time being.


   *This is me and my boyfriends first song that we danced to ever.

                   The bunnycat Dolls- Stick Wit U

               Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

        I don't wanna go another day
        So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
        Seems like everybody is breaking up
        And throwing their love away
        But I know I got a good thing right here
        That's why I say (Hey)

              Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
              Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
              You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
              Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

        I don't wanna go another day
        So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
        See the way we ride, in our private lives
        Ain't nobody gettin' in between
        I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
        (What I'm sayin' is)

              Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
              Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
              You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
              Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

         And now, ain't nothing else I can need
         And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
         I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
         I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
         Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

              So don't cha worry about
              People hanging around
              They ain't bringing us down
              I know you, and you know me
              And that's all that counts
              So don't cha worry about
              People hanging around
              They ain't bringing us down
              I know you, and you know me
              And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

         Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
         Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
         You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
         Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

              Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
              Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
              You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
              Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u.

    *This next song is by an artist I truely appreciated and is now dead, this song describes how I feel about my friend that died by suicide, I miss her and my boyfriend, I miss him so much because I can barely see him anymore. I love them all so much.

                        AALIYAH

                       "Miss You"

                    [Chorus]
                    It's been too long and I'm lost without u
                    What am I gonna do
                    Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
                   (Said I need you)
                    Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
                    Is ur heart still mine
                    I wanna cry sometimes
                    I miss you

                    [Verse 1]
                    Off to college
                    Yes you went away
                    Straight from high school
                    You up and left me
                    We were close friends
                    Also lovers
                    Did everything
                    For one another
                    Now ur gone and I'm lost without you here now
                    But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
                    Come back...to me
                    Can you...feel me (Callin')
                    Hear me...callin' (For you)
                    For you...'Cuz it's

                    [Chorus]
                    It's been too long and I'm lost without you
                    What am I gonna do
                    Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
                    Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
                    Is ur heart still mine
                    I wanna cry sometimes
                    I miss you

                    [Verse 2]
                    Now I'm sittin' here
                    Thinkin' 'bout you
                    And the days we used to share
                    It's drivin' me crazy
                    I don't know what to do
                    I'm just wonderin' if you still care
                    I don't wanna let you know
                    That it's killin' me
                    I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
                    Come back...to me
                    Can you...feel me (Callin')
                    Hear me...callin' (For you)
                    For you...'Cuz it's

                    [Chorus 2x]
                    It's been too long and I'm lost without you
                    What am I gonna do
                    Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
                    Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
                    Is ur heart still mine
                    I wanna cry sometimes
                    I miss you

                    [Bridge]
                    I...can't...breathe...no...more
                    Since you went away I
                    Don't really feel like talkin'
                    No one here to love me
                    Baby do you understand me
                    I can't do or be without you

                    [Chorus 3x]
                    It's been too long and I'm lost without you
                    (Tell me what I'm gonna do)
                    What am I gonna do
                    Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
                    Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
                    Is ur heart still mine
                    I wanna cry sometimes
                    I miss you


    *I like to listen to ICP, Metallica, Nirvana, System of a Down, Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold, Less than Jake, Fall Out Boy(yes the sell out band to all you who don't like them), The Used, and yes even My Chemical Romance I have alot of favorite bands I just don't want to waste my life writing them all on here. teehee, I'm dispicable(wrong spelling probably, sorry). There is this new cd coming out or is out called Taste of Christmas, it has the bands from the Taste of Chaos tour on it singing differnt kinds of Christmas songs, they aren't your normal christmas songs they are better in all ways, like one by The Street Drum Corp. and Bert McCracken(the lead singer of The Used)called Happy Christmas(war is over). It is awesome I just heard it one weekend and fell in love with it, its so good, it has alot of meaning to it. Everyone should find that song and listen to it.  


   *I have to put my favorite poem on here, because I love it and I want you to read it if you havn't already heard it.

   A Dream
   by Edgar Allen Poe

      In visions of the dark night
     I have dreamed of joy departed-
    But a waking dream of life and light
   Hath left me broken-hearted.

Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
 On things around him with a ray
  Turned back upon the past?

     That holy dream- that holy dream,
    While all the world were chiding,
   Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
  A lonely spirit guiding.

What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar-
What could there be more purely bright
 In Truth's day-star?


   *This poem may not make since to alot of you but if you think about it I'm sure you will get te meaning down.

   
*PEACE*

WORDS OF WISDOM:

Never let the ones that hurt you, LOVE you, they tend to hurt you more and more.