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**SAMMY ANN, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. I KNOW WE ARGUE ALOT BUT IT'S ALWAYS DUMB AND I DON'T MEAN WHAT I SAY THEN. YOU ARE MY WORLD, WITHOUT YOU, I'M MORE LOST THAN ANYONE COULD EVER IMAGINE.** DAMMIT GIRL IM GONNA KICK YOUR ASS, UP AND DOWN 395 FOR A WEEK. THAN MAYBE WE'LL HIT VANCOUVER TOO. I LOVE YOU FUCKER, I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU***


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IF I COULD CHANGE
I WOULD
TAKE BACK THE PAIN
I WOULD
RETRACE EVERY WRONG MOVE THAT I MADE
I WOULD
IF I COULD
STAND UP AND TAKE THE BLAME
I WOULD
I WOULD TAKE ALL MY SHAME
TO THE GRAVE
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*KEVIN LEE MOORE
*ALWAYS LOVED, NEVER FORGOTTEN*

*MICHEAL THOMPSON
*†BROTHER TO ME†*
AUGUST 17, 1988 --- NOVEMBER 26, 2001

DONT THINK IM NOT STILL PISSED AT YOU FOR DOING THAT TO ME, YOU DONT KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS TO SEE YOU HANG LIKE THAT. I BLAME IT ON MYSELF AND I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN WHEN YOU KEPT SAYIN YOU LOVED ME AND GOODBYE THE DAY BEFORE... I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN AND I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO STOP YOU, IM SORRY.... I LOVE YOU MIKEY, EVEN THOUGH YOUR GONE I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU!!!!!!!!
YOU WERE THE CLOSEST THING I EVER HAD TO A BROTHER AND NO ONE, NO ONE, WILL EVER BE AS CLOSE TO ME AS YOU WERE..........
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MORE THEN YOULL EVER KNOW>>


"GOD CANT HOLD YOU, YOU CAN ONLY HOLD YOURSELF...."
^^^^^^^
MIKEY
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Michael 'Big Mike' W. Lortie
This story was published Saturday, March 12th, 2005

Michael ;Big Mike" W. Lortie, 44, of Richland, died March 10 at Kadlec Medical Center in Richland.
He was born in Vallejo, Calif., and lived in the Tri-Cities for 12 years.
He worked for Truss Systems in Sunnyside.
Einan's Funeral Home, Richland, is in charge of arrangements.

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I knew this man for my entire life, his daughter, Mandi, and I have been best friends since kindergarten. His wife, Tammi, my person, my "outlet". It was a very sudden event, he had had no previous warning signs of any kind. But on Thursday March 10, 2005 he suffered a massive heart-attack.

He and Tammi had just come home to check up on Mandi. She had been rather sick for around a week. Mike went into the bathroom to clean up a bit.... maybe 10 minutes later, Tammi went in to get him to have a look at Mandi. He was lying on the floor, face gray and eyes wide open. The paramedics worked on him at the house for over an hour. He did not make it. They then took him to the hospital in attempt of a last-ditch effort. He never pulled through.
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There is to be a Memorial Service held at Einan's Funeral Home, 1 pm, this Thursday in Richland.

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This has taken us all deeply into shock and confusion. Though Mike was a rather big guy, he had been in very good health. Any contributions would be so greatly appreciated by the family, now Mandi and Tammi. Thank You for reading this. It reminds us all how precious things and life are. Don't ever hold back on what you feel you must say to ANYONE, you never know when they'll leave.


†Chelsea Kay Hilbun†

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I got drunk, and i said 9 people... wow what an idea huh?
***RIP***
1. Big Mike (3/05) age 45
2. Danielle Moreno (8/05) age 17
3. Linda Moreno (8/05) age 52
4. Karen Lee (9/05) age 45
5. Granny (2/06) age 96
6. Gary (6/06) age 39
7. Eskimo (6/06) age 18
8. Cousin Bo (8/06) age 29
9. Uncle Jeffy (9/06) age 48
I love you all with my entire heart and all my soul, you guys never deserved what you got outta of this life in the end. Except for granny, at a whopping 96, she was ready to go, more ready than we were for hwer to leave... Linda, Danni, party hard up there ok guys, you got all those goodies right danielle? Eskimo, your dumb ass would jump in the river for any of us, you died a hero. Bo, i only met you a couple times, but i told you!! I FUCKING TOLD YOU DIDNT I??? I didnt mean for it to be so quick, I was only kidding, you owe me ride someday. Jeffy, you're a KICK ASS drummer and I cant wait to come up there and see the shows... will you play ozzy for me now?? i love you gusy ok? dont forget that, you're all up there laughing at us idiot ants on the planet, scurrying around with our heads cut off frying in global warming. is the world gonna end soon? do you find out once you get up there??? let me know sometime, come pay a visit, i could use some imspiration right now.
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*****MY QUOTE*****
*THIS IS TRUTH
THIS IS REALITY
SOMETIMES IT HURTS
BUT U HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT*
*****MY QUOTE******
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*The Sadness
by InvisibleBeauty on Dec 30

Shattered
glass

lying
lonely

broken

left

to

be

picked

up

piece

by

disintegrated

piece

till

what
is
lost
can
never
be

found.
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*\A COUPLE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS
*
Sevendust
PRAYER

I remember praying with you

Feeling alone,
And I'm by myself
I can't find no one else
Thinking of you
Drives me crazy
I'm kinda feeling lazy

So much frustration
Built inside of me
Oh, it's killing me woah
What am I turned to
I can't lose you

Who do you pray to?

This is my prayer for you all

I stand all alone
Looking at my shoes
Making me think of you
Like my dad said
Boy be brave, don't let them take you no!
What can I do?
I think I'm losing you

This is my prayer for you all

I remember praying with you
You left me
Your gone
I remember praying with you
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\**\Nine Inch Nails
HURT

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
I try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.
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\**\KoRn
DIRTY

Keep knocking
No one's there
Pouring down
Near be felt

I'm out here
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off

I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again

Keep hoping
Nothing to spare
So my life
Isn't quite there
Feel like a whore
A dirty whore
Such a whore
Dirty...

I'm out here
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off

I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through in my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again
Just wanna laugh again

I'll die again
I'll die again
I'll will take it
Into me

You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
I will take it
Dirty little fuck
I will take it
You dirty little fuck
I will take it
Dirty little fuck
I will take it
You dirty little fuck

I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again
I just wanna laugh again
I just wanna laugh again
Just wanna laugh again
Just wanna laugh again
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\**\Slipknot
ME INSIDE

Giving in to what has got me
Feeling claustrophobic, scarred
Severed me from all emotion
Life is just too fucking hard
Snap! your face was all it took
Cuz this need ain’t doin’ me no good
Fall on my face, but can’t you see?
This fucking life is killing me!

Tearing me / inside

Too far gone, I’m catatonic
Leaving you to criticize
Empty shell and running naked
All alone... lobotomized
Back and forth between my hang-ups
It isn’t easy to be hated
Where do ya go? whaddya do?
Simpleton, impromptu, crazy eight
I never cared, not once
Gotta get away!

Tearing me / inside

I wasn’t promised a thing
You keep mocking me
But you will never again
Before you know it - after you’re gone

Gone

Somos feos apestamos y pero reinamos joto muthafucka\*
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*OTHER SONGS
*
Mudvayne
NOTHING TO GEIN

Cold and silent, soiled face I will wash it all away,
With my love,
That's all she's ever needed, from me
It's my time, to mother,
One of my own in my life,
I am so alone, left with no one
In my life, I'm so alone

Life submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his
mother,
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,

Sheltered life innocence,
Insulated memories, spark reflections of my head,
Duality in my consciousness,
Caught in the war of hemispheres,
Between the love lost in my head,
Mommy do you still live inside of me,
I'm so lost in my life without any guiding,
Protected me my whole life from everything,
Nailed shut the doors to the shrine,
To screen your dead eyes from me and my sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face,

Deliver the remains from her womb of earth,
Prep the rack and tie up for new love's rebirth,
Covert understanding of novice surgery,
I'll focus concentration and only take just what I need
For sickness I'm masticating,
Dancing and masturbating,
Celebrate in fields of night with skin upon my face

If I soak my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I wash my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I drench myself in others blood am I sick,
If I bathe myself in others blood

Blame mother for the sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Dance and masturbate in night light by myself..

Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far
away,


Life of a simple man taught that everyone else is dirty and love is
meaningless
I'm so soiled
Soiled
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Nine Inch Nails
SOMETHING I CAN NEVER HAVE

I still recall the taste of your tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore

You make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing
I'm starting to scare myself
You make this all go away
You make it all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart
Grey would be the color if I had a heart

Come on tell me
You make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing
I'm starting to scare myself
You make this all go away
You make it all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have

In this place it seems like such a shame
Though it all looks different now, I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be

Come on tell me
You make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing
I'm starting to scare myself
You make this all go away
You make this all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have
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Nine Inch Nails
The Fragil

She shines
In a world full of ugliness
She matters
When everything is meaningless

Fragile
She doesn't see her beauty
She tries to get away
Sometimes
It's just that nothing seems worth saving
I can't watch her slip away

I won't let you fall apart (x4)

She reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
Hoping someone can see
If I could fix myself i'd -
but it's too late for me

I won't let you fall apart (x4)

We'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking and picking and picking and picking...

It's something I have to do
I won't let you fall apart
I was there, too
I won't let you fall apart
Before everything else
I won't let you fall apart
I was like you
I won't let you fall apart
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KoRn
KILL YOU

Living life
Don't you cry
My life
Pain is god
Many nights
Painful thoughts occur
You yell at me, again I'm wrong

In denial
I tried to be your friend
I tried to be
A good boy
All I see
A hate deep inside
Startle me
Someone save me

All these memories
Kill my heart
They bury me

All I want to do
You are not my real mother
Is kill you
Should I beat and stab and fuck her

Looking back
I was never ever right
You were my step mom
Who always wanted me out of your sight
I would come walkin' in and I'd say, "Hello"
But you'd slap me
And you'd make some fucked-up comment about my clothes
But I tried to let it pass
But the visions in my head were of you
With a knife up your ass laying dead
So I popped some more caps in your ass
Now your son is not so fun
Motherfucking bitch never try to play me

You make my life
Not so


All I want to do
Is kill you

Wish! You! Were dead! Now!

How
I know
How can I cry over someone I never loved
Never loved
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KoRn
LIES

I would like to search inside for all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to
search through these problems that haunt and taunt you
I smile, while you're afraid
You run, while you're so in pain

Do you ever see [it from] outside your fears
Thinking about your life
Thinking about your inner fears

I would like to search inside for all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you

I want you to see the life you have disguised
The world of things that hurt you
Kept all these useless lies
I want you to fear the you wound up inside
Once I took you in, I'll throw you out next time

I tried, you win
My life is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain!
Go!
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Mudvayne
GOODBYE

Pendulum stops and falls away
Life sifted through like sand
Storms of summer rain
Flooding lifelines in our hands
Our skin of blood and bone
Gently close to dust and blows
Our home of blood and bone
Pulls through the ground and so....
Unstoppable
These feelings of loss
So unstoppable
Egging through to the marrow of bones
Just let it go
Pain willing in your eyes
Just let me go
Dry the tears that fall

And remember
When everything is typical
I’ll be the wish upon a star
I’ve found a place so magical
Goodbye....

See you another goodbye
I..See you another goodbye
See you another goodbye
See you another...

Peeling killers rise
Precious circle is mended
Sense vertigo in you
So I’ll be your halo
So unstoppable
My love for you
So unstoppable
Memories of you

Just remember
When everything is typical
I’ll be the wish upon a star
I’ve found a place so magical
But still please...

Someone, Help Me, Grab Me, Save Me Now,
Distrust, Darkened, Daylight, I’ve lost sight
Someone, Help Me, Grab Me, Save Me Now,
Distrust, Darkened, Daylight, I’ve lost sight

Remember
That nothing here is typical
I’ll be the wish upon a star
I’ve lost something so magical
And gone so far
Just remember
When everything seems difficult
I’ll be shining from a far
When it feels like things have gone away
I’ll see you again

I’ll see you again, Goodbye
I’ll see you again, Goodbye
I’ll see you again, Goodbye
I’ll see you again, Goodbye
I’ll see you again, Goodbye....
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Sevendust
TOO CLOSE TO HATE

Feel it inside
I need someone to bide my time
I look around
This world seems to bring me down

Talk to me
Too close to me, to talk to me not to me
So close to hate, what you wanna hate? Not to hate?

Save, Save, Save

Bide my time
This path that I walk
Is leading me blind
I walk over and ask
Ask the question will I ever last

Talk to me
Too close to me, to talk to me not to me
So close to hate, what you wanna hate? Not to hate?

Save, Save, Save

And now I feel it in my head, again
Hey
I'm still stuck inside
And now I feel it in my head, again
I'm still stuck inside
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Sevendust
WIRED

Lock my door, close my blinds
I wanna be by myself
What's that thing you put in your nose?
Can I have some?

I see you do this everyday
I hope you don't blow yourself away
Are you feelin' real good

Wired
Wired, do you
Wired
Wired, do it alone

Oh the room is getting dark
Oh I hope my heart don't stop
Do you really give a damn?
Do you even understand?
What's that mean

The hour lashes drainin thin
Where have you been?
I know it makes you feel real good

Wired
Wired, do you
Wired
Wired, do it alone

Are you wired my child?
You live you life it's your world
Seein' things you never knew
One day it'll get you

Are you?

Lock my door, close my blinds
I wanna be by myself, by myself
What's that thing you put in your nose?
Are you gonna do it by yourself

I feel like I'm closing in
I hope my life will never end
I know it makes you feel real good

Wired
Wired, do you
Wired
Wired, do it alone

Wired
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Sevendust
FACE

Come along with me on an acid trip
I take your mind to a terminal bliss
You're bound and gagged
Ah ha ha ha
Motherfuckers I laugh

This chick that stayed with me last night
I despise all the reasons she stayed the night
I swear she screamed
She screamed so softly

Rape

Days go by the last so long
She's still tired she wants to go home
I can't let her get away
I promise one day she'll pray for me
To forgive for all I've done
It ain't easy that's what she said
I swear she screamed
She screamed so softly

Rape me
Don't make me wait
You fuckin' disgrace

I love the pain

Disgusted with myself
About what I've done
I can't imagine it'd be so much fun
It lasted so long
The trip went on and on and on
And then she said to me
Remember these words I say to me
I swear she screamed
She screamed so softly

Rape me
Don't make me wait
You fuckin' disgrace
I love the pain

Rape me
Don't make me wait
I love the pain
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Sevendust
SPEAK

Whenever I feel like it's all in my mind
I can feel it
I'm talking to myself again
Whenever I hear you its so hard to find
I can feel it
I'm talking to myself again
Whenever I feel like I can feel
It's all I can feel in my mind
Whenever I hear you I can feel
Its so hard to find I can feel

Wrap your wrists when you wanna through
And ya
Pop in a clip when you wanna drop
But man make sure that the caskets' closed

So whatcha gonna say
Speak to me

Whenever oh I feel inside
Sometimes I can feel
I can feel

Wrap your wrists when you wanna through
And ya
Pop in a clip when you wanna drop
But man make sure that the caskets' closed

Wrap your wrists when you wanna through
And ya
Pop in a clip when you wanna drop
But man make sure that the caskets' closed

So whatcha gonna say
Speak to me
So whatcha gonna say
Speak to me
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Sevendust
WILL WE BLEED

Confusion, perception.
Rage inside of me.
Or will it ever; or can it ever; or will it ever take me?
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain again
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain.
Passion; Find direction.
Hate inside of me.
Or will it ever; or can it ever; or will it ever take me?
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain again
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain.
I'd rather kill myself.
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain again.
I'd rather kill myself, than put you through the pain.
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Sevendust
MY RUIN

Inside my shadow,
I can hear you. Am I near you?
Inside my shadow,
I can smell you. can I tell you?
Inside my shadow,
I can love you. Think I need you.
Inside my shadow,
I can feel you. I've embraced you.
Am I Real?
Am I Real?
Save my ruin and us, my world has turned to rust.
If there's tomorrow,
Would you give me Please forgive me?
If there's tomorrow,
You'd be buried and that just scares me.
Am I Real?
Am I Real?
Save my ruin and us, my world has turned to rust
Save my World.

Save my ruin and us, my world has turned to rust
Save my ruin.
My World
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Sevendust
BORN TO DIE

Opened up my eyes
Release me

I can't believe
This is happening to me
Born to live but sworn to die
My body is warm, my fingers are cold
I think they buried me alive
I might have found, lost my soul
As the pages of my life unfold

Opened up my eyes
Release me

Did I walk a long way?
Today is finally owned me
Twist a blunt, it's time to fly
The cough is growing
Micodots? are flowing
Oh my god, I'm ready to die

Born to die
Born to die
Born to die
Born to die
Sing together
Born to die

I can't believe
This is happening to me
Born to live but sworn to die
My body is warm, my fingers are cold
I think they buried me alive
I might have found, lost my soul
These are the pages of my life

Born to die
Born to die
Born to die
Born to die
Sing together
Born to die

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2Pac
BRENDA'S GOT A BABY

Brenda's got a Baby
Brenda's got a Baby

I hear Brenda's got a baby
But, Brenda's barely got a brain
A damn shame
Tha girl can hardly spell her name
That's not our problem, that's up ta Brenda's family
Well let me show ya how it affects tha whole community
Now Brenda never really knew her moms and her dad was a
junky
Went in debt to his arms, it's sad
Cause I bet Brenda doesn't even know
Just cause your in tha ghetto doesn't mean ya can't grow
But oh, that's a thought, my own revelation
Do whatever it takes ta resist tha temptation
Brenda got herself a boyfriend
Her boyfriend was her cousin, now lets watch tha joy end
She tried to hide her pregnancy, from her family
Who didn't really care to see, or give a damn if she
Went out and had a church of kids
As long as when tha check came they got first dibs
Now Brendas belly is gettin bigger
But no one seems ta notice any change in her figure
She's 12 years old and she's having a baby
In love with tha molester, whos sexin her crazy
And yet she thinks that he'll be with her forever
And dreams of a world with tha two of them are together,
whatever
He left her and she had tha baby solo, she had it on tha
bathroom floor
And didn't know so, she didn't know, what ta throw away and
what ta keep
She wrapped tha baby up and threw him in tha trash heep
I guess she thought she'd get away
Wouldn't hear tha cries
She didn't realize
How much tha little baby had her eyes
Now tha babys in tha trash heep balling
Momma can't help her, but it hurts ta hear her calling
Brenda wants ta run away
Momma say, you makin' me lose pay, tha social workers here
everyday
Now Brenda's gotta make her own way
Can't go to her family, they won't let her stay
No money no babysitter, she couldn't keep a job
She tried ta sell crack, but end up getting robbed
So now what's next, there ain't nothin left ta sell
So she sees sex as a way of leavin hell
It's payin tha rent, so she really can't complain
Prostitute, found slain, and Brenda's her name, she's got a baby

Baby

don't you know she's got a baby
don't you know she's got a baby
don't you know she's got a baby
don't you know she's got a baby
don't you know she's got a baby
don't you know she's got a baby *******************************************************************

Linkin Park
IN THE END

It starts with
One thing
I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on
but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried
it all fell apart
What it meant to me
will eventually
be a memory
of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing
I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
it all fell apart
What it meant to me
will eventually
be a memory
of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
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Linkin Park
EASIER TO RUN

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It's easier to go
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
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Limp Bizkit
BEHIND BLUE EYES

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
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Limp Bizkit
LONLEY WORLD

When i reminisce ignorance was bliss,
Back in the days where the magic exist
Never be the same as it was, 'cuz the way it was
Just another day in the maze of a myth
Had a lot of fun living life on the run,
Never had a chance to pause to get a better glance
Everything was free and everything was fast
Never even thought it wouldn't last
When you go the mind of a man in the middle
Life is just a big fat riddle, so figure it out
Always thinking that you know
Everything little thing there is to know
Buy you don't really know, ya know?
It's like love, some people get it
For some it's just a glove that just never fitted
For me it's just a pain in the ass
But i'm addicted to the taste of hopin' it could last

Another day another night inside a lonely world
Another game another fight inside a lonely world
Another wrong another right inside a lonely world
Such a lonely world, such a lonely world
Who's the man (the man in the middle) x4

Maybe i'm a target for people that are bitter
At least i can say that i've never been a quitter
I remember high school, man i hated high school
It was like prison with bullies always putting me down
Just a little skater boy they could pick on
I learned to forgive'em, now i got the balls they can lick on
I loved sneakin' out when my mom was asleep
With my gothic girlfriend makin' love in the creek
With the mind of a man in the middle
It could be the end of the world as we know it
Still i never want it all, and i never want it now
I just want to cruise, if i loose then i'll figure it out
How the times flies, even with the blink of an eye
When you're young you absorb like a sponge in disguise
Then you get a little older and gather your thoughts
It's amazing what you learn
When you've never been taught, ya know?

No matter how hard i can try inside a lonely world
No one can hear me when i cry inside a lonely world
I'll never know the reasons why inside a lonely world
Such a lonely world (such a lonely world)
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Taking Back Sunday
YOUR SO LAST SUMMER

She said "Don't.
Don't let it go to your head.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"You're a touch overrated.
You're a lush and I hate it."
But these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing

And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...

'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name

If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar

If I'm just bad news, you're a liar.
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PAPA ROACH
LAST RESORT

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I’ve reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide!

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry!
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying
I’m crying now
I'm crying now
I'm crying now
I'm crying now

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding!
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing’s alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying

I can’t go on living this way
Can’t go on
Living this way
Nothing’s alright
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*I just want my nephews, Kyle,8, and Andrew, 10, to know that we are going to have a kick ass summer. Everything they want to do, and we are going to the fair for \_KELLY LYNN_\, 5, their sister who was supposed to come and live with me and my parents when my sister lost custody..... Her socail worker Nelinda of Sheriden WY deliberatly stole her from us. Placing her into an adoptive family of which she is very close friends with.... I want Kelly to know I love her and miss her beautiful little face, Rosy pink cheeks, cute singing voice, and her ability to make you feel happier then you could ever know. Someday, I will get her back.
_\I MISS YOU BABY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!\_*