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My name is Chanel. I'm 18 years old and I recently graduated from high school. I live in a small town in Iowa that no one has ever heard of called Delta. Lets see here, more shit about me... I am bisexual.  I have a boyfriend, his name is Michael and we've been together for three years.  In case you were wondering, I am an extremely terrible person, or so I'm told. I have a history of violence, drug, and drinking offences.  I sometimes tell people that when I'm not being a bad influence, I spend the rest of my time out in society punching babies and boiling kittens, if you don't like me well that's your own tough shit, I couldn't care less.

 

Other than that, I plan to go to college for psychology so that I can be a counselor. I am an ex-cutter/pill-popper/suicidal-maniac and I was sent to the psych ward in February of 2007. It was then that I finally decided that it was time to grow up and *TA-DA* I realized that I wanted to help people that were like me so I thought that being a counselor was probably my best bet. 

 

I have been diagnosed as being bipolar and I have acute paranoid schizophrenia and obsessive-compulsive disorder so my dream of being a counselor may be kinda far fetched but I am still going to try. I'm used to disappointment so nothing like that can hurt me any worse than I already hurt myself.  ~And I guess it doesn't matter though because the way I see it, I am going to be dead in five years anyway, suicide is starting to sound really good...

-I love to get drunk, my favorite drink is Everclear (yes, straight, there is no other way to drink it)
-I love to get high, but I only smoke weed...and pop pills occasionally
-I love the sight of blood (as long as it's mine, otherwise it makes me sick)
-I like a lot of music, but some of my favorites are: Nirvana, Green Day(not the new stuff), Marilyn Manson, My Chemical Romance, Foo Fighters, Avenged Sevenfold, Kottonmouth Kings, and ICP.
-My favorite colors are black and red.
-I know that I am a negative person, but hey what can ya do?

 

 

 

I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.
~Kurt Cobain

 

 

 

I don't want to be here anymore . . .

 

 

 

Hello and welcome to the mental health hotline.

* If you are an obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
* If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
* If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
* If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want; stay on the line while we trace your call.
* If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transfered to the mother ship.
* If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number to press.
* If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer.
* If you are dyslexic, press 969696961001
* If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the hash key until a representative comes on the line.
* If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, phone number, date of birth, social security number, and your mother's maiden name.
* If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, slowly and carefully press 000.
* If you have bi-polar disorder, please leave a message after the beep, or before the beep. Or after the beep. Or before the beep. Please wait for the beep.
* If you have short term memory loss, press 9. If you have short term memory loss, press 9. If you have short term memory loss, press 9. If you have short term memory loss, press 9.
* If you have low self esteem, please hang up. All our operators are far too busy to talk to you.

 

 

 

 

If I told you that the sky was pink would you look up to check?

If I told you that my dog just died would you even feel upset?

If I felt scared and lonely would you cry and hold my hand?

And if I felt like dying would you try to understand?

 

 

 

 

 

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Dying alone in darkness
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Here is Mr. Bunny. Put him on your page if you want him to continue his quest for world domination!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Random Thoughts: 

 

Rainbows clouding purple skies like starfish in the snow

Unicorns dancing like lepracauns not wanting to let you go

 

Why do bright colors piss me off?

 

Bright colors piss me off, so why are the colors on my page bright?

 

If everything is going to be alright then why the hell do we always have to say that shit?!

 

People believe in God so that they have someone to blame when they fuck up their lives.

 

Silence is the only thing I like to hear

 

I have three lives, aren't I fun?

 

If you really think you know me, please explain, I'd like to know.

 

Why in the fuck is there "always a light at the end of the tunnel" when things go wrong, but when people think you're dying they tell you NOT to go into the light? 

 

 

 

 

 

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|………..| Put this on your page
|………..| If you've ever pulled
|…….O.| a door that said
|………..| PUSH!
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 92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their asses off, put this in your profile.


92% of teens have moved onto rap(money, sex, and cars?!). If you are part of the 8% that still listen to real music then put this in your profile.

 

 

 

 

 

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...Have You Ever... [x] Smoked a cigarette [x] Drank so much you threw up [X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back [x] Been arrested [X] Gone on a blind date [X] Skipped school [_] Seen someone die [_] Been to Canada [_] Been to Florida [_] Been to Mexico [_] Been on a plane [X] Been lost [_] Been on the opposite side of the country [_] Gone to Washington , DC [_] Swam in the ocean [X] Felt like dying.... [X] Cried yourself to sleep [X] Played cops and robbers [X] Recently colored with crayons [x] Sang karaoke badly [x]paid for a mean with only coins [X] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't [x] Made prank phone calls [x]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose [_] Laughed until liquid came out of the other end [X] Caught a snowflake on your tongue. [X] Danced in the rain [X] Written a letter to Santa Claus [_]Been kissed under the mistletoe [x]Watched the sun rise with someone you care about [X] Blown bubbles [_] Made a bonfire on the beach [X]Crashed a party [X]Gone roller-skating [_] Ice-skating ...Relationships... [_] I am single [x] I'm in a relationship [X}I've had someone cheat on me. [X] I've gone on a blind date. [_] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. [X] I miss someone right now. [_] have a fear of commitment. [X] I have a fear of abandonment. [x] I've cheated in a relationship. [X] I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person someone cheated on ) [_] I've gotten divorced [X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [X] I've told someone I loved them [X] I've kept something from a past relationship. [x] I've been molested and/or raped repeatdly by sumone i knew ...Sexuality... [_] I am totally straight [x] I am bisexual [_] I am gay [x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex [_]I've had a crush on a teacher [_] I am a virgin [X] I am a cuddler. [X] I love to flirt. [x]I've been kissed in the rain. =] [X] I've hugged a stranger. [_] have kissed a stranger. ...Honesty/Crime... [_] I am a terrible liar. [X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't [X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. [X] I've snuck out of my house. [X] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [X] I am keeping a secret from the world [X] I've cheated while playing a game. [X] I've cheated on a test. [_] I've run a red light. [x] I've been suspended from school. [X] I've witnessed a crime. [X] I've been in a fist fight. [X] I've been arrested. [X] I've shoplifted ...Drugs/Alcohol... [x]I've consumed alcohol. [x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. [x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. [x] I have cough syrup when I'm not sick. [_] I can't swallow pills. [x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem [x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [_] I take anti-depressants. [x] I am/used to be anorexic or bulimic. [x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. [_] I'm addicted to adrenaline [X] I've hurt myself on purpose [X] I'm addicted to self harm [X] I've woken up crying. [X] I've cried myself to sleep. ...Death and Suicide... [_] I'm afraid of dying. [X] I hate funerals. [X] I've seen someone dying. [X] Someone i no has attempted suicide. [X] Someone close to me has committed suicide. [X] I've attempted suicide. [x] I believe life has no purpose. [_] I believe in heaven/hell, or other means of life after death. ...Random... [_] I can sing well. [X] I open up to others easily. [X] I watch the news. [_] I don't kill bugs. [X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. [X] I curse regularly. [X] I sing in the shower. [x] I am a morning person. [_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [_] I'm a snob about grammar. [X] I am a sports fanatic. [x] I twirl my hair [_] i have x's in my screen name [x] I love being neat [_] I love Spam [_] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day [x] I bake well. [_] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue [x] I would wear pajamas to school. [_] I like Martha Stewart. [X] I am in love with love. (with the thought of love) [X] I laugh at my own jokes.[_] I believe in ghosts. [X] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class [_] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [_] I am really ticklish. [_] I bite my nails [X] I play video games [X] I'm good at remembering faces. [x] I'm good at remembering dates. [_] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [X] My answers are totally honest Repost this on your page and put X’s in the boxes that apply to you and _ that don’t

 

 

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