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Hi!!! My name is Lillie. I'm a 15 year old from Luttrell, Tennessee. I'm turning 16 on December 21. I'm a freshman in high school. I love reading poetry, especially that of new writers. Anyway, if theres anything you wanna know about me, feel free to ask. I'm uninhibited online.
If ya'll ever wanna get to know me, just message me and ask me for my cell number. All I have is text, but still Sorry I haven't been on in a while, my computer at home literally exploded, so I'm stuck to using one at school or IF i get the chance to go to the library. Anyway...
I probably won't be on all summer, but still keep messaging and commenting please! I'll get on when I can! I don't really know what else to say...
AP FAMILY:
AP Cousin: Evemauy More about me:
[X] Smoked a cigarette
[X] Drank so much you threw up
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[X] Been arrested
[_] Gone on a blind date
[_] Skipped school
[X] Seen someone die
[_] Been to Canada
[_] Been to Florida
[_] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Been lost
[_] Been on the opposite side of the country
[X] Gone to Washington , DC
[x] Swam in the ocean
[x] Felt like dying....
[x] Cried yourself to sleep
[_] Played cops and robbers
[_] Recently colored with crayons
[_] Sang karaoke badly
[X] Paid for a meal with only coins
[x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[_] Made prank phone calls
[x] Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
[x] Danced in the rain
[_] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[_] Been kissed under the mistletoe
[_] Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[_] Blown bubbles
[x] Made a bonfire on the beach
[_] Crashed a party
[_] Gone roller-skating
[_] Ice-skating
[X] I'm single
[_] I'm engaged
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[_] I've gone on a blind date.
[_] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[_] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[_] I've cheated in a relationship.
[X] I've been the cheatee
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[X] Get a new girlfriend/boyfriend
[x] Got dumped
Sexuality
[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[_] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[X] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[_] I have kissed a stranger.
[_] I am gay
[_] I am lez
[X] I am bi
[_] I am gay but no ones knows
[_] I am lez but know one knows
[X] I am bi but know one knows
[_] I have had sex
[_] I have had sex with more then one person
[_] I regret it
[X] I am a virgin
Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[X] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[_] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[X] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[X] I take anti-depressants.
[_] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[_] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[_] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[x] I'm addicted to self harm
Random
[x] I can sing well.
[_] I open up to others easily.
[_] I watch the news.
[_] I don't kill bugs. Some one else does it for me!
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[_] I am a morning person.
[_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[_] I'm a snob about grammar. sometimes not as bad as used to be!
[_] I am a sports fanatic.
[_] I twirl my hair
[_] I love being neat
[_] I love Spam
[X] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[_] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[_] I would wear pajamas to school.
[_] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[_] I am in love with love.
[_] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[_] I eat fast food weekly
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[_] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[_]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.(everywhere!)
[_] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games (Halo 3)
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[_] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Everyone thinks that I do, but I don't)
[_] I have tried to join a circus and failed
[X] I own a knife
[X] I got picked up by the cops
[X] I told a cop to go to hell, go fuck him/her self, ect...
[_] I work out.
[X] I have a tattoo
[_] I am something
[_] I am an alien
[X] I am "idk"
[X] I've been to juvy
[_] I love life (NEVER)
[x] I hate life(always)
[x] I want to die
[_] I want to live now THATS confusing.
[_] I want to die but not kill myself
[X] I want to kill them myself
[x] I have cut my self
[x] I like to cut
[x] I love to cut
[_] thinks cutting is wrong
[x] thinks cutting helps
[x] has more then 1 friend
[x] has a best friend
[x] has gone out with a girl/boy for over a month
[x] beleves in one gf one bf relation ships
[_] has someone to talk to
[_] think your smart somewhat
[_] think your dumb
[_] think ur cool
[X] think your lame
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[_] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[x] liked this thingy?
[x] My answers are totally honest
Lil' Bit Bout Me:
Favorite subject: World History
Least favorite subject: Physical Science
Highest grade is in: Drama A+
Lowest grade in: Physical Science 93%
Alcohol: Yes
Smoking: Yes
Favorite time of day: Night
Favorite Season:Winter
Least favorite season: Summer
Education: High School Freshman
Relationship status: Single And Looking
Democrat/Republic: Democrat (plz no hate me)
Age: 15
Date of Birth: December 21, 1993
Favorite Color: Black and Lilac
Least favorite color: Pink
Favorite Genres of music: Heavy metal, rock, and punk
Least favorite: Rap
Mental Disabilities: Depression
Me Look Like:
Height: 5'5
Weight: 130 lbs
Hair: Black (but naturall platinum blonde)
Eyes: brown ringed with gold
Sports/Physical Activities: Cheerleading, football, and soccer
HATE EMO?
READ THIS:
Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a t-shirt that barely cover anything?
Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?
Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone
Are you laughing?
Isn't it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more *bunny* from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?
Isn't it funny that you don't mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
I'm not laughing
Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.
Isn't it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.
HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OR LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS
keep on laughing
Isn't it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life without knowing her situation with her friends or her family or her LIFE
BRAVE ISN'T GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING
BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH
OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND
BRAVE IS
GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE *bunny*S AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES
ITS LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT
ITS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET
ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS
BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMMOROW ISN'T A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE
ITS ANOTHER DAY OF *bunny*ING AND DODGING RUMORS
keep on laughing
if you agree put this on ur blog
and advise others to do so
screw THE EMO HATERS.
Goths:
*Don't always wear black
*Don't worship Satan
*Are NOT evil
*Do not want to kill people
*Do not hate everybody
*Are not always depressed
*Can be happy too
*Are usually nice people
*Are normal, just like you
[if you suport goths or are one add this to your page]
"If you'd walk 5,000 miles to spend 5 minutes with someone who you love, put this in" your profile." "
I'm sorry "
" Im sorry if I don't meet your standards"
I'm sorry if I'm not a *bunny*"
I'm sorry if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs."
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs"
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl"."
I'm sorry if I'm not taned enough for you"
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you."
I'm sorry if I'm weird"
I'm sorry that I write about you every day"
I'm sorry if i don't have a dream body that turns you on."
I'm sorry if im not tall enough."
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date."
I'm sorry if I'm annoying"
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough."
I'm sorry that im different from those other girls"
I'm sorry i won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy."
I'm sorry that I actually care about you"
and actually call to see how you're doing."
But most of all..."
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are." If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry"." If you're one of the FEW GUYS with enough balls to repost and you would never make"
your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are"
For me, crazy is a loose term. Crazy is when you stare at a pencil and laugh when someone asks you just what you find so interesting about the eraser. Crazy is when you have an hour long sob-fest, then start singing and dancing when your favorite song plays. Crazy is when you do or say a totally random thing, like "do you ever wonder where the eraser bits go?" or start having a thumbwar with yourself (i find that i am a very tough opponent). So if you're crazy, copy this onto your profile."
Put this on ur page if u have been abused.
A baby cries for its first and last time when its aborted.
You can deny it, but its true
A baby is a liveing thing
Abortion is a form of child abuse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
REPOST THIS IF YOU THINK ABORTION IS WRONG!!
Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe, Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, IwuvMyKenshyPoo, Heidiplease, iNsOmNiAc BiLlIe JoE lOvEr, Black Panther Warrior,Mina the Mischevious, SnowNeko, KylaMizuki, SkyeEyesSparkle7135, Ms.Misery.SouthernSecrets15. ChristinaXCuriosity, SecretButterfly, SilverRain09, Blood.Stained.Tears, Falling Star, Jackie 12,XxXDeath-WishXxX, YourAddictedLover,Hannah1121,Daniel Ploss, england girl2008, Darkness-My Home,
If you've ever copied and pasted something onto your profile, copy and paste this onto your profile.
If, during a quiet moment, you suddenly remember something funny and randomly bust out laughing, copy and paste this into your profile.
If you've ever thought about something when you were talking about something else, copy and paste this into your profile.
If you've ever talked to yourself, copy and paste this into your profile. If you've ever asked a really stupid, obvious question, copy and paste this one your profile. If you've ever walked into a doorway that you could've clearly dodged, you just weren't paying close enough attention, copy and paste this on your profile. If you are bored and like to write stuff, copy and paste this onto your profile. ♥_♥_♥___♥_♥_ Put this ♥___♥_♥___♥ heart _♥___♥___♥_ on your __♥_____♥__ page if ___♥___♥___ you love ____♥_♥____ someone _____♥_____ very much |………..| |………..| Put this on your page |………..| If you've ever pushed |…….O.| a door that said |………..| pull on it. |………..| |………..| ..._...|..____________________, , ....../ `---___________----_____|] = = = = = D ...../_==o;;;;;;;;_______.:/ .....), ---.(_(__) / ....// (..) ), ----" ...//___// ..//___// .//___// If you would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend, ex-girlfriend, ex-boyfriend, best friend, family member, or just a person you love, post this onto your page ..*•.¸(*•.¸♥¸.•*)¸.•*.. ╔═╦══╦═╗ Put this on your ║╩╣║║║║║ page if you are emo ╚═╩╩╩╩═╝ or support emos xx ¸.•*(¸.•*´♥`*•.¸)*•.¸ /////(_)\\\\\ //(_) 0 (_)\\\\\ /////(|)\\\\\ if u are suicidal or know /////(|)\\\\\ someone who is or died from /////(|)\\\\\ suicide put this on ur page /////(|)\\\\\ /////(|)\\\\\ /////\ /\\\\\ *•.¸(*•.¸♥¸.•*)¸.•*.. ......./A//\\\\........ ....../B//..\\\\....... ...../U//....\\\\...... .....\S\\....////...... ......\E\\..////....... .......\A\\////........ ........\W\\//......... ......../A//\\\........ ......./R//.\\\\....... ....../E//...\\\\...... ...../N//.....\\\\..... ..../E//.......\\\\.... .../S//.........\\\\... ../S//...........\\\\.. ....................... [Put This On Your Page If you Were Abused Or Are Against Any Form Of It!] I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists. I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun. I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty. I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart. I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy. I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS. I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape. I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist. I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat. I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world. I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals. I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people. I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible. I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed. I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay. I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash. I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy. I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants. I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem. I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store. I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister. I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up bitch. I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a bitch. I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a slut. I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs. I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive. I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob. I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth. I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz. I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend. I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars. I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border. I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy. I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking bitch. I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible bitch. I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals. I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter. I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat. I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin. I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention. I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention. I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual. I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist. I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fuck them all. I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay. I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a slut. I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer. I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser. I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool. I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi. I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT. I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited. I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13. I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy. I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy. I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction. I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude. I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy. I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken. I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot. I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small peter. I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay. I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic. I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich. I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL so I MUST be gay. I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino. I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party. I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo. I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian or a dyke. I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie. ~*Post this in your profile if you think stereotyping is just plain wrong*~ Emos: *Don't cut them selves to get attention *Don't always cry *Sometimes cry because they hurt. *Are not all Bi sexual *Want to be included *Are not babies *Don't always date Emos *Don't lable *Want to be happy like others. PUT THIS ON YOUR PAGE IF UR EMO ______/\/\/____/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\ put this on your page if the thought of someone saves your life ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I'm ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~F ucked up~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I nsecure~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~N eurotic~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~E motional~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ι’м иσт α вιтcн ----- ι נυѕт ℓιкє вєιиg яυ∂є. ι'м иσт α ѕιииєя ----- ι נυѕт ¢αит ∂σ αиутнιиg яιgнт. ι'м иσт ∂єρяєѕѕє∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт αℓωαуѕ ѕα∂. ι'м иσт ¢яуιиg ----- му єуєѕ αяє נυѕт fυℓℓ σf тєαяѕ. ι’м иσт ℓινιиg ----- ι נυѕт кєєρ вяєαтнιиg. ι'м иσт ѕтυρι∂ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т gєт ιт. ι’м иσт тяуιиg ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у gινєи υρ. ι'м иσт ωєιя∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт ∂ιffєяєит. ι'м иσт α яєвєℓ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє σя∂єяѕ. ι'м иσт α вєℓιєνєя ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у ℓσѕт нσρє. ι'м иσт α fυ¢к υρ ----- ι נυѕт мαкє мιѕтαкєѕ. ι'м иσт ємσтισиαℓ ----- ι נυѕт нανє α ℓσт σf fєєℓιиgѕ. ι'м иσт α ¢υттєя ----- ι נυѕт fσυи∂ α ωαу тσ gєт яι∂ σf ραιи. ι'м иσт ℓαυgнιиg ----- ι иєє∂ тσ ѕмιℓє fιяѕт ι'м иσт ρєяfє¢т ----- ι ∂σи’т ωαит тσ вє. ι'м иσт ιgиσяιиg ----- ι נυѕт ¢нσσѕє иσт тσ ℓιѕтєи. ι'м иσт α gσѕѕιρ ----- ι нανє му σωи ℓιfє. ι'м иσт ιмραтιєит ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т ℓιкє тσ ωαιт. ι'м иσт тσυgн ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє ѕнιт. ι'м иσт σριиισиαтє∂ ----- ι נυѕт νσι¢є ωнαт ι тнιик. ι'м иσт qυєѕтισиιиg ----- ι נυѕт нανє му ∂συвтѕ. ι'м иσт нι∂ιиg ----- ι נυѕт ωαит тσ ∂ιѕαρρєαя.