Crazi Beautyful• Show poetry

The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up.( marilyn monroe)

Rather be dead than cool. ( kurt cobain )

vandelism is as beautiful as a rock in a cops face. ( kurt cobain )

The worse crime is faking it .( kurt cobain )


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I stopped talking when I was six years old
I didn't want anything more to do with the outside world
I was happy being quiet
But of course they wouldn't leave me alone
My parents tried every trick in the book
From speech therapists to child psychologists
They even tried bribery
I could have anything, as long as I said it out loud

Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it
Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it

Of course this episode didn't last forever
I'd made my point and it was time to move on
To peel away the next layer of deceit
And see what new surprises lay in store
My school report said I showed no interest
'A disruptive influence' I felt sorry for them in a way
And when they finally expelled me
It didn't mean a thing

Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it
Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it

("At that time she stopped what she was doing, she stopped playing...
she stared, she had the facial grimicing...
and then the psychiatrist was saying, "Julie, Julie, can you hear me?
Can you open your eyes? Can you stick out your tongue?"
And all of a sudden, Julie struck out"

The November when I came home the Christmas decorations were already up
Spray on snow, coloured flashing lights
And an artificial tree that played Silent Night
Over and over again
My parents welcomed me with loving arms
But within an hour were back at each others throats
Normal, happy childhood back on course
Batteries not included

Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it
Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it
Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it
Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it





*A n g e r Section*
Do you have a quick temper?: ......me?....never.
What do you do when you're mad?: turn on really loud screaming music, or really depressing music and cut.
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: cut

If you can take back time, would you have never done this?: nah
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah

Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: not really. lol
Do you curse when you're mad?: bunny YEAH!

*Cr y i n g Section.*
When was the last time you really cried your heart out?: December 8, 2004
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yeah, a lot
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: no.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yeah

Do you cry when you get an injury?: yeah...
Do certain songs make you cry? ohh yes..
Can you make yourself cry?: uhm..kinda, yeah.

*P a i n Section.
*What's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: dealing with all ofmy cousin's bunny..keeping it all a secret, and having to watch her throw everything away.

What's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: cut my wrist 13 times

What's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: stabbed danny in the hand with a pencil...it was a complete accident though. lol
Ever had a painful break up?: yeah...
What about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: mhmm.
How depressed can you get?: to the point where i refuse to get out of bed.
Do you inflict pain on yourself?: mhmm.
*
H a p p y Section.*
Are you normally a happy person?: most of the time when i feel comfortable with the people i'm with.

What can make you happy?: music.

Do you wish you were happier?: sometimes.

Is being happy overrated?: definitley
*A n g e r Section*
Do you have a quick temper?: ......me?....never.
What do you do when you're mad?: turn on really loud screaming music, or really depressing music and cut.
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: cut

If you can take back time, would you have never done this?: nah
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah

Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: not really. lol
Do you curse when you're mad?: bunny YEAH!

*Cr y i n g Section.*
When was the last time you really cried your heart out?: December 8, 2004
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yeah, a lot
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: no.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yeah

Do you cry when you get an injury?: yeah...
Do an you get?: to the point where i refuse to get out of bed.
Do you inflict pcertain songs make you cry? ohh yes..
Can you make yourself cry?: uhm..kinda, yeah.

*P a i n Section.
*What's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: dealing with all ofmy cousin's bunny..keeping it all a secret, and having to watch her throw everything away.

What's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: cut my wrist 13 times

What's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: stabbed danny in the hand with a pencil...it was a complete accident though. lol
Ever had a painful break up?: yeah...
What about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: mhmm.
How depressed cain on yourself?: mhmm.
*
H a p p y Section.*
Are you normally a happy person?: most of the time when i feel comfortable with the people i'm with.

What can make you happy?: music.

Do you wish you were happier?: sometimes.

Is being happy overrated?: definitley
What about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: it depends who i am with. if it's a lot of people, i usually get left out a lot.
Can music make you happy?: HELL YES


*L o v e Section.*
How many times have you had your heart broken?: twice
Do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: yeah**
Did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no, thank god.
Ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yeah

Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: every guy i run into now says that....it's CRAZY.
Ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no

*H a t e Section.*
Who do you actually hate?: CASSIE...

Ever made a hit list?: lol.................................
Have you ever been on a hit list?: dunno, don't care. i can beat their bunny. lol
Are you a mean bully?: nope

Do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: noDo you hate George Bush?: i don't know him. therefore, i have no reason to hate him.S e l f - e s t e e m Section.*Is your self-esteem extremely low?: it's lower than low.Do you believe in yourself?: uh..noWhen people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: yeahAre you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: That would be me!!! Ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: mhmmAre you happy with who you are?: noDo you wish you can be someone else?: all the time
What about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: it depends who i am with. if it's a lot of people, i usually get left out a lot.
Can music make you happy?: HELL YES


*L o v e Section.*
How many times have you had your heart broken?: twice
Do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: yeah**
Did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no, thank god.
Ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yeah

Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: every guy i run into now says that....it's CRAZY.
Ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no

*H a t e Section.*
Who do you actually hate?: CASSIE...

Ever made a hit list?: lol.................................
Have you ever been on a hit list?: dunno, don't care. i can beat their bunny. lol
Are you a mean bully?: nope

Do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: noDo you hate George Bush?: i don't know him. therefore, i have no reason to hate him.S e l f - e s t e e m Section.*Is your self-esteem extremely low?: it's lower than low.Do you believe in yourself?: uh..noWhen people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: yeahAre you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: That would be me!!! Ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: mhmmAre you happy with who you are?: noDo you wish you can be someone else?: all the time