Lyrics to my Heart

Cyanide Dreams ~lyrics~
Start with a dream
lace it with cyanide,
to give you a switch on the playlist.
Change the song,
we don't need you anyway.
I'll fight until the end.

Dream of death
to poison your life,
sink deeper into your flesh
bite back hard, speak to yourself,
go crazy.
Love comes in sleep.

Dreams of poisonous beauty
it will kill you to leave that world
and come back down to reality.
We don't need you anymore,
just go away.

The only thing I have not done yet,
is live.
And the worst part is,
that I miss my background music
to the end.
Written by Halen Van Michael Herman
account: XxXDieXRomanticXxX
This I feel, relates to my username perfectly.

 

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Get to know Me

 

Alright, so I aint got nothing to do, so I might as well tell you about me. I'm a 18 year old guy from Wichita, Kansas. I play the clarinet and bass clarinet . I love to love, though I don't like to "love, love" if that makes any sense. I'm the type of guy, to take a chance, no matter how scary it could be. I'm the guy that's always smiling, the guy to brighten up a day, even if mine is shitty. I'm gay and I love being that way. PRIDE BABY PRIDE! I'm a trustwrothy guy, and helpful. I'm the guy that most people come to for advice in relationships, and I've only ever been stumped once. I'm a guy to try anything once. I am a new wiccan, now knowing its ways and loving it. I have no views on politics. I am a gay rights activist. I'm the type of guy, that doesn't care about marriage, because I don't need a measly piece of paper telling me I love someone, although getting married would be nice. I love to text, even though I can't keep my phone on. I boys.

 

 

 

I have a little brother Brandon, that is my life. He is 4 years old. I've basically raised this boy, considering my mother is always working and our father, does nothing, whatsoever. I love this kid, and if anything happened to him, I... I don't even want to think about what I would do. He's the light of my life, and without him, I probably wouldn't be alive right now. My angel, my innocence relived. He's the most wonderful thing that's ever happened to me.

I also have a family. I'm not too fond of them, but we've had some pretty awesome moments, and some pretty shitty ones too. My mom, lately, has been my biggest inspiration. She tries to help, and she's just fun. She works two jobs to support the family, even with her going on battle of rhemautoid arthritis. I'm growing up and she knows it, just like any mother would though, her instincts still tell her that I'm still her baby boy. I love her to death !

 

 

 

 

I don't know when to keep my mouth shut. I have experience beyond my years. I listen to music, and love almost all genres of music. I love singing as well. Most people tell me I'm a very talented singer, but I don't believe them. My favourite artists at the moment are Rascal Flatts, The White Tie Affair, Nickelback, and most musicals.

As I write, I usually get my inspiration from pictures or very heartfelt movies. I'm more into writing dark poetry, and am told that I'm pretty good at it. I don't consider myself a very good writer, but everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I like reading deep poetry, dirty pretty, and inspirational poetry.

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 I am very dirty minded. I am very open, and will tell you anything as long as its not rude. I'm not too fond of rude people, even though I can be that way myself. I have many friends, and people love me for who I am. I'm that kind of guy, that doesn't care what you think about me, because I got the people that love me for me, and if you don't then oh well. I love writing and I think I'm an okay critiquer of poetry, so if you want me to do so just leave me a message. I've recetnly found out what sparks my muse the most are movies, so if you have any superly good and deep movies that you think will inspire me please let me know. I'm very conceited, especially when it comes to my hair. I can't go anywhere with out it being done. I don't even go to school if I'm having a bad hairday. Thanks. Hmm, well I lost what I was doing. If you want to know more about me just IM me with a question.

Here's some of my crazy ass friends, without them, I doubt I'd be living today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

  We are some crazy mo'fos but I love them to death.

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  Thanks for viewing my page.

Loves from!
Joshy!

 

 

Picture Copyright ~ Raymond J. Cloud ~ June 4th 2009~

 

 

 

My wonderful, wonderful AP family. ~

~ sugarblade (Rena) - the most "awesomest" person ever - i love to little bits, yep, and I'm supposed to put her at the very tippity top of the list

~ Public Enemy No 1. (Jeremy) - My Jerface, AP hubby - Shh, it's supposed to be a secret

~ Vhoori The Goblin (Emily) a.k.a  master - Auntie- Dod gamn Emily, stop changing your SN and go have your turtely sex

~Mie Silvermoon(Krissy) - My little sister - My german moonshine

~ Disco Lemonade (Kellena) - The monster under my bed ( ) - Truth lets you live while peace makes you free

 

~ Dmonik (D and other names I'm not  allowed to call him ) Bodyguard - One intimidating bastard, don't piss me off or I'll have him handle my light work.

~ blueyez (Sara) - Sister - Older, wiser(although her memory is slipping) more mature sister

~ TheLittleToaster (Alena) - lil sis - She's always burning my toast

~ Amas Veritas (Keisha) - The only sister money could buy - Don't know what I'd do without this chick, she's awesome, also apart of "the triangle"

~ Dime(Lauren) - Sister in law - the reason I have pink socks, damn you for distracting my wifey!

~ Failroad Station (Cassie)- Daughter in law - Slap a ho, Hassie!

~Silent Echos(Haley) - Daughter - Don't go stickin' your finger in my peanut butter! Lol, I love you Caley!!

~Mak(Mak) - Son?( ) - You can never take the cookie from the Makadamian Nut

~ Salt Therapy (Kerri) - Kerbosh Mosher - Josh goes rawr!

~ Imposing Snail (Snailpoo) -My superhero friend, Super snail - Ooops, did I just step in snailpoo? Yuck!

~ Timeless Wisdom (Raymond) - My guardian - A part of "the triangle" and my guide.

~ roninwort (ronin)- best friend - the hottie pottotie

 

~ Fulabeans (Dustin) - sister's boyfriends cousins aunt, second cousin twice removedalso known as a godand the sex   - There's a fine line between pain and pleasure and I am that line.

 

~ Doom Fridge (Chey) - My master and lord, but a whore  - Your mother was an actual hermaphrodite that gave birth to your father making you an incest baby I you Chey.

 

~ Dragonbabyx3 (Chrissy) - Best friend - Let's play a game

 

 

~ Amanda114 - Super Spectacular Sister - Wanna mudpie?

 

~ Rejected Easter Egg (Holly) - Pet Turtle - Wanna go to the CB?

 

~ CrazyChook - Choo, Choo, Cha-Chook (Amelia) - My super cool, super hi-tech, talking, toy train - Superly duperly duper!

 

~ DramaQueen469 (Maria) - My Partner in Crime - Ready to tackle these comments?
~ perfectsunset (Megz) - My Muse - Outstanding Qutoes ansd prompts for the world !!
~ •endymion (Christie) - My wifey, the Queen of France - Let us make war, love and peace

 

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Quotes to Live by

My quotes(my favorite quotes or one's said by me)

~Life is a movie. The producer, director, and stage manager is God. The cast are the people that come and go in your life. Things you expect and don't expect happen all the time. You adlib all the time, but after it's decided what to put in your scrpt you can't change it. And only God knows where the scrip says, in bold letters, "The End" - Joshua Rader

You choose your happiness or unhappiness. You're in the drivers seat of your destiny, not just a passenger. - Sean Covey

 

 

 

 

Horrid Locks in my Life

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Sillyness

Best Song.... EVER !!!
Hairbrush Song - Veggie Tales
Narrator: "Now it's time for silly songs with Larry.
The part of the show where Larry comes out and sings a silly song.
Our curtain opens as Larry, having just finished his morning
bath, is searching for his hairbrush. Having no success, Larry cries
out..."

Larry: "Oh, where is my hairbrush? Oh where is my hairbrush? Oh,
where,
oh, where, oh, where, oh, where, oh, where, oh, where, oh, where, oh,
where oh, where ... is my hairbrush?"

Narrator: "Having heard his cry, Pa Grape enters the scene. Shocked
and
slightly embarrassed at the sight of Larry in a towel, Pa regains his
composure and reports ..."

Pa: "I think I saw a hairbrush back there!"

Larry: "Back there is my hairbrush. Back there is my hairbrush. Back
there, back there, oh, where, back there, oh, where, oh, where, back
there, back there, back there ... is my hairbrush?"

Narrator: "Having heard his joyous proclamation, Junior Asparagus
enters
the scene. Shocked and slightly embarrassed at the sight of Larry in a
towel, Junior regains his composure and comments ..."

Junior: "Why do you need a hairbrush? You don't have any hair!"

Narrator: "Larry is taken aback. The thought had never occured to him.
No hair? What would this mean? What will become of him? What will become
of his hairbrush? Larry wonders ..."

Larry: "No hair for my hairbrush. No hair for my hairbrush. No hair,
no
hair, no where, no hair, no hair, no hair, no where back there, no hair
.. for my hairbrush."

Narrator: "Having heard his wonderings, Bob the Tomato enters the
scene.
Shocked and slightly embarrassed at the sight of Larry in a towel, Bob
regains his composure and confesses ..."

Bob: "Larry, that old hairbrush of yours ... Well, you never use it,
you
don't really need it. So, well, I'm sorry ... I didn't know. But I gave
it to the Peach - 'cause he's got hair!"

Narrator: "Feeling a deep sense of loss, Larry stumbles back and
laments..."

Larry: "Not fair! Oh, my hairbrush. Not fair! My poor hairbrush. Not
fair, not fair, no hair, not fair, no where, no hair, not fair, not
fair, not fair! My little hairbrush!"

Narrator: "Having heard his lament, the Peach enters the scene.
Himself
in a towel, both Larry and the Peach are shocked and slightly
embarrassed at the sight of each other. But recognizing Larry's
generosity, the Peach is thankful ..."

Peach: "Thanks for the hairbrush."

Narrator: "Yes, good has been done here. The Peach exits the scene.
Larry smiles, but, still feeling an emotional attachment for the
hairbrush, calls out ..."

Larry: "Take care of my hairbrush. Take care, oh my hairbrush. Take
care, take care, don't dare not care. Take care. Nice hair. No fair.
Take care, take care ... of my hairbrush."

Narrator: "The end!"

 

 

-*- A TIME THAT MADE ME CRY IN THE CB-*-

SpiritofaWhiteTiger: Here's one for 47 points
SpiritofaWhiteTiger: "There are times when we're dirt broke, hungry, and freezing, and I ask myself, why the hell am I still living here?"
Doom Fridge: titanic
SpiritofaWhiteTiger:
sugarblade: lol
sugarblade: hell if i know
Doom Fridge: Probably something stupid like Party Monster
Doom Fridge: or Rent
sugarblade: lol
SpiritofaWhiteTiger_O
SpiritofaWhiteTiger: It's rent
Doom Fridge: omg
Doom Fridge: are you serious
sugarblade:
Doom Fridge: ?
SpiritofaWhiteTiger: Yes
Doom Fridge: L M F A O

 

 

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SpiritofaWhiteTiger

Peaceful Atrocity

Cyanide Dreams

 

 

Beware, your muse lies here

 

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/// Hacked by the beautiful and talented Maria (DramaQueen469) ///
Oh my goodness gracious me... it's JOSH!! Haha this dude's fairly awesome... not as awesome as me, obviously, but close enough
This is the kickarse guy who can not only withstand a blunt critique, but will actually help me give them!! I love him dearly, to bits and piece (not literally, of course, there are laws against that sort of thing).
Hmmm, what else? He rocks my socks off... or he would, if it wasn't the middle of winter here
Loves you longtime Josh!!
Maria xoxox


*~*~*~*~Hacked By: Chrissy (Dragonbabyx3)~*~*~*~*

Ok, So here I am On Josh's page. Now, I could go in and tell you what an amazing guy he is, how he loves to hold his contests, and is always there when you need him. I could even tell you about the funny conversations we have, how he always supports me and tells me the truth. But, I'm not, even though its all true! Joshy is one of my very bestest friends on AP! Why? Because, There is no one quite like him! He is sweet, gentle, kind hearted, and always sticks up for his friends! I love him to death! The Lord better help those who hurt him, cause otherwise I will come after them He's my Joshy, and I love him! So I raise my glass filled with good spirits, (and my ciggie too lol) and toast to one of the best guys I know! I love you Joshy!

Just the one I always need to see
On top of everything, always in control
Sitting high up on that mountain, watching
How everyone is doing, and there to lend a hand; knows
Yesterday is the past and that today is a present!


I love you Joshy!
Love Always,
Chrissy (Dragonbabyx3)

♥ ♥ ~ Hacked By ~ ♥ ♥

**Dances Across The Page

PRIDE!!!!!!!!!

Josh is an amazing poet! Especially with Free Verse or Dirty Pretty...and he happens to be a good friend of mine, and part of "The Threefold Bond" (AKA "The Triangle") So read his work or I will attack your page with spam!!

~Love and Light and Blessed Be Always ~ Raymond


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