DeadlySoul• Show poetry

My names Crystal and these are my lovely poems I write! I don't write poetry much anymore, but I would love to. Having a baby takes up so much time. It's so hard going to school and raising a baby. I'm thankful for having my child, but I wish I would have waited. Everything happens for a reason!! No one can change anything from happening.

I've been through so much within the past 4 years, but it's made me a stronger person. I've been through the whole depression thing. I've also been through the whole cutting thing, but nothing has stopped me from living and being able to figure out what people are really like.

My poems still are a little sad, but I write happier ones too. I hope you enjoy all of my poems and I hope you can get something out of them. I know I'm not that great of a person, but I'm the best one I can be. I try helping out so many people, but it's just backfires on me. Just read my poems and figure out the way life has been for me the past 4 years.

This is all the shit I've been through over the years. Enjoy reading my life story!

Bands I listen to:
*Slipknot,The Rasmus,Cradle of Filth,koRn,AFI,My Chemical Romance,Seether,Evanesence,Guns n Roses,Blink-182,Bowling for Soup,Drowning Pool,Adema,Finger Eleven,Kittie,Chevelle,Rob Zombie,Taproot,Stone Sour,All American Rejects,Smile Empty Soul,Three Days Grace,Type O Negative,Hinder,Shinedown,The Used,Papa Roach,And a lot more, but I just can't think of them now!!!

There's just so much more to me, but you people prolly don't care, so I'm not gonna waste my time and tell everyone everything about me. I would rather keep to myself. So long!
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The Used
"I'm A Fake"

[Spoken:]
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus:]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]

Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus]

My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake [x4]
And I'm telling you I'm...

[Chorus]
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Papa Roach
"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]