silens umbra silva
As time slips by sometimes slowly
Sometimes so fast
Yet even when time seems to drag on never ending
We lose something
Even when we don't see it slip by
It disappears never to be seen again
O' to the days long lost
Those days never to be had again
With their memoires held
By only a picture
a suddle scent
Just a hint
A hint
To something
Something we vowed
We would never forget
Yet with all the happiness
With all the good times
We find that
In the end
Even memories
Like the photographs
Kept in the shoe box
In the top of the closet
They all fade
They grow dim with each passing year
Then slowly
They are just forgotten
Like Spike i search hopelessly
For my lost angel
I just hope
That if I do find her
I will be lucky enough
To hold her one last time

( Just for you )
by me
For well if they read this they will know
Looking up from the bottom of my glass
My eyes bloodshot and filled with tears
As the blacklights highlight the smoke
Slipknot blairing to ease the pain
As the herbs kick in i see
All manner of things
Then come the faces
That all disappeared with time
Flash through my mind
Just as i begin to pass out
I see you walk in
You look around for me
Then once you spot me
you come to my side
As i lay here on this floor
Slowly fading out
I feel your touch
As you wipe the tears from my face
And just as go to speak
You fade away
Slowly i drift into eternal sleep
And there I see
That when i died
No one was there to miss me
In life we recive many forms of love
We also endure so many pains
At times it seems hurt is all we know
Untill distant we grow
Till one day when someone tries to love us
We dont know what to do
Fear rules our actions
An it seems no matter how much
We love that person
We distance ourselves from them
Which pushes them away
Untill we have pushed them so far
That we lose touch
And
In the end
We lose them
St. Jude
Patron saint of hopless and lost causes
May he guide me into the light
For right now the darkness has its hold on me
And there is no light to see
Welcome in to the sanctuary
As you pass through the looking glass
Your eyes are amazed by the sights
As the light dims and the demons
Start showing themselves
Just remember this is only a dream
Suicide has been a constant thought as of late and im finding more and more reasons to end this life if not for my kids my life would not have worth or meaning but even as i write this i feel an empty void that is consuming me from the inside and twisting what is left of me into this dark little creature whos hope and faith in life and humans is fading like the light from my life
Here is a question a simple one for all to ponder what is the difference between love and hate both me strong feelings and one cant exist with out the other so are they one in the same or not and before you answer think about it really hard and see if you dont come up with what i have that they both mean different but are the same emotion just a different way of looking at them
saddness
saddness is both a blessing and a burden the trick is not to let it get to you .....bad thing is i found out too late and now im dead
I have seen that it is part of the human creature to lie hurt mistreat and use others and to no avil have i seen anything worth saveing in this world
As i have said before i will not be crossed with out some type of retaliation Cuz i dont forgive nor do i forget
The Darkness Is the Safest Place Existing
So In The Darkness i Sit And Watch
Learning All The Dark Little Secretes

Drink Till Were Gone
by Lucero
life is short
in spite of your plans
so, tell the girls they're pretty while you can
one day they're gone
and all you got left is
some empty bottles and an old country song
that plays on and on
i wasted my time with these cigarettes
and these ashes all i've got left
wash this old town
nothings left for me
washed down stream into the sea
this big ol' river will kill us in time
'til then we'll drink it's weight
in cheap beer and wine
we can drink just as fast as the river is strong
and we'll drink 'til we're gone.
we'll drink 'til we're gone.
life is short
inspite of your plans
so, tell the girls they're pretty while you can
one day they're gone
and all you got left is s
ome empty bottles and an old country song
this big ol' river will kill us in time
'til then we'll drink it's weight
in cheap beer and wine
we can drink just as fast as the river is strong
and we'll drink 'til we're gone.
we'll drink 'til we're gone
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Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real?
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah ah
The stars that lie to you, yeah yeah
Oh when the stars
Oh when the stars they lie.

Insane Clown Posse, Twiztid, Dark Lotus Family,
It's Our World, Psychopathic, Juggalos
(Chorus 2x)
Look in my crystal ball it's allright
(Violent J)
Come on in
Welcome, my curious sisters and brothers
First, put a twenty in the jar with the others
That's right take a seat
Ain't no smokin in here, I need to keep my ball clear
It's spirits in there
Whats your future, someone gonna shoot ya?
Will you get your girlfriend back, as if I know that
I can only tell you where your soul is headed
and will remain eternaly embedded, the rest forget it
Life is nothin but a test to clear
Did you have a heart while you where here
and was it sincere?
You're still unraveling your future right now
What kinda person are ya bro, oh, well there you go
You control your own muthafuckin' destiny
I aint lettin' the devil get the best of me
I'mma make it into Shangri-La, golden walls
What's up with you? check your own crystal balls
(Chorus 4x)
Look in my crystal ball it's alright
Layback, evolve, and I'll be alright
(Shaggy 2 Dope)
Lookin in my crystal ball I'm seein' thugs
Both catchin' and firin' slugs (paper for drugs)
I see a line waiting on block cheese a mile long
All tryin' to be strong
It's the same old song
But when I look into everybody's faces (smile)
Their souls are headed other places
And they ain't worried about payin them dues down here
Because they mothafuckin future's crystal clear
The focus switches to you and it ain't good
All mad cause someone rolls up into the neighborhood
Check your self and judgement was passed, yo, you be in hell
(right up the ass-hole)
The hate will get ya if ya let it
Pack your Speedo's I hear its hot where you headed
I'm trying to tell ya now, when the grimreaper calls
You dont wanna be assed out grippin' your crystal balls
(Chorus 4x)
Look in my crystal ball it's alright
Layback, evolve, and I'll be alright
(Monoxide Child)
Look into my crystal ball it's all black
And everybody's frozen in time front to back
Their controlled by the matrix of mind, body and soul
and I'm branded by the system of carnival freekshow
I see the pain analyzed cause nothin is disguised
It's as simple ask me seein the death in the demon's eyes
I'm high in my sites, from the truth of my crystal ball
Believe me when I say we comin for all of ya'll
(Jamie Madrox)
Look deep into my crystal ball
See the dead smokin on trees and drinking alchohol
Underneath the street beneath the concrete
If you listen to the night you can hear my heart beat
All painted up carryin' an axe and shit
Juggalo love got each other backs and shit
Encased in glass for the whole world to see
Am I inside, or is the crystal ball inside of me
(Chorus repeat until fade)
Look in my crystal ball it's alright
Layback, evolve, and I'll be alright
(repeat)
Rain comes down
Look in my crystal ball it's alright
(Chorus repeat song ends)
Look in my crystal ball it's alright
Layback, evolve, and I'll be alright
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For those whom know of my work
I ask you this
Am i so damned that
Redemption is out of my reach
Looking back over the past i see the darkness
The darkness that i have created
The soulless being i have become
So tiwsted am i
that not even god himself
sees me for who i am
For all the worng i have done
I have been wronged
for every bit of pain i have caused
I have suffered pain far worse
Is all this why im damned
Is all this why i am
a broken twisted little thing
hiding in the darkness
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Slipknot's Song
Vermillion, Pt. 2 lyrics
She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
Id do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sad.
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unatainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sad.
But I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke, torn intp pieces-i won't
No, I dont want to be this
But I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
I wont let this build up inside of me
She isnt real
I can't make her real
She isnt real
I can't make her real
(C) Slipknot
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To gain something you must first give something of equal value
That is the first law of equivalent exchange
But in life there is no equivalent exchange
we lose some of the most precious things we have
and for what
Not a DAMN thing
where is the equivalance in that
sometimes even the greatest men can be wrong
So i leave you with this
In life we forge the bonds that hold us in death
and with this knowledge i damn my soul to the weight
of a thousand chains
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The truth about suicide is that its not the easy way out as people see it. It takes more guts and heart to end your own life. Its funny that people say that those who do take their lives are takeing the easy way out. And to be honest those who say that have never been at the end of their rope or road. They have neSeptember 18, In Bitter, Depression, Life, My own personal thoughts, Pain. 1,100 words. → Make first comment?
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