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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.



I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.



I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.



We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.



I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.



I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.



I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.



I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.



We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.



I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.



I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.



I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.



I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.



I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.



I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.



I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.



I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.



I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.



I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.



Repost this in your jounal if you believe homophobia is wrong.



only we can stop the violence, the prejudice, the insecurity, and most importantly, we are the only ones to blame. we have let these things go too far. change a person's life. try accepting them, rather than making them feel as though they were nothing, just because they are different. you can be the change, but only if you are willing to change yourself. take a chance, and be the person we all aspire to be.





TOURNIQUET

by Evanescence:



i tried to kill my pain,

but only brought more.



so much more.



i lie dying,

and i'm pouring,

crimson regret, and betrayal!



i'm dying,

praying,

bleeding,

and screaming!



am i too lost, to be saved?

am i too lost!!!



My god, my tourniquet,

return to me salvation!

My god, my tourniquet,

return to me salvation!



do you remember me?

lost for so long...

will you be on the other side?

or will you forget me?



i'm dying,

praying,

bleeding,

and screaming!



am i too lost, to be saved?

am i too lost?



My god, my tourniquet,

return to me salvation!

My god, my toruniquet,

return to me salvation!



.........return to me salvation!........

I WANT TO DIE!!!



My god, my tourniquet,

return to me salvation!

My god, my tourniquet,

return to me salvation!



My wounds, cry for the grave,

my soul cries for deliverence!

Will i be denied, Christ tourniquet,

My suicide!!



***********************************************

going under



now i will tell you what i've done for you.

fifty thousand tears i've cried.



screaming, decieving and bleeding for you.

and you, still won't hear me.



...i'm going under...



don't want your hand this time i'll save myself.

maybe i'll wake up for once.



not tormented daily defeated by you,

just when i, thought i'd reached the bottom.



i die again.



I'm going under. drowning you. i'm falling forever. i've got to break through, alive, i'm going under.



blurring, and stirring the truth and the lies. so i don't know whats real and whats not. always confusing the thoughts in my head. so i can't trust myself anymore.



i die again.



i'm going under,drowning you, i'm falling forever,i've got to break through, alive...



so go on and scream, scream at me, so far away. i won't be broken again. i've got to breathe, i can't keep going under.



going under, going under!!!!!

*************************************

Field of Innocence



I still remember

the world from the eyes of a child

slowly those feelings

are clouded by what i know



Where has my heart gone

an uneven trade for the real world

oh I,I want to go back to

believing in everything and knowing nothing at all



I still remember

the suna lways warm on my back

somehow it seems colder now



Where has my heart gone

trapped in the eyes of a stranger

oh I,I want to go back to

believing in everything



*latin hymn*



Where has my heart gone

an uneven trade for the real world

oh I,I want to go back to

believing in everything



Oh where has my heart gone

trapped in the eyes of a stranger

oh I,I want to go back to

believing in everything

***************************************************

Where Will You Go



Your too important for anyone

you play the role of all you want to be

but I,I know who you really are

you're the only one who cries before the dawn



But where will you go

with no one left to save you from yourself

you can't escape,you can't escape



You think i can't see through your eyes

scared to death to face reality

no one seems to hear your hidden cries

your left to face yourself alone

but where will you go

with no one left to save you from yourself

you can't escape the truth

i realize your afraid

but you can't abandon everyone

you can't escape,you don't want to escape



i am so sick of speaking words that no one understands

is it clear enough that you can live your whole life alone

i can hear you in a whisper, but you can't even hear me screaming



Where will you go

with no one left to save you from yourself

you can't escape the truth

i realize your afraid

but you can't reject the whole world

you can't escape, you won't escape

you can't escape, you don't want to escape

******************************************

Senzafine-Lacuna Coil



Scorre lento il tuo tempo

Che scivola sul velo della mia pella nuda

Se oltrepassassi il confine che mi hai dato

Forse io non sarei qui



Ma adesso ormai che senso ha

Cercare di abbracciare un passato piu puro

Guardando avanti rischierò

Ma riesco a rispondere ai miei perchè



Tutto ciò che sarai

Era già stato scritto

Se davvero esiste

Questo dio ha fallito



Ogni parola pronunciata

Sarà lo specchio del tuo dolore

Riflette la colpa

Alimenta l'odio



Madre



Il mio destino scelgo

Se riesco a resistere



Sono ancora in piedi in questo istante di pura follia

Non so più se desiderare il bene o il male

Anche se il peccato forse piu mi da



Da adesso ormai che senso ha

Opporre resistenza ad un destino segnato

Non resterò a guardare senza

Riuscire a resisterti

Risvegliarmi



Madre



Il mio destino scelgo

Se riesco a resistere



Risvegliami



Non c'e scelta senza me

Non c'e vita senza me

******************************

Swamped-Lacuna Coil

When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

Or love



Destiny flying high above

all I know is that you can realize (realize}



Destiny who cares {destiny who cares}

as it turns around {as it turns around}

and I know that it descends down on me



It's just another day

the shame is gone

hard to believe

that I've let it go, let it go, let it go



Destiny can't replace my life

Scary shadows of my past

are alive {alive)



Destiny who cares {destiny who cares}

as it turns around {as it turns around}

and I know that it descends

with a smile



It's just another day

the shame is gone

it's hard to believe

that I've let it go away



It's just a melody

it bleeds in me

hard to believe

that I've let it go



When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings

Or love



It's just another day

the shame is gone

hard to believe

that I've let it go away



It's just a melody

it bleeds in me

hard to believe

that I've let it go, let it go, let it go

*********************************************

Kiddie Grinder-Marilyn Manson



I am the face of piss and bunny and sugar

I do a crooked little dance with my funny little monkey

What I want what I want is just your children

I hate what I have become to escape what I hated being



Calliopenis envy from your daddy

You're not gonna hear what he don't want to hear

What I say disgusts him

He wants to be me and that scares him

"Let's do a funny little dance with my funny little monkey"

The black keys



Actually, he loves you



Here is my real head

Here is my real head

I wear this bunny mask because you cannot handle me

Here is my real head



They try to blink me not to think me

Don't want to bring me out

I am the rotten teeth my fists are lined with suckers

My prison skins an eyesore-mirror-sketch-pad

I am your son

Your dad

You fag

I am your fad



Here is my real head

Here is my real head

I wear this bunny mask because you cannot handle me

Here is my real head



I have to take your voice and and stick my fingers in it

bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny

Here is my real head

Here is my real head

Here is my real head

Here is my real head

I wear this bunny mask because you cannot handle me

Here is my real head

I wear this bunny mask because you cannot handle me

Here is my real head



I have to take your voice and and stick my fingers in it

bunny bunny!

Here is my real head

Here is my real head

Here is my real head

**********************************

Gothic Sanctuary-Nightwish

Toll no bell for me father

But let this cup of suffering pass from me

Send me no shepherd to heal my world

But the angel, the dream foretold

Prayed more than thrice for you to see

The wolf of loneliness in me

Not my own will but yours be done



You wake up, where's the tomb

Will Easter come, enter my room

The Lord weeps with me

But my tears fall for you



Another beauty, loved by a beast

Another tale of infinite dreams

Your eyes, they were my paradise

Your smile made my sun rise



Forgive me, for I don't know what I gain

Alone in this garden of pain

Enchantment has but one truth

I weep to have what I fear to lose



(CHORUS)



I knew you never before

I see you nevermore

But the love, the pain, the hope, oh beautiful one

Have made you mine 'til all my years are done



Without you

The poetry within me is dead

*************************************************

Wings Of A Butterfly-HIM



Heaven ablaze in our eyes

We're standing still in time

The blood on our hands is the wine

We offer as sacrifice



[Chorus]

Come on, and show them your love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul, my love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul



This endless mercy mile

We're crawling side by side

With hell freezing over in our eyes

Gods kneel before our crime



[Chorus]

Come on lets show, them your love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul, my love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul

(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)

Don’t let go

(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)

For your soul



[Chorus]

Come on, and show them your love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul, my love

Rip out the wings of a butterfly

For your soul

(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)

Don’t let go

(Rip out the wings of a butterfly) [x2]



For your soul

*********************************************

Killing Lonliness-HIM



Memories, sharp as daggers

Pierce into the flesh of today

Suicide of love took away all that matters

And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart



With the venomous kiss you gave me

I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)

With the warmth of your arms you saved me,

Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you

I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb

I'm killing loneliness



Nailed to the cross, together

As solitude begs us to stay

Disappear in the lie forever

And denounce the power of death over our souls and secret words are said to start a war



With the venomous kiss you gave me

I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)

With the warmth of your arms you saved me,

Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you

I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb

I'm killing loneliness



Killing loneliness



With the venomous kiss you gave me

I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)

With the warmth of your arms you saved me

*************************************************

Under the Rose-HIM





dream of the winter in my heart turning to spring

While the ice gives way under my feet

And so I drown with the sun



I've been burning in water and drowning in flame

To prove you wrong and scare you away

I admit my defeat and want back home

In your heart under the rose



I open my eyes with a sigh of relief

As the warmth of summer's sunlight dances around me

And I see you with dead leaves in your hands



I've been burning in water and drowning in flame

To prove you wrong and scare you away

I admit my defeat and want back home

In your heart under the rose

************************************************

Circle-Slipknot



Give me the dust of my father

Stand on the face of the ancients

Bare the secret flesh of time itself



Follow me (Follow me)

I've come so far, I'm behind again

Follow me (Follow me)

I wish so hard I'm there again

Follow me (Follow me)

Follow me (Follow me)



All that I wanted were things I had before

All that I needed I never needed more

All of my questions are answers to my sins

All of my endings waiting to begin



I know the way but I falter

Can't be afraid of my patience

There's a sacred place Razel keeps safe



Follow me (Follow me)

I've seen so much I'm blind again

Follow me (Follow me)

I feel so bad I'm alive again

Follow me (Follow me)



All that I wanted were things I had before

All that I needed I never needed more

All of my questions are answers to my sins

All of my endings waiting to begin

******************************************

Coming Out of My Cage- The Killers



I'm coming out of my cage

And I’ve been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep

And she’s calling a cab

While he’s having a smoke

And she’s taking a drag

Now they’re going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it’s all in my head

But she’s touching his—chest

Now, he takes off her dress

Now, let me go



And I just can’t look its killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it’s just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside



I’m coming out of my cage

And I’ve been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep

And she’s calling a cab

While he’s having a smoke

And she’s taking a drag

Now they’re going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it’s all in my head

But she’s touching his—chest

Now, he takes off her dress

Now, let me go



Cause I just can’t look its killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it’s just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside



I never...

I never...

I never...

I never...

**************************************

Somebody Told Me-The Killers



Breaking my back just to know your name

Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game

I'm breaking my back just to know your name

But heaven ain't close in a place like this

Anything goes but don't blink you might miss

Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this

I said heaven ain't close in a place like this

Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight

Never thought I'd let a rumor ruin my moonlight



Well somebody told me

You had a boyfriend

Who looked like a girlfriend

That I had in February of last year

It's not confidential

I've got potential



Ready? Let's roll onto something new

Taking its toll and I'm leaving without you

Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this

I said heaven ain't close in a place like this

Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight

Never thought I'd let a rumor ruin my moonlight



Well somebody told me

You had a boyfriend

Who looked like a girlfriend

That I had in February of last year

It's not confidential

I've got potential

A rushin', a rushin' around



Pace yourself for me

I said maybe baby please

But I just don't know now

When all I wanna do is try



[x3]

Somebody told me

You had a boyfriend

Who looked like a girlfriend

That I had in February of last year

It's not confidential

I've got potential

A rushin', a rushin' around

*****************************************

I Write Sins Not Tragedies- Panic! At the Disco



Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,

and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:

"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.

"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."



I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...



Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved

Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne

Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved

Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne



I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.



Again...



I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.



Again...

*****************************************

A Little Less Sixteen Candles...A Little More Touch Me-Fallout Boy



confess, I{'m just} messed up

dropping "I'm sorry" like you're still around

And I know you dressed up

{said} "hey kid you'll never live this down"



And you're just the girl all the boys want to dance with

And I'm just the boy who's had too many chances



I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming

She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"



I don't blame you for being you

But you can't blame me for hating it

So say, what are you waiting for?

Kiss her, kiss her

I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late



Write me off, give up on me

Cause darling, what did you expect

I'm just off a lost cause

a long shot, don't even take this bet



You can make all the moves, you can aim all the spotlights

Get all the sighs and the moans just right



I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming

She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"



I don't blame you for being you

But you can't blame me for hating it

So say, what are you waiting for?

Kiss her, kiss her

I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late



(always on, always on)

You said you'd keep me honest

(always on, always on)

But I won't call you on it

(always on, always on)



I don't blame you for being you

But you can't blame me for hating it

So say, what are you waiting for?

Kiss her, kiss her

I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late



I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sweet Sacrifice - Evanescence



It's true, we're all a little insane

but its so clear

now that I'm unchained



fear is only in our minds

taking over all the time

fear is only in our minds but its taking over all the time



you poor sweet innocent thing

dry your eyes and testify

you know you live to break me- don't deny

sweet sacrifice



One day I'm gonna forget your name

and one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain



fear is only in our minds

taking over all the time

fear is only in our minds but its taking over all the time



you poor sweet innocent thing

dry your eyes and testify

and oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?

I'm your sacrifice.



[I dream in darkness

I sleep to die e

rase the silence

erase my life

our burning ashes

blacken the day

a world of nothingness

blow me away]



do you wonder why you hate?

are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?



you poor sweet innocent thing

dry your eyes and testify

you know you live to break me- don't deny

sweet sacrifice

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lacrymosa - Evanescence



Out on your own

Cold and alone again

Can this be what you really wanted, baby?



Blame it on me

Set your guilt free

Nothing can hold you back now



Now that you're gone

I feel like myself again

Grieving the things I can't repair and willing ...



To let you blame it on me

And set your guilt free

I don't want to hold you back now love



I can't change who I am

Not this time, I wont lie to keep you near me

And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up

My love wasn't enough



And you can blame it on me

Just set your guilt free, honey

I don't want to hold you back now love

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

All That I'm For - Evanescence



All that I'm living for

All that I'm dying for

All that I can't ignore alone at night



I can feel the night beginning

Separate me from the living

Understanding me

After all I've seen

Piecing every thought together

Find the words to make me better

If I only knew how to pull myself apart



All that I'm living for

All that I'm dying for

All that I can't ignore alone at night

All that I'm wanted for

Although I wanted more

Lock the last open door- my ghosts are gaining on me



I believe that dreams are sacred

Take my darkest fears and play them

Like a lullaby

Like a reason why

Like a play of my obsessions

Make me understand the lesson

So I'll find myself

So I wont be lost again



All that I'm living for

All that I'm dying for

All that I can't ignore alone at night

All that I'm wanted for

Although I wanted more

Lock the last open door- my ghosts are gaining on me



Guess I thought I'd have to change the world

To make you see me

To be the one

I could have run forever

But how for would I have come

Without mourning your love?



All that I'm living for

All that I'm dying for

All that I can't ignore alone at night

All that I'm wanted for

Although I wanted more

Lock the last open door- my ghosts are gaining on me



Should it hurt to love you?

Should I feel like I do?

Should I lock the last open door-

My ghosts are gaining on me

















DARKNESS CONSUMED

by One-Last-Rose on may fifth(my b-day. thanks for the awesome present Rosy!)



the sun sets on a beautiful day,

as the sky turns a deep shift red,

his friendliness haunts me

the things that he said.



i thank him with my heart,

he made me whole again

i never have and never will

have such a great new friend.



i trust him with everything,

and even more to spare,

if he had changed anything about him,

i simply wouldn't care.



i know what it's like to feel again,

to have emotions at my door,

DarknessConsumed332, i can't thank you enough,

today, and forevermore.



( i cried when i first read this. you have no idea how much i appreciate this Rosy! you always have my heart. -Kevin)



Through Love

by One-Last-Rose on July 26



Sometimes friends can be mean,

sometimes they can be amazingly nice,

sometimes, just sometimes,

it can develop into something more.



i have a wonderful friend,

who has helped me through,

Unimaginable stress and problems,

and not once did i lose his support.



yes of course i had my doubts,

on whether he believed me or not in the beginning,

but i was foolish for such things,

for i found no one more trusting than him.



something urged me, telling me that,

i can trust him with my darkest secrets,

and he completely understood,

not many would have been like that.



readily he took the weight of my problems,

upon himself, yet he still managed,

somehow, to keep me strong,

i guess it really just developed from there.



his presence, even from far away,

grew in my heart where i thought,

it was permanently sealed away,

i love him more than anything.



i don't know where i'd be without him,

for he was the reason i kept,

myself alive through these hardships,

without him, i'd be dead.



i want to be with him forever,

i want him to see how much i care,

i need him to see how much i love him,

even if he already has somebody else.



i didn't expect him to give up anything for me,

nobody ever has before,

and then suddenly i let him into my life,

and he's willing to stay by me, no matter what.



i've never had a friend like him,

and i don't think i ever will,

no matter what, my heart is always with him,

whenever he may need me.



i love him with my life,

and with all the world to know,

for one day, i shall return the strength he gave me,

hopefully, through love.



this poem is forever dedicated to my dearest friend DarknessConsumed332. At first, i had just thought that i had found somebody i could trust,but as time went on, i had somebody who i could not only trust,but who i could depend on being there when i needed to talk to somebody, and who i could confide my fears and secrets into, knowing he will never let me go. i am forever in debt to his kindness, and one day, we will meet, and i will finally know that i have found someone as amazing as him,when finally i will know that its not all too good to be true. DarknessConsumed332, i don't know where i'd be without you. you are my lifespirit. forever shall you have my love.

















i just want every gay person who reads my author page to know that if they need someone to talk to, im here. anyone who needs help they can come to me if needed. yes im gay but im also human and do want to help lots of people.^.^, i know this might sound selfish or that im full of myself but i do want to help people.



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and many more!!! if people wish to read really good poetry, read poems by these people. THESE ARE NOT RATINGS, THESE ARE JUST SMILEYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE DON'T BE OFFENDED. oh and if your the person who imed me and asked why you weren't one of the people, its because i've never met you before.DUH!!!!



Inspirations:

See favorites LOL!!!





More important matters:

On april 13th. this is a very important day for me and my peoples( because it is the day of silence to commemorate how GLBTQ people have been silenced in societies eye as it focuses in stupid bunny like rap.(no offense to anyone who likes rap its just that i don't and this is my author's page) please continue support for us by joining in on this with your local GSA chapter or if you don't have one just go to your administration for school or work and get things sorted out there. if they don't let you... do what i did and commit hate crimes against heteros( .lol. im just kidding but it could make a difference.



6/7/05

yay! one of my friends just came out to me. and he is the guy of my dreams! i'm so excited. and best of all he told me he has a crush on me, so we are considering going out.YAY!!!!!!!!





Less important matters:

I GOT A bunny HAIRCUT! I TOLD THE bunny bunny TO TAKE 5 cm OFF THE bunny THING AND INSTEAD SHE ONLY LEFT 5 cm. I HAD 7 INCHES OF HAIR, NOW I LOOK LIKE A BUTCH LESBIAN. iM A MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!



please pardon my Italian.>





PUT THE LIME IN THE COKE YOU NUT AND DRINK IT ALL UP!!!!

LET ME TELL YOU HOW....LOL





i'm starting an ap family!!!

my sister is XxtootiexX-lauren YAY!!!

second sister Angelpoet122005-Liz YAY!!!



awesome bands:

evanescence

seether

within temptation

nightwish

lacuna coil

slipknot

green day

my chemical romance

marilyn manson

alanis morrissette

ozzy ozbourne

HIM

Reviving ophelia-my band!!!!

the killers

koRn

rob zombie

disturbed





Favorite quotes:



a flower that hides its petals, never blooms. -me



stupal fabbiland- my brother when he was attempting to say "stupid fabricland" but got a two second lisp



Shall we go to ze feztival of red ballooooons?!?!?!?-Vanessa Hoggingshead



You always adopt a nice asian girl. "mommy people at school say we different. they say we not related."..." oh thats stupid, they don't know what they're talking about. now shut up and do my nails!"- Vanessa Hoggingshead



start swalking you swank. swo swoopid!!!- My friend Katie



if i were Jesus, i would make the world tie die.-My friend Megan



"maria, what are you afriad of?"..."bears"..."no Maria what are you really afriad of?"...."the north american grizzly." "well....i'm really afraid of being sucked into a hideous cult!!!WHY??WHY AM I SO AFRIAD!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?"-Maria Bamford



"YOU SHIT WEASAL!!!!"- my friend Katie



"suck my dick you evil butt monkey!!! i will own you in hell!!!"- my friend Lisa



"why do i always atract small penises?"- my sister Jessica



wait...when's ur twin's birthday?"- my friend Sarah



"WHEN DO I GET TO GROW A PENIS?" my friend Jessica



"i can sing opera when my testicles are in my mouth..."-me



"when i think about you i barf on myself...."-my friend danielle



"evil goth ninja's unite!!!!"- again my friend danielle



"someone told me you died last night...is that true??"- some girl who came up to me at my school.



"Jesus told me he hates you."-me to some christian lady when we talking about how jesus is the one talking to me and not other spririts when we were having a controversial debate about the hysterical fits people go into during ritual provocation.



"if i were you, i draw and quarter myself."- me to his one and only george bush on a site that was letting people send him messages, i don't know if he ever got it...



"We are Adam and Steve."- my wonderful gay friends adam and steve...hee hee



"i suck penis....which is why i suck so much."- my friend scott attempting to be funny.



"fut the shuck up!" -me friend Scott



"love me like you hate me, that would devotion" - me



"Go overdose on allegra!" me to some kid at my school, who overdosed on allegra(in school) and then fell down the stairs. and he had the nerve to tell me i'm a druggie.



"lick my cooch you sodomistic butt muncher!!- my friend Julie hee hee shes so funny.



my friend sarah to this guy Steve who was drunk on the phone "do you really want me to stay on the line Steve? or can i go?"..."Sarah, on a scale from one to ten...i really want you to stay."



" look, i don't want you to take this the wrong way, but you're a fucking hanous bitch." - me to this girl Brittany

"You have to be pessimistic to be optimistic."-me

"I wish you were a beaver, because then i could feed you wood all night long..."-my friend Danny

"I Wish I was a beaver."-Me

"Well let me put my clutch into gear and then we'll go for a ride."-me(then my Friend Kelly licked me...tee hee...it wasn't ment to sound like that...)

"Giddy up, giddy up!!"- my gym teacher when she grabbed my bondage pants straps and started to pretend i was a horse, in front of my entire gym class...i was embarressed.











and there will be more...i rpomsie!!!