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My name is Bianca. People call me Bee sometimes...I'm 14 and am stereotyped into the "emo/goth" category. I do wear alot of black...thick eyeliner...black lipstick on occasion...and I have cut before...but if you really get to know me...i'm actually a nice person deep under my dark exterior =/. I don't entirely have a religon...Most of my family wants me to be all christian and catholic, but i refuse. I did convert to Wicca for a short time, but i got..bad vibes, so i'm somewhat of an atheist right now. If you so much as even mention the bible around me, I'll never speak to you again. I enjoy writing poetry...not all of it sounds that great, but I mean every word i write down. I write from the heart [[whatever's left of it...]] and even if you don't like how it sounds...at least know it's true. If i'm not writing a poem, i'm either drawing or losing myself in music [preferably a song by Aiden or My Chemical Romance...]. I also have a habit of listening to japanese music quite a bit. It's....calming. Yellow Moon by Akeboshi is the song i listen to most frequently. I ~love japan, it's culture, the language, the music, almost everything about it. I plan on going there someday. I'm quite a big fan of anime. Naruto is my favorite, but i also like inuyasha, death note, full metal alchemist, blood plus, bleach[♥], tokyo mew mew, and fruits basket. There are alot of places i'd like to visit someday...Italy...Spain...Germany, Bulgaria, England (to get in touch with my inner 'Britty' side), and most importantly, Japan [[as i stated before]]. I've been told I care too much...in a sense yes..I care alot about others...but I couldn't care less if I were to die tomorrow...if I did, it would probably be a good thing anyways... I admire wolves. Such majestic creatures they are. I am guided by a wolf spirit and i am a wolf trapped in a simple human body. I desire to be a wolf in another life, free to roam around and howl in the moonlight.~Ah-oooooooooooooo~ I don't draw very well, but i enjoy doing it almost as much as i enjoy writing poems. I've drawn a few anime characters, but most of my drawing i kinda make up. I enjoy sketching trees for some odd reason...not sure why but it's relaxing in a sense... I love rain. I enjoy hearing the rain patter against my rooftop and window, and the air after it rains is so refreshing. I walk in the rain sometimes...it helps me take my mind off things. While most people find rain to be gloomy and blehhh, I seem to find peace when it rains. People think that because I'm young, that I'm perfectly normal...but they're wrong. For my age..I've seen and been through alot. My life is one big hell. I just want it to end...and sadly, not even one of the 19 times I've tried to end it worked...v,..,v. I'm not going to stop trying until I'm finally dead...My wrists look like someone ran a grater across them. I slit, cut, gash, and slash them..feeling pain reminds me that I'm alive, yet it also reminds me how much I wish I was dead. Luckily, I have my sister Megan..she's my best friend. She's prevented me from killing myself at least 4 or 5 different times...i guess you could say without her being my friend and accepting me for me, i really dont think i'd still be alive right now. Thanks Meg. Lmetwds4everz! =] Not much left to say about myself really...the rest is better left untold anyways...


My Favorite Bands...
~Aiden ♥
~Slipknot ♥
~My Chemical Romance ♥
~Metro Station ♥
~Red Jumpsuit Apparatus ♥
~Avenged Sevenfold
~Akeboshi ♥
~Trivium ♥
~The Fray
~Panic! at the Disco ♥
~Taylor Swift ♥
~Sugarland
~Alkaline Trio
~Paramore
~Papa Roach
~Simple Plan ♥
~Evanescence
~Three Days Grace
~Atreyu ♥
~Green Day
~Good Charlotte
~Linkin Park
~t.A.T.u. ♥
~Lamb of God
~Pink
~Avril Lavigne
~Thousand Foot Krutch ♥



My favorite songs...
~Life is Like a Boat-Rie Fu
~Scars-Papa Roach
~Lip Gloss & Black-Atreyu
~Scream-Avenged Sevenfold
~Dear God-Avenged Sevenfold
~Afterlife-Avenged Sevenfold
~Perfect world-Simple Plan
~Yellow Moon-Akeboshi
~Every Heart-BoA
~Vermilion pt. 2-Slipknot
~Teardrops on my guitar-Taylor Swift
~Wind-Akeboshi
~Stay-Sugarland
~That's What You Get-Paramore
~Forever-Papa Roach
~Dearest-Ayumi Hamasaki
~One Love-Aiden
~Silent Eyes-Aiden
~To The End-My Chemical Romance
~Drowning Lessons-My Chemical Romance
~Your Guardian Angel-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
~Hurt Me-Aiden
~Take me-Papa Roach
~Concrete Angel-Martina McBride
~Petals-Mariah Carey
~Butcher's Hook-Slipknot
~Dead Memories-Slipknot
~Snuff-Slipknot


My favorite song lines/lyrics...
~in with a bullet...out with the darkness...
~say goodbye to the hearts you break and all the cyanide you drank...
~look afraid...beyond human aid..
~you wrote the book on silent eyes..and i wrote this song...to say..goodbye..
~the only one that has enough of me to break my heart...
~when i...see your smile...tears run down my face...
~as days go by....my heart grows cold..
~i've got a jet black heart..it's all fucked up..and it's falling apart
~and these words..can hurt me..
~we're all in hell..laughing in your misery..the desperate fade to black and it suits me well...
~and they found you on the bathroom floor...

AP Family:
-AP Brother, and pain in my butt *Deathwolf Tasagka*
-AP/real Sis, and best friend *MidnightWolfPup*
-AP Mum, and eye opener *paw-writer*

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A song that..somewhat describes me...

~Life is Like a Boat-Rie Fu~

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

tooku de iki wo shiteru toomei ni natta mitai

kurayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisareteta dake

inori wo sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made


Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru

tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o terashidasu


inori o sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made


And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

unmei no hune wo ko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to watashi-tachi o shou kedo
sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne




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*~My statue stands in a shaded place...an angel girl with an upturned face...my name is written on a polished rock...a broken heart that the world had forgot...~*