Falling in Loveless at Allpoetry

I am starting over from scratch.

Hello, I'm Crystal.

I am a regular teenage girl.
I have my ups. I have my downs.
But that doesn’t change who am or who I’ll become.

I’m trying to recover from clinical depression.
Yes I’ve been to a ward. No, they don’t help.
But my friends support me through everything.

I’ve made many new friends now.
No, they don’t know about my cutting.
But they do love me for who I am.

If you know me personally, you know I can be very obsessive.
And that’s an understatement.
But I’m trying to fix that.

I still find it very hard to love myself.
It seems that all I do is hurt people close to me.
And sometimes you don’t get another chance.

I’ve seen death many times up close before.
And one of them was a friend.
I just wish those memories would go away.

Am I in love?
No…
One can only wish


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Do I have a theme?
Yes, but it changes now and then.

Welcome to Oblivion
By: Madina Lake

On an island out in the sea,
I wouldn't care what they think of me,
But in this crowded room, I believe
That I'm seconds from insanity.

'Cause her eyes just rip me all apart,
And my temperamental mind decides that I'm the enemy.

Welcome to oblivion,
Where panic starts to settle in.
Welcome to oblivion,
Oh, I think I'm losing it.

So many voices, I can't even sleep,
Typical in night company.
They ask questions about my life,
"Where is he going?"
Who am I?
And those voices rip me all apart.
I need medicine to quiet and to find it.

Welcome to oblivion,
Where panic starts to settle in
And I'm afraid of everything.
Oh, I lost my head again.

Welcome to oblivion,
Where my whole life is caving in
And I can't stand who I am.
Oh, I think I'm losing it.

I lost my head again.

Then I met you.
You were standing all alone 'cause you felt it too.
The world has broken you down.
You and me are gonna make it through
'Cause now we know there's people like us.

As I fall apart inside,
All of my thoughts collide,
And that's no way to live a life.
Oh, I think I'm losing it.

Welcome to oblivion,
Where panic starts to settle in
And I'm afraid of everything.
Oh, I lost my head again.

Welcome to oblivion,
I gotta get off the medicine
'Cause I can't stand who I am.
Oh, I think I'm losing it.


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My Favorite Bands:

Abingdon Boys School
Avenged Sevenfold
Bad Luck
Bullet For My Valentine
Evanescence
Madina Lake
Paramore
Red
Seather
Shinedown
Sick Puppies
Skillet
Staind
Three Days Grace
Trapt
T.M. Revolution
Tokio Hotel
And More...


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Favorite Anime/Manga
Hana kimi
FMA
Death Note
Eureka 7
Loveless
Skip Beat
Alive: the finl evolution
Deman diary
D.Gray man
Saiyuki
Demon Flower
Air Gear


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Art is the only thing that keeps me going.
And It probably will be like that for a while.
Seeing my work progress and get better,
Is the one thing that can keep me content.


Thank you so much for reading