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Most of what I write is for Daniel. I loved him very much for a while and then he did something I was not a fan of so I don't really like anyone else at the moment. It's weird for me, but whatever. lol The rest of my page is whatever I'd like you to know. lol
Enjoy!!!

Oh and please take a look at my stories from StoryWrite. Thanks!


"Don't pretend to understand my pain. If you really understand and feel for me, you're more than welcome to be here, but if you're simply pretending to understand because you think you're helping me feel better, just stop where you are, turn around and leave me alone... You'll only hurt me worse." - Crazy9Piano8Freak

A little quiet
For me please
Due to my story,
That will bring you to your knees

It started with a little girl
Who had ribbons and plastic pearls.
She grew up-
And lost her innocent curls.

She was blooming into a sweet lilac
When someone began to notice the change
It was a lad.
Here he came to rearrange.

He was her first.
A kiss, a teenage love
Something so tender and sweet.
A simple high to put her above.

They were so simple,
Almost a mock
But what came to be
Was a complete shock.

She fell as hard as
A rock being pulled to earth.
She was shy and nervous,
Yet her strength gave her a new birth.

She faced drama
That shook her to the core,
Though it hurt horribly,
The pain, she bore.

She went head to head with her friends
Them not giving their blessing.
She held her head,
Each day wishing.

Now, it has been some time.
The girl is old enough for the Senior High,
While the lad is still in junior’s.
Everyone is foreseeing a goodbye.

She knows, but can’t let it go.
He is still there.
But, losing grip.
Now comes a test for what they can bare.

A little date is what comes next.
This is where the true testing occurs.
So, everybody,
Set your seatbelt to secure

She was blinded by an image of love.
Her heart whispering hope into her ear.
Only to be crushed
By her biggest fear.

He just stated:
“It’s over.”
Then he ran.
She looked up to see
She was losing her cover.

Though the warnings,
This left a hole in her heart.
As he ran she stood,
Paralyzed not knowing what to start.

When her senses awoke,
She only felt a tear.
She looked to see him running away,
She saw her only fear.

Her friends, non-supporting were there.
They hugged and made her feel oh so good
Yet the only thing she wanted
Was to think that this is not what should.

Her eyes were missing tears.
Her heart was missing a piece
Her brain was missing sense
And her skin couldn’t even feel fleece

She wasn’t sad,
She wasn’t depressed
She only
Created stress.

Now she is too busy to feel
She is working harder than she should.
The only reason is because
She had no idea of what she could.

Her mind swarmed.
Her heart fell.
She acted fake
Like a doll for show and tell.

Days passed,
The pain was nothing more than numb.
To continue,
She cut her own thumb.

Physical pain
was the only way to escape.
A shroud she wore,
Her pain hidden in a cape.

When finally a day came,
Where she could honestly smile.
Her shoes,
Had walked a harden mile.

Now she sits here,
Typing about that lad
And not about the good,
Only the bad.

But, if anything comes from this,
Know that in order to have true joy and hope for tomorrow
Even though it is almost unbearable,
Live through the pain and sorrow.

Okay so Melisa wrote this for me (yes that's her Allpoetry name) and I think it's extremely accurate. I absolutely love it! Thank you SO much Melisa!

"Friends just avoid the walls you put up, but best friends try to penetrate it because they care about you." ++Unknown

Abortion is Wrong!!
Month One
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month Four
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month Five
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
Month Six
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No .
. .
Month Seven
Mommy, I'm not okay. I'm dead, how could you be so mean? Why didn't you want me Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Take this and if you have a heart, place this on your page. ♥


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|………..| Put this on your page
|………..| If you've ever pushed
|…….O.| a door that said
|………..| pull on it.
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-----///\\-----Please
----///-\\\----Put This
---|||--|||---On Your
---|||--|||---Account If
---|||--|||---You Know
----\\\-///----Someone
-----\\///-----Who Died Or Is Dying
------///\-----Of
-----///\\\----Cancer
----///--\\\---Thanks For Your Support!

*98 percent of teenagers have tried pot. If you are one of the 2% who hasn't, post this on your profile*

Okay, so Alyx Cosnahan wrote this herself, and i absolutely enjoyed it because it says a lot about me, too. So she gave me permission to post it here... although i put a few minor changes in it...

I am a poet.
I am an individual.
I am a thinker.
I am a dreamer.
I am a wisher.
I don't follow the crowd.
Im different than what you think.
Theres more to me then my exterior.
Theres more to me than angry glares,
And a cocky attitude.
I am honest,
If you want me to be.
I lie, but never pretend.
I expect too much out of life.
I cry more tears than I could count.
I smile too many times to care about them.
Im the girl that will stay on the phone with you,
Two hours after you've fallen sleep,
Just to hear the sound of you're breathing.
Im the girl that would blow off going
To her favorite concert with her favorite band,
To be held in your arms for if only 5 minutes.
Im the girl that loves to hear the sound of your laugh.
Im the girl that would do anything to see you smile.
Im the girl that really means it when she says,
"I dont care where we go tonight."
Because I'll be with you.
Im the girl who would lie next to you
For hours at a time,
And not say a single word.
Im the girl that laughs at the stupid things you say,
And the stupid things you do.
Im the girl that doesn't mean it when she says
"I'm fine." (Koko emphasizes this point)
Im the girl that seriously has something wrong,
If I consider talking to you about my problems.
Im the girl that wishes you were next to me,
Every night before I go to sleep, and while I sleep.
Im the girl that dreams about you, wakes up,
Then tries to go back to sleep to finish the dream.
Im the girl who will teach you anything,
No matter how long it takes.
Im the girl that still laughs about a conversation
That we had more than a week ago.
Im the girl that always remembers the first time she
heard you say "I love you.."
Im the girl that will read something you wrote
Ten Million times and NEVER get tired of it.
Im the girl that listens to your voice mail
Fifty times a day, no matter how long ago you left it.
Im the girl that will say 'Im Sorry'
If we had a dispute,
Even if I dont think Im the one
That should be apologizing.
Im the girl that will never call our fights a 'fight'
But instead a dispute...or disagreement.
Im the girl who is completely comfortable with you,
But then shy and hesitant when Im not.
Im the girl that LOVES IT when you look at me with love and passion in your eyes.
Im the girl that could keep this going forever,
But decides she should stop since her About Me is too long.
Im the girl that loves you with all her heart, soul, and
life. (Koko also emphasizes this point - And it's especially pointed towards him who I love and always will)


What's it all about?

Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have, or how many people call you.
Or how unaccepted or accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend, or if you're alone.
It isn't about who you're daring, who you used to date, how may people you've dated, or if you haven't been with anyone at all.
It isn't about who you have kissed.
It is not about sex.
It isn't about who your family is, or how much money they have.
Or what kind of car you drive.
Or where you are sent to school.
It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are. Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, or what kind of music you listen yo.
It's not about i your hair is blond, red, clack, brown, or green.
Or if your skin is too light or too dark.
Not about what grades you get, how smart you are, how smart everybody else think you are, or how smart standardized tests say you are. Or if this teacher likes you, or if this guy or girl likes you. Or what clubs you're in, or how good you are at "you" sport.
It's not about representing your whole being on a peice of paper and seeing who will "accept the written you."
LIFE JUST ISN'T


But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about who you make happy or unhappy purposefully.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about friendship, used as a sanctity or a weapon. It's about what you say and mean, maybe hurtful, maybe heartening.
About starting rumors and contributing to petty gossip.
It's about what judgment you pass and why. And you our judgments are spread to.
It's about who you've ignored with full control and intention.
It's about jealousy, fear, ignorance, and revenge.
It's about carrying inner hate and love, letting it grow, and spreading it.
But most of all, it's about using your life to touch or poison other people's hearts in such a way that could never occurred alone.
Only you choose the way those hears are affected--and those choices are what life's all about.

I got that from a friend from a group but they don't know who actually wrote it. I really liked it and decided to post it on my page.

...Have You Ever...
[ ] Smoked a cigarette
[ ] Drank so much you threw up
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Seen someone die
[X] Been to Canada
[X] Been to Florida
[ ] Been to Mexico
[X] Been on a plane
[X] Been lost
[X] Been on the opposite side of the country
[X] Gone to Washington , DC
[X] Swam in the ocean
[ ] Felt like dying....
[X] Cried yourself to sleep
[X] Played cops and robbers
[X] Recently colored with crayons
[X] Sang karaoke badly
[ ]paid for a meal with only coins
[X] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[X] Made prank phone calls
[ ]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[X] Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
[X] Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
[X] Danced in the rain
[X] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[ ]Been kissed under the mistletoe
[ ]Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[X] Blown bubbles
[ ] Made a bonfire on the beach
[ ] Crashed a party
[X] Gone roller-skating
[X] Iceskating

[X] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[ ] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person someone cheated on )
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've been molested and/or raped repeatdly by sumone i knew

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] have kissed a stranger.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I am gay
[ ] I am lez
[ ] I am bi
[ ] Gone to jail
[ ] Been picked up by the cops
[ ] Own a gun
[X] Love someone
[ ] Hate someone
[ ] Love and hate someone
[X]Think someone loves you
[X] Think someone hates you
[ ] Works out
[ ] Has a tattoo
[ ] Is a goth
[ ] Is emo
[ ] Has ever been in boot camp
[ ] Ever been to juvy
[ ] Cusses regulary
[X] Loves life
[ ] Hates life
[ ] Wants to die
[X] Wants to live
[ ] Has ever cut
[ ] Is a drama king/queen
[X] Doesn't care what people think
[ ] Cares what people think
[X] Has more than one friend
[X] Has a best friend
[X] Is a goody-goody
[ ] Has gone out with a girl/guy for over a month
[X] Believes in one gf one bf relationships
[X] Has someone to talk to
[X] Thinks your smart

Honesty/Crime

[X] I am a terrible liar.
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[X] I've run a red light/stop sign.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted


Drugs/Alcohol

[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm
[ ] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.


Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone i no has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.


Random

[ ] I can sing well.
[X] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[X]I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair
[ ] i have x's in my screen name
[X] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[X] I bake well.
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I am in love with love. (with the thought of love)
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I bite my nails
[X] I play video games
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[X] My answers are totally honest

Repost this on your page and put X's in the boxes that apply to you and _ that don't

i Got an A In Life

[X] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend. (sorta)
[X] You have your own room.
[ ] You own a cell phone.
[X] You have a mp3 player or ipod.
[X] Your parents are still married.
[X] You love your family.
[ ] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 5

[X] You dress the way you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[X] You have never been beaten up
[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[X] Your room is big enough for you
[X] People don't use you for something you have.
[X] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L: 6

[ ] You have over 500 friends on facebook
[X] You have pictures on facebook
[X] Your parents let you have a facebook
[ ] You get allowance
[X] You collect something normal.
[X] You look forward to going to college
[X] You don't wish you were someone else.
[X] You play a sport.
[X] You want to do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 7

[ ] You own a car/truck.
[X] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[X] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life
[X] You have friends.
[X] You never got a detention
T O T A L: 4

[X] You know what is going on in the world.
[X] You are happy with your life.
[X] You usually aren't sick.
[X] You know more than one language.
[X] You have a screen name.
[X] You own a pet.
[X] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[X] You don't have any enemies.
T O T A L: 8

Total over all: 30

Multiply by 3=90%

101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69%: D
00-59%: F
Repost as "i got a _ in life"


What I want to be: Musical Therapist
What college I want to go to: Brigham Young University in Provo Utah

Musical Instruments:
1. Piano
2. Flute
3. Vibraphone/Marimba
4. Cymbals
5. Bass Drums (All)

Height: 5'4" or 5'5" (not sure)
Weight: 125 lbs.

What I love to do:
1. Play music (on piano especially)
2. Read
3. Marching Band

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Please don't criticize me for it. I've got better things to hear than that... If you'd like to find out more, you can feel free to message me or go to www.mormon.org. or just read this!

Mormons
You most likely know one. Whether you're aware of it or not.

Our real name is The Church of JESUS CHRISTof Latter Day Saints. Which means we're Christian

Sometimes we go by LDS.

Mormon is a nickname given us because we believe in the Book of Mormon. We usually go by Mormon cuz that's how people know us...

We don't drink.

We don't smoke.

We don't drink coffee... and if you see one of us doing that, slap them and say "NO!"

Joseph Smith was the first LDS prophet. Brigham Young was the second.

BYU is a mormon college...There are 3 of them - one in Utah, Idaho, and Hawaii. BYU stands for Brigham Young University.

We don't have sex before marriage.

We have more fun playing chutes and ladders than spin the bottle.

Not all of us have been Mormon our whole lives...

The high school-aged youth go to a seminary (like sunday school) class each morning before school.

Our church session is 3 hours long and we love it.

The mormon missionaries are the two coolest guys ever. Be nice to them ;P

It's true. We make the best green jello salad and casseroles you've ever tasted.

We think mormon jokes are funny.

We don't date till we're sixteen.

We know that groups dates are more fun anyway.

We know that the most fun dates - don't cost money.

We give talks in church in front of 150-300 people. how's that for public speaking?

We are stubborn as heck. We don't give in to peer pressure.

We have refreshments at almost ANY meeting.

We celebrate holidays by throwing either a BBque or a dinner.

We love to sing and dance.

If you go to a youth dance, you WILL see conga lines, break dancing, square or line dances and swing dancing.

You will also participate in either the Chicken dance, or the Hokey Pokey ;P

Almost every mormon girl can play the piano.

We don't watch R-rated movies.

We dress modestly. Skirts/shorts to the knee, shirts with sleeves, one-piece bathing suits... that type of thing. These standards are never supposed to be relaxed... EVEN FOR PROM.

We CAN use technology.

We CAN eat fast-food.

We DON'T practice polygamy.

If we ask you to go to an activity, it's NOT a conspiracy thing where we're trying to convert you. It means we have fun and we want to share that with you. Likely the church won't even really be mentioned while you're there.

If we ask you to go to church, it's because we care enough about you to want to share with you what we know and the blessings we've received.

If we give you a Book of Mormon, we're giving you the most precious gift we have. It may not have the same meaning to you at first. That book has changed lives for the better and when we see you going through hard times, we want to help. This is the best way we know of helping you. So don't be offended. Even if you don't want it, know that we care about you THAT much.

If you turn us down, it's ok.

If you think we're pushing you, tell us to knock it off! We'll stop.

If you ask us what we believe, only for the sake of arguing, we won't tell you. It's pointless to engage on that when you're not going to open your mind and listen.

Asking you to go to church, an activity, or giving you a Book of Mormon is incredibly hard. It's like a guy asking out his crush. Some of us are more comfortable in doing that than others. It's hard. So if we do it, be NICE!

We don't care what you wear, what you look like, as long as you come! We're happy to see you!

We'll live on pizza.

We know what it's like to push a handcart.

We have all sorts of useless skills and know a bunch of stupid games.

We do genealogy. It's pretty darn cool when you find out you're related to someone famous...or that you're royalty.

Your parents will let you go just about anywhere, as long as one of us goes with you.

Mothers LOVE mormon girls as babysitters.

PG movies ROCK!

We don't all love the Lion King.

The guy who owns the Marriot Hotels is Mormon.

Steve Martin is NOT mormon just because he did Cheaper by the Dozen.

We DO tend to have big families. The more the merrier.

The boys go on two-year missions when they turn 19. And no, they don't get to choose where they go.

RM stands for returned missionary. They make the best boyfriends and husbands, and every mormon girl wants one ^_^

Contrary to poplular belief, the majority of us would rather live in Antarctica than Utah

If you see anyone on TV (not on the BYU channel) under the age of fifty talking about mormons, they're probably lying.

It's nearly impossible to offend us - even if you do it on purpose.

We don't use bad language and we hate hearing it from others. But if you slip up, it's not a big deal. We still love you.

People like, respect and even admire us, but are rarely interested in hearing what we believe.

Donnie and Marie? Mormons.

The Bat Commander? Mormon.

Steve Young? Mormon

Gladys Knight? Mormon

We're not perfect. No one is. We make mistakes. We slip. Try not to judge us by one person who is struggling.

If you have any questions about any of this, go ahead! Message me! I don't mind!
Thank you!