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My name is Katie. I hate cliches, but sometimes you just end up being one. I hate to say it but I am sometimes. I'm also a hypocrite. I can also say I'm a bitch, but I atleast try not to think of myself that way.

I love to write, but I haven't been doing as much as it lately as I would like. I'm not sure why. I love to express myself but I get very frustrated when I realize I don't know who that self is...a tad bit annoying isn't it?

Some people ask you who you admire. That is a really tough question for me to answer, it always has been ever since first grade when people are like "who's your hero". I always say my friends or my mom because that's what people want to here. I get thinking though...are they really my heroes? Why do I need to admire someone? Why do I need to aspire to be like someone else? Isn't that the exact opposite of what they've also been telling us since 1st grade? That we should always be ourselves? How are we being ourselves if we are trying to be like someone else, because they are what we consider "excellent". I rather try to be good in my own way, maybe someone can admire me, and I can convince them not to.

There are always a lot of things that I want to do in my life that I never get around to doing. Isn't that true for everyone? I just slip into sloth, I sit around and do nothing though I had plans in my mind to finally do something that day, but then I just fall and don't do anything.

Now today really (November 18, 2006) I hate crushes. Think about that whole cliche thing I said above about how everyone is one big cliche. So I have another one to say. I hate crushes, they are so crushing. If you act on it, you have a big chance of getting turned down, and even if you don't there is a big chance it won't last, because it's a crush and it seems the the feelings hardly last on one side or the other. Even adults mix up crushes with love, ie divorce. Then again though...if you don't act on it, you'll be crushed with the thoughts of what could have happened. You'll also be sitting there still liking that person and you'll be full of regrets and all you'll want is to be with them. Then there are the times when you don't ask because you are pretty sure the person is undateable. Like...they aren't the kind of person who really wants to be in relationship. That or there's the chance the person is already taken. Well let me just tell incase you didn't already know, that sucks. A hell of a lot, and even more when the person they are with, are your FRIEND, and when you know that person is totally NOT your type. Let me tell you. It sucks. A lot.

Anyways, I think that is me for now...in a page or more. I am having a little bit of fun typing this acctually. It's kind of interesting when you are writing about yourself. Alteast that way you aren't that jerk who talks about yourself all the time, you are just that normal person who types about yourself all the time. It's okay though, because that is what this page is for, expressing yourself without using poetry, xD. It's your escape from everything, even the critics of poetry, then all you have is the critics of your page.

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