DestructiveToy• Show poetry

ABOUT ME:
I'm just your average girl. Sounds kinda cliche to say that but eh what the hell. I'm not here to impress anybody. In my free time I listen to music, draw, write poetry, watch the boob tube, understand, get confused, play in traffic, read, kidnap and eat small children, poke ppl, streak, drink, party, play naked, sleep, break things, joke, occasionally smoke, bleed, tease, bring about the biblical apocalyps, listen, scream, learn, converse, play cards, lick, infect, eat chapstick, bite, wait, watch horror flicks and porno, and start fires. Well theres more stuff about me but... I really just dont care right now so if you'll excuse me...

MY BANDS:
*** COAL CHAMBER, ALICE IN CHAINS, TYPE O NEGATIVE, OPETH,  SLIPKNOT, PANTERA, SLAYER, GODSMACK, JANIS JOPLIN, OTEP,DEFTONES, STONE TEMPLE PILOTS, LAMB OF GOD, ATREYU, METALLICA, MEGADETH, The Beatles, MUDVAYNE, THE DOORS, Devil Driver, Nine Inch Nails, Bob Marley and the Wailers, Shadows Fall, Ministry, Skinny Puppy,Children Of Bodom, BULLETS AND OCTANE, Kittie, Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, Horrorpops, Queen, AFI, The 69 Eyes, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Ozzy, Black Sabbath, Seether, Evanescence, Nirvana, System Of A Down, Trivium, Cradle Of Filth, Killswitch Engage, Bleeding Through, The Dresdon Dolls, Bowling For Soup, Lacuna Coil, The USED, My Chemical Romance, Jimi Hendrix, Ac/Dc, Breaking Benjamin, Motley Crue, HIM, Garbage, AVENGED SEVENFOLD,GUNS N' ROSES,Finch***

ETC... Meaning theres more unlisted...

Who ever appeals to the law against his fellow man is either a fool or a coward.
Who ever cannot take care of himself without that law is both.
For a wounded man shall say to his assailant:
If I live, I will kill you.
If I die, you are forgiven.
Such is the rule of honor!
-"OMERTA" Lamb of God-

Yawgmoth is my Daddy and he's going to protect ME!

Here are lyrics to some of my favorite songs:

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*TYPE O NEGATIVE "World Coming Down"***
She thinks I'm iron man that I don't feel pain
I don't understand why joy must be feigned
I'm so fortunate yet filled with self hate
That the mirror shows me an ingrate

I could easily start pointing fingers
Since the blame is mine it always lingers
That the truth it lies in my reflection
Though this can't go on there's no question

Yeah I know
That my world is coming down
Yeah I know
I know
I'm the one who brought it down
Brought it down
Bring it on down

How quickly pass the days long is the night
Lying in bed awake bathed in starlight
Better to live as king of beasts
Than as a lamb scared and weak

I will deny my role as a human
Holding myself hostage with no demands
It's better to burn (to burn) quickly and bright
Than slowly and dull (and dull) without a fight

Well I know
That my world is coming down
Now I know
I know
I'm the one that brought it down
Brought it down
Yeah, Bring it on down

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*ALICE IN CHAINS "Dirt"*
I Have Never Felt Such Frustration
Or Lack Of Self Control
I Want You To Kill Me
And Dig Me Under, I Wanna Live No More

One Who Doesn't Care Is One Who Shouldn't Be
I've Tried To Hide Myself From What Is
Wrong For Me, For Me

I Want To Taste Dirty, A Stinging Pistol
In My Mouth, On My Tongue
I Want You To Scrape Me From The Walls
And Go Crazy Like You've Made Me

You, You Are So Special
You Have The Talent To
Make Me Feel Like Dirt
And You, You Use Your
Talent To Dig Me Under
And Cover Me With Dirt

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*OPETH "Weakness"*
Found you there in the blink of an eye
(I) miss you
Turned away into a thousand dreams
Found out what they mean

Lost you there in a moment of truth
(I) trust you
Gave away the one and only heart
(A) gift to tear apart

Stain me, save me
Take me to my home
Hold me, show me
Take me to my home

Weaker now, drawing fluid from me
(You) kill me
I'm not afraid of what you have just done
(But of) what you've just become

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*ALICE IN CHAINS "Junkhead"*
A Good Night, The Best In A Long Time
A New Friend Turned Me On To An Old Favorite
Nothing BetterThan A Dealer Who's High
Be High, Concince Them To Buy

What's My Drug Of Choice?
Well, What Have You Got?
I Don't Go Broke
And I Do It Alot

Seems So Sick To The Hypocrite Norm
Running Their Boring Drills
But We Are An Elite Race Of Our Own
The Stoners, Junkies, And Freaks

Are You Happy? I Am, Man
Content And Fully Aware
Money, Status, Nothing To Me
'Cause Your Life Is Empty And Bare

You Can't Understand A User's Mind
But Try, With Your Books And Degrees
If You Let Yourself Go And Open Your Mind
I'll Bet You'd Be Doing Like Me
And It Ain't So Bad

Say, I Do It Alot!
Say, I Do It Alot!
Say, I Do It Alot!
Say, I Do It Alot!

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*SLIPKNOT "My Plague"*
I'm in conniptions for the final act you came here for
The one derivative you manage is the one I abhor
I need a minute to elaborate for everyone the
Everyday bullshit things that you have done

Your impossible ego fuck is like a
Megalomaniacal tab on my tongue
You fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart
I'll reach in and take a bite out of that
Shit you call a heart...

I don't mind being ogled, ridiculed
Made to feel miniscule
If you consider the source, it's kinda pitiful
The only thing you really know about me is...
...that's all you'll ever know

I know why you blame me (yourself)
I know why you plague me (yourself)

I'm turning it around like a knife in the shell
I wanna understand why, but I'm hurting myself
I haven't seen a lotta reasons to stop it
I can't just drop it
I'm just a bastard, but at least I admit it
At least I admit it

I know why you blame me (yourself)
I know why you plague me (yourself)

Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
I can't fuckin' take it anymore
A snap of the synapse
And now it's fuckin' war
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you

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*ALICE IN CHAINS "Sea of Sorrow"*
Mind, of destructive taste
I choose...to stroll amongst the waste
That was your heart
Lost in the dark
Call off the chase

Walls of thought, strong and high
As my castle crumbles with time...
I think of you
Oh, yes I do
Such a crime

CHORUS
You opened fire...and your mark was true
You opened fire...aim my smilin' skull at you
You opened fire...
I live tomorrow, you I'll not follow
As you wallow in a sea of sorrow

Lines cut across my face
Why you laugh at my disgrace
I'll never know
How far to go
To reach that place

CHORUS

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*COAL CHAMBER "Alienate Me"*
So sadistic, I'm coming apart like a ten-cent toy
Soul sedition, I know it's something you enjoy
Trap, scream trap, these broken wings I'll wrap
Trap, scream trap, scream trap, scream trap

Reclusive and fleeing, I'm coming apart like a ten-cent toy
Soul sedition, I know it's something you enjoy
Trap, scream trap, these broken wings I'll wrap
Trap, scream trap, scream trap, scream trap

Here we go
Down, down, down, down
Away we go

Reclusive and fleeing, I'm coming apart like a ten-cent toy
Soul sedition, I know it's something you enjoy
Trap, scream trap, these broken wings I'll wrap
Trap, scream trap, scream trap, scream trap

Here we go
Down, down, down, down
Away we go

Sever this tie
Sever this tie
Sever this tie
Sever this tie

You don't know me
I don't know you
You don't know me
And you never will

Here we go
Down, down, down, down
Away we go

Sever this tie
Sever this tie
Sever this tie
Sever this tie

Sever what do you need them for

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*ALICE IN CHAINS "Sludge Factory"*
you insult me in my home
you're forgiven this time
things go well, your eyes dilate
you shake, and I'm high?
look in my eyes deep and watch
the clouds change with time
20 hours won't print
my picture milk carton size
carton size
carton size

call me up congratulations
ain't the real why
there's no pressure besides brilliance
let's say by day 9
endless corporate ignorance lets
me control time
by the way, by the way, by the way, by the way

once again you see an in
discolored skin gives you away
so afraid you kindly gurgle out a date
for me

now the body of one soul I adore
wants to die
you have always told me you'd
not live past 25
I say stay long enough to repay
all who caused strife

once again you see an in
discolored skin gives you away
so afraid you'd kindly gurgle out a date
for me

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*LAMB OF GOD "Laid To Rest"*
If there was a single day I could live... a single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away.
The blood's on the wall, so you'd might as well just forget it
And bleach out the stains, commit to forgetting it.
You're better off empty and blank, than left with a single pathetic trace of this
Smother another failure, lay this to rest.
Console yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself.
I'll chain you to the truth, for the truth shall set you free
I'll turn the screws of vengeance and bury you with honesty
I'll make all your dreams come to life, then slay them as quickly as they came
Smother another failure, lay this to rest.
Console yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck.
Failure.
If there was a day I could l ive, if there was a single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away.

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*ALICE IN CHAINS "Love, Hate, Love"

I tried to love you I thought I could
I tried to own you I thought I would
I want to peel the skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste

You told me I'm the only one
Sweet little angel you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell

Cheating myself still you know more
It would be so easy with a whore
Try to understand me little girl
My twisted passion to be your world

Lost inside my sick head
I live for you but I'm not alive
Take my hand before I kill
Still love you, I still burn

Love, hate, love
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***MINISTRY "Stigmata"*
stronger than reason
stronger than lies
the only truth I know
is the look in your eyes
the look in your eyes

just like a car crash
just like a knife
my favourite weapon
is the look in your eyes
you've run out of lies

you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
there's a ton locked in your empty eyes
get out of my life

I'm chewing on glass
and eating my fingers
I'm not the one
who's run out of lies
lies

you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of lies
you've run out of time

cutting my face
and walking on splinters
I lost my soul
to the look in your eyes
your eyes

you ran out of lies
you ran out of lies
you ran out of lies
you ran out of time

stigmata!

o, you have empty eyes
they tell me nothing, nothing but lies
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SoNG QuoTEs:

*Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to decieve."
~Sir Walter Scott~

*I've built myself out of ash and agony, I am ready, I AM I, I am my own creation, I am self-made destroyers, I AM I, a bone heals, a bruise fades BUT ART IS FOREVER!
~Otep~

*He who makes a beast out of himself gets ride for the pain of being a man.
~Hunter S. Thompson~

*Today I don't feel pretty. And I’m tired of trying to fit right in. Don't think that you're so great. Cause being great must suck.
~Billy Tallent~

*Sure God is all powerful, but does he have lips?"
~Alice in Chains~

*We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I can't be my own
I'd feel better dead
~Alice in Chains~

*These stand for me
Name your god and bleed the freak
I like to see
How you all would bleed for me

When the pig runs slower
Let the arrow fly
When the sin lies bolder
I'll pluck out thine eye
~Alice in Chains~

*I drink too much, I smoke too much... I'm a human waste.
~Alice in Chains~

*So Your Sickness Weighs A Ton And God's Name Is Smack For Some.
~Alice in Chains~

*Down In A Hole And I Don't Know If I Can Be Saved. See My Heart I Decorate It Like A Grave. You Don't Understand Who They Thought I Was Supposed To Be. Look At Me Now A Man Who Won't Let Himself Be.
~Alice In Chains~

*Aren’t you tired of being weak? Such rage that you could scream. All the stars right out of the sky and destroy the prettiest starry night. Every evening that I die. Live love burn die.
~Atreyu~

*Then in violent, frustration, he cries out to God or just no one. Is there a point to this madness and all that he was.... Is just a tragedy.
~The Used~

*Three tears I've saved for you. Will you be my beloved? Will you help me to get through? Will you be my destruction?
~AFI~

*Help me cure you Atone for all you've done. Help me leave you as all the days are gone.
~Opeth~

*Why can’t you see that I’m striving and every tear I shed is for you.
~Opeth~

*All You Need Is Love, Love is All You Need.
~The Beatles~

*Give Peace A Chance.
~The Beatles~

*You can't have Manslaughter withough Laughter"
~Anonymus~

"Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all." - Emily Dickinson

Bye Bye
~Sami~