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Hi all-
Im jackie and 18 years old.
I currently live with my family, tho I was married on Feb 9th 2009.
{ I am leaing, or will have left, on Sep 15th 2009. Im going to get my CNA(cirtifed nursing assistant), then if circumstances permit my RN(regesterd nurse).} ~~ for those who dont know the order is as such... CNA,RN,NP, Dr.~~

Brandon is an AP member TheDarkness. http://allpoetry.com/The%20Darkness
I have not before now told anyone here because I respect his disire for privacy.
I love him with all my heart and soul, my body and mind. I am going to spend the rest of my life with him, and this trial of distance will not dater that. Heres a poem I wrote just before we married. http://allpoetry.com/poem/5125117

I have a lot of medical conditions.
Diabities: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabeties
Arthritis: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arthritis
Fibromyalgia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fibromyalgia
Borderline Personility Disorder: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder
Depression: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_(mood)
skelatal and muscular problems;
stomic and eye problems;
I cut for many years, used my diabeties to attempt sucide, have abandenment issues, and I am physically abusive if I dont keep my self in check. Ive been in therpy for many years for most of my conditions. Having the love and support of my husband helps so much.

I'm a bisexual and a pagan.

I love to learn, read and be out side.

In real life I also have a female lover, Court. She is a lage part of both mine and Brandon's life. I love her. Court resantly gave birth to preme quads. Two boys, Asher and Raja. Two girls, Gaberial and Cordelia

Im a solitary practionar but Ido teach to any will and wanting to learn, I left christanity when I was 11 I studied religion for two years before I took a set of beliefs considerd pagan. I have been practing every sence, and Im starting to look into other religions beyond Wiccan and Pagan, most recantly Native American.

In part due to my conditions I have learned a lot about health and all kinds of conditions beyond the ones I have.
I spand a lot of time learning about home renavation and desine.
I love cars racing and anything that has to do with that. I have a 77 camro and I'm in love with it.
I also study the supernatural.
I read supernatural and mysteries.
I like doing almost anything out side, form siting in the yard reading to camping and hiking, and I love to swim.

Feel free to message me here, IM or e-mail if you have questions or want to talk.

--AP Family--

Best friend
-- little fawn www.allpoetry.com/little%20fawn

Sisters
--Amy114 www.allpoetry.com/Amy114
--Alive4aLiving www.allpoetry.com/Alive4aLiving
--songstress80 www.allpoetry.com/songstress

Cousin
-- LongTimeDreamer www.allpoetry.com/LongTimeDreamer

People I Know
--Blood Hommculi www.allpoetry.com/Blood%20Hommculi
--Borntowriteforever www.allpoetry.com/Borntowriteforever
--DinkiDriver www.allpoetry.com/DinkyDriver
--kilva of the wolves www.allpoetry.com/kilva%20of%20the%20wolves
--orangepeeling www.allpoetry.com/orangepeeling
--pineapple-eyes www.allpoetry.com/pineapple-eyes
--skye01 www.allpoetry.com/skye01
--teenwolf-defect www.allpoetry.com/teenwolf-defect
--The-Solitary-Rose www.allpoetry.com/The-Solitary-Rose
--Timeless Wisdom http://allpoetry.com/Timeless%20Wisdom

*** Face pic credit to Callisto Athena www.allpoetry.com/Callisto+Athena ***

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....Mr Bunny 'cuse he's cute....


"We are to caught up in imagining what we want to be, to actually notice what we are." from orangepeeling's page.
not sure if an orgnial quote, but i think its true.


----If you'd walk 5,000 miles to spend 5 minutes with someone who you love, put this in your profile.---
(love you court and brandon)


Cinderella walked on broken glass
Sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast
Jasmine married a common thief
Ariel walked on land for love & life
Snow white barely escaped the knife
it was all about blood, sweat, & tears
because love means facing your
BIGGEST FEARS


<< Sarah's Story >>

"My name is Sarah I am but three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see, I must be stupid I must be bad. What else could have made my daddy so mad? I wish I were better, I wish I weren't ugly. Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me. I can't speak at all I can't do a wrong Or else I'm locked up All the day long. When I awake I'm all alone, the house is dark, my folks aren't home. When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice. So maybe I'll get just one whipping tonight. Don't make a sound! I just heard a car, my daddy is back from Charlie's Bar. I hear him curse, my name he calls. I press myself against the wall. I try and hide from his evil eyes. I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry. He finds me weeping, starts shouting ugly words. He says its my fault that he suffers at work. He slaps me and hits me and yells at me more. I finally get free and run for the door. He's already locked it, I start to bawl. He takes me and throws me hard against the wall. I fall to the floor my bones nearly broken, and my daddy continues with more bad words spoken. "I'm sorry!", I scream but its now much too late. His face has been twisted with unimaginable hate. The hurt and the pain again and again. Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end! And he finally stops, and heads for the door. I lay there motionless sprawled on the floor. My name is Sarah, I am but three. Tonight my daddy murdered me."

--Child abuse is wrong--


<<< The Abortion >>>
*Month One*
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of
your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your
heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
*Month Two*
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could
definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home
though. It is so nice and warm in here.
*Month Three*
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want
you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad
too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
*Month Four*
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a
lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my
fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it
too.
*Month Five*
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a
baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
*Month Six*
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it?
It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No ...
*Month Seven*
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy?

-- children are gifts, there is always a place for them. abortion is not the anwser. --


~~ If you would ever do this for someone....then post this on your page asap!! ~~
There was a boy and a girl...
girl: Do you think Im pretty?
boy: no
girl: Do you want to be with me forever?
boy: no
girl: If I were to leave would you cry?
boy: no
The girl had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face.
the boy grabed her arm and said: Your not pretty, your beautiful. I dont want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. I wouldnt cry if you walked away....I'd die.
-~-~- i married him-~-~-


<<< The Perfect Partner >>>
WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- CHASE ME
WHEN I POUT MY LIPS
- KISS ME
WHEN I KICK & PUNCH
- HOLD ME TIGHT
WHEN I CALL YOU A LOSER
- JUST KNOW THAT YOUR MY LOSER
WHEN I AM SILENT
- IM THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU
WHEN I IGNORE YOU
- I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION
WHEN I PULL AWAY
- GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO
WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- TELL ME IM BEAUTIFUL
WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU
- TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND MEAN IT
WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING
-SNEAK UP BEHIND ME GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND GIVE ME A KISS
IF I DONT CALL YOU
- IM WANTING YOU TO CALL ME
WHEN IM SCARED
-HOLD ME AND TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE OK CAUSE I'M WITH YOU
WHEN I LOOK LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER
- KISS ME AND TELL ME NOT TO WORRY
WHILE I HOLD YOUR HANDS
- PLAY WITH MY FINGERS


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