Disturbed Sanctuary• Show poetry

My name is Heather. I don't really sleep and I don't really eat. I guess some would say I'm unhealthy. Honestly though, I'm doing a lot better than people would think. I'm still unhappy, but I think this is normal. I still have internal battles about faith, but I truly don't think I believe in a higher being. In fact, I think that because I don't, I feel a little happier. No more worrying about redemption and sin.

I still hate just about everything creative I do. Half the time I feel like people are just saying they like what I do because they're friends and they're supposed to be encouraging. I'm working on the whole "self-esteem" thing though.

My song of the moment is...
Delilah-The Dresden Dolls

There's no end to the love you can give
When you change your point of view to underfoot
Very good: you may be flat but you're breathing

And there's no doubt
He's at home in his room
Probably watching porn of you from the fall
It's last call and you're the last one leaving

And you thought you could change the world
By opening your legs
Well it isn't very hard
Try kicking them instead

And you thought you could change his mind
By changing your perfume
To the kind his mother wore
Oh God, Delilah, why?
I never met a more impossible girl

In this same bar where you slammed down your hand
And said, "Amanda, i'm in love"
No you're not
You're just a sucker for the ones who use you
And it doesn't matter what I say or do
The stupid bastard's gonna have his way with you

You're an unrescuable schizo
Or else you're on the rag
'Cause if you take him back
I'm gonna lose my nerve
I never met a more impossible girl

At four o'clock he got off and you called up
"I'm down at Denny's on Route One
And you won't guess what he's done"
Is that a fact, Delilah?
Larry Tap let you in through the back
And use his calling card again for a quick hand of gin

You are impossible, Delilah
The princess of denial
And after seven years in advertising you are none the wiser

You're an unrescuable schizo
Or else you're on the rag
'Cause if you take him back
I'm gonna lose my nerve

He's gonna beat you like a pillow
You schizos never learn
And if you take him home
You'll get what you deserve
I never met a more impossible girl

So don't cry, Delilah
You're still alive, Delilah
You need a ride, Delilah?
Let's see how fast this thing can go


QUOTES!~

~My day is not complete until I scare the living hell out of a complete stranger.
~If the eyes are the window to the soul, then I need to get some curtains...
~Someone let me off this merry-go-round we call life.
~Don't steal. The government doesn't like the competition.
~You know that saying "No running with scissors?" Well I don’t follow that rule. Wanna play tag?
~Silence is golden...but screaming is fun!
~A stranger stabs you in the front. A boyfriend stabs you in the heart. A false friend stabs you in the back. Real friends don’t carry knives.
~Best friend is ten letters, but so is lying bitch.
~Don't drink and drive. You might spill your beer
~One by one the penguins steal my sanity...
~We’re always together. We're one of a kind. There are only three words to describe us- Partners in crime
~I dreamt about you last night. You were screaming and had a toothpick in your eye...
~You said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed...
~I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public.
~I like you. You remind me of when I was young and foolish.
~ True friends always respect you for what you're like inside, not for what you're on the outside.
~When fate shuts the door, go through the window.
~Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
~Laugh and the world laughs with you. Cry and the world laughs louder.
~You can close your eyes to reality but not to memories.
~The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.
~Duct tape is like the force. it has a lightside. it has a dark side. and it holds the world together
~ I'm FINE.

F. ucked Up

I. nsecure

N. eurotic

E. motional

Just F.I.N.E.
~If beauty is pain, I must be fucking gorgeous.
~When I broke a plate, my parents told me to say sorry, and it was all better. When my best friend broke my heart, somehow "I'm sorry" just didn't cut it.
~I'm the author of my life. Unfortunatly, I'm writing in pen and can't erase my mistakes.