Euphy• Show poetry

EDIT: Okay, so my name is now even easier to remember abd to tell who I am. This is now the name I am known as pretty much all over the web, and a name I really like. It comes from my old name EuphoricWeaver, which was too long to type in chatango (my username for that now, btw, is EuphyStar. I'm on there a lot, so if you want to chat, add me. :3 ) and so people started calling me Euphy. I liked it, it was easy, it stuck. So now I am Euphy.

So I felt the need to completely start anew on all poetry with this name change. My old page was a mess of caked on layers written and rewritten and added to until it was no longer a picture of myself, but a confusing collage of bits and images in thick oil paints. So let me begin at the beginning, now: Hello.

So, what's going on in Euphy's life? Well, I'm thinking a lot about college and my future, which I suppose is natural because I'm a senior in highschool. I'm majorly thinking about OSU (Ohio State University) for college. Three of my friends are also applying there and we think it would be awesome if we all made it in.

Speaking of one of these three friends; I'm also in an unrequited romantic situation (or atleast, I think it's unrequited. It wasn't a few months ago, but eh. It might as well be unrequited, since he's in another relationship.) which fuels the majority of what I write now. Including the stuff that isn't poetry. So I've decided to write down our entire past together- everything that I remember. And I mean everything. Every fact about him, every dream about him I remember, every day we've spent together that I remember, my analysis of my feelings... I have about 30 pages written at the moment and I haven't even really scratched the surface. This may take a while.

Most of you know who he is- hell, if he ever saw this he'd probably know too (it isn't exactly too hard to guess from that ^ but he already knows how I feel (or he SHOULD, I only told him at the end of last school year- about 6 months ago.)) so I guess I could just tell you his name.. but nah. Anyone can see this, even the people I don't want knowing. (It's embarrassing, I've never been good with admitting my emotions to people's faces. Poetry is the only way I can do it. Or writing in general.)

Besides that it's mainly just school school school, but I do roleplay and talk to my online friends (over chatango) and write things (obviously). I have a new roleplay website, actually, but it's not up and running yet. From newest to oldest my active roleplay sites are: www.kyouyoujidai.webs.com (- a website focusing on creating a community rather than fighting and pulling one apart. Each player has one job and brings one new structure to the village we are making), www.MercuryHigh.proboards.com ( - a website focusing on a strange highschool that intersects planes of reality and dimensions and so suddenly one may find themself in another time zone or dimension. It's quite interesting.), and www.AstralLayer.proboards.com ( - a website that is set back in time to a place which resembles feudal Japan. Here players can build relationships, explore the world, gain a village, army, and weapons and eventually conquer others if they wish.). Come and join them, we're always looking for new members- oh, and by the by the first two are MY websites, the last one used to be but it has a new commander now.

As you might have guessed I am extremely into Japanese things, and I am not as naive as I was when I first started this account to believe I am unique in my interest in the pop-culture nation. Still my interest doesn't lessen, in fact it makes me want to learn more or know more than just anime and manga so I am not just normal American otaku.

Besides Japan I do have other interests, MANY, in fact. So many that I have no idea what I am going to do once I get out of school. Something psychology related I hope. My Interest in school subjects include english, art, science, a little bit of math too, and I do enjoy my Spanish one class =]. Other things that really interest me are different languages. I freaking love hidden meanings and deciphering codes so I guess that's why I want to learn/speak another language, and also why I make up my own. So... I'm thinking an interpretter might be a good job for me (o . O). Of course, then there's also psychology-sciencey-artsy things, like this one thing my friend (Forever Chanes) and I do (besides LOSING THE GAME! PAYBACK! ^-^ ) where we listen to a song and relate back the colors we "see" when we listen to it. For the most part the colors are the same or similar and while she does it based on the scale or notes used in the song (freaking amazing that she can tell) I go purely on ... well, what I see. I have no idea how I find the colors. Maybe it's the same method, but just unconscious. o. O So... I guess you would call that experimental psychology... with a hint of lemon(art)? *shrugs* And all kinds of stuff like that interests me. Just the label "Experimental Psychology... with ART" interests me. *shakes head*.

And then there's also writing, drawing/painting/etc., photography, I could do stuff with math, Psychology, OR science, I could teach, OH, and something I forgot earlier, I really enjoy playing video games, and I would absolutely LOVE to make my own (or atleast come up with the world, concept, storyline, characters, fighting style, weapons, etc. etc., someone ELSE could MAKE it (program-wise) for all I care. But I would have to be in charge of the art and story...etc. TT-TT so much!) so ...yeah. That's a TON of COULD's. Rawr.

So... music, =]
[Band/"Favorite Song By Them"]
[Dir en grey/"Embryo"], [Girugamesh/"Evolution"], [Disturbed/right now it's "Inside the Fire"], ["The Parade Song" and "Girl in Byakkoya" from the movie Paprika], [Mae/"Reflections"], [Madina Lake/"True Love"], [Maximum the Hormone/"Louisiana Bob" or "Koi no Mega Lover"], [Pensive/"What Dreams May Come"], [Dragon Force/ "Inside the Winter Storm" (Maybe)], [Malice Mizer/ "Syunikiss"], [D'espairs Ray+/ "Mirror"], [Orange Range/ "Lights" and "O2"], [Three Days Grace/ "Animal I have Become" or "Over and Over" or "Never Too Late"], [Apocalyptica feat. Adam Gontier/ "I Don't Care"], [Korn], [Panic! At the Disco/ "Intermission" (lol) OR "Time to Dance"], [Fair to Midland/ "(When The Bough Breaks) Say When"], [Celldweller/ "Own Little World(?)"], [Imogen Heap/ "Say Goodnight and Go"], [Breaking Benjamin/ "Evil Angel" or "Dance With the Devil" or "Unkown Soldier" (I pretty much love all of Breaking Benjamin <3)], [Paramore/ "All I Wanted"], [Linkin Park/ "In The End"], [Miku Hatsune/ "Melt" and "Strobe Nights"], [Queen/ "Somebody To Love"], [Nine Inch Nails/ "Closer"], etc.

I think that pretty much covers it...






"So real these voices in my head~" - Three Days Grace