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I would like to thank the people in my life which have shown me that this world can be pleasant and cruel, it is those of you who have made me what I am.

Jenn, thank you for being my first everything, including heartache, the time spent with you helped me realize no relationship is worth the pain I endured. You were the original inspiration behind everything, your lack of sympathy and cold shoulder gave me this anger to build off of. I smile now knowing it is because of you I am capable of recovering from such dispair.

Rachel, at one point in time I found you to be everything I ever wanted, but you changed. Maybe it was my problem of wanting to be with you, maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Reguardless, you gave me reason to write when I lost myself. Lessons learned are always more memorable than lessons taught. You forced me to learn more lessons than any one person should ever have to learn. Yet here I find myself thanking you for the many things you have given me, our daughter Zoe, the strength to stand fast when my world is falling apart, and a new admiration for ska music..lol. I will always love you for what you have given to me.

Jesse, yeah that's right, you too buddy. There isn't a moment that has gone by when I can't see your smile. I can only hope to be there when you take your first steps, and I can only wait until you are capable of understanding how much I care for you. Know that I will always be here for you despite whatever may happen in the future, you always have me.

Teresa, thank you for being one of the few people who has actually wanted to help ME for once, the occasion is rare. You know how I feel about you and that I want nothing more than to see you happy. I am and have always been willing to give my everything for you and your adorable son. That at least will never change. Thank you for the inspiration you have given me lately, without it I would never have been able to let go of so much pain. Thank you for showing me this site, I have never been able to express myself so freely to others. Just remember that I am always a phone call away. I love you from the bottom of my heart, you and Jesse both. I hope you find your happy ending.
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SO DO YOU HATE WHAT I'VE BECOME

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Like light to the flies

Behold our beloved revels
In tragedy (In tragedy)
Self denying avarice for bloodshed
Behold hypocrite

Those who run will be burned
Those who run will be burned
Those who run will be burned
Those who run.....will...be...burned

Devoutely wished for blinded eyes
This tragedy's like light to the flies
This seems to suit you better
Bleeding out the eyes
Hope's left in chain suspension
For holding onto lies
To make your truth

Written and performed by Trivium

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Still feeling I was meant for something more

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Enchanting disposition, ever failing me
So seldom seen, but never heard
No voice is left to scream

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YOU WERE NOT!!
Indited to feel here!
YOU WERE NOT!!
Endowed to bleed tears!

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The harder this gets
The colder I become
The deeper this shit
The farther I'm undone
The clearer each hit
The longer I'm unsung
The tighter it fits
The crueler life has begun

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To drown out this injured part of me
Walk it off until there's nothing left but
A beautiful world shaded to black and white
The only color distilled is the color in our eyes

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I've tried to settle bitter ties that bind
And I hide behind the innocent cries inside

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I stand half tempted to die
Half tempted to fuck this whole world goodbye
I stand untempted to try
Untempted by urges between you and I
Well I lied

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Lying here, yes here I lie at one 'o five
Cold alone, alone I'm cold and so I watch the time
Lying here, yes here I lie 'till one 'o nine
Thinking hard, lost in thought with those words in mind
I...........love............you.

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Can you see me for who I am?
Can you help ME to understand?

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Never regret but instead learn from the pain
Never to cry over what still remains

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Nobody cares if you frown or are down
Try to understand nobody wants you around

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My mind is hopelessly full of sorrow
In burning everything you've touched and have borrowed

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He's grown to be uncertain
Taken over by mind blocking curtains

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Am I everything you wanted someone else to be
Am I not all the things that you don't just want but need
What does it take to be the man of your dreams
This lack of something more just keeps on killing me

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Is this all the hope that's left for myself?
Am I departing again from this bro ken hell?

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I'm chewing through this center
To find myself too weak
I'm burning the bridges to sever
But I'm still too late to leave

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A simple stature
Leads way to this
Mistakes in what we've fractured
Through just one kiss
Endowed to each extinction
For tempting bliss
Mislead through intuition
We stand knee deep in shit

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Come liberate my actions
As I captivate your eyes
A very visable attraction
Through all the painfilled tears you've cried

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If I was only........
A little bit colder
A little bit harder
A little bit sweeter
A little bit wiser
A little bit more charming
Maybe then you would have been with me.

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Your viral little apathetic nature
Seeming to cripple him again
The poor damn unfortunate bastard
Just never knows where to begin

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