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My poetry is my way of dealing and coping with life...instead of doin drugs or getting laid...i write...well i try to. it doens't always do it for me. i try not to put anything on here unless i think its decent and worth your time reading. Only stuff that I beleive ppl can relate to comes on here. I'm not looking for pity with my poems...i just hope that it can help others to cope with life...

I don't mean to sound pessimistic. Pessimism is something that I am trying to overcome. Self-pity is another. I have met amazing people who face hardships far greater than my own and still pull through with a smile on their face and a heart of giving and selflessness to those around them. Even when their own situation gives them every reason to shut out the world and moan and gripe over their own problems. One of these people, who is an example to me, and helps me through a lot of my tough times, is on my favorites list. I wont say who it is, for her sake. But she amazes me day in and day out and I love her dearly for her friendship and her inspiring and motivational influence in my life. It's people like her who make me want to be a better person and help inspire my work.

ConnArtist

PS: feel free to email me anytime at ConnArtist22@sisna.com


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 This is part of a comment that i posted in reply to someones comments on one of my poems, This Presents Not A Gift...but it contains some of the things that really explain depression and stuff...and i dont think my friend is the only one who needs to read that.



...i wish i could help you with your life...but i geuss thats why i write...so atleast others can relate ya know? i write to cope...but then i post it so others can cope. but in a way i wish i hadn't posted this...just cuz its not healthy to dwell on teh past. its passed and aint never comin back ya know? so we gotta make do...and live up what we got. i learned something when i was workin with my therapist...he said, "you do a good depression." and asked "what would you loose if you gave up depression?" i geuss i'd be given up attention...and that comfort and enjoyment of doin it...its kinda fun to be depressed...that only backs up "Grave Comfort" because its nice to be depressed...its easy...and we dont really like not being depressed...we figured we're not relaly gunna be happy cuz life blows...so we might as well bum around and get attention adn stuff...its not a cognitive thought process...but it is a subconscious thought process...I am an actor...and he said...if i gave you a role...a happy lil goody goody...and you had to play it for the next 48 hrs on no food or sleep...could you do it? i said i could...cuz i could...i'm an actor...i can act....and he never actually challenged me to it...but i kinda challenged myself ya know? so i did...right then adn there...literally right when that thoguht went through my head...i felt free...like wait that was kinda flopped onto my shoulders, back adn chest...had just lifted...i mean it sounds cliche...btu thats literally what it felt like...andi couldn't stop smiling...cuz i realized...life isn't as bad as we make it out to be. we're not as sick, depressed, angry, irritable, or miserable as we make ourselves out to be. why do we do it when we know we're gunna be miserable? cuz its fun...its fun! same reason we sin...its not gunna bring happiness..."wickedness never was happiness" and yet we still like to do it. its fun! think about your life...your mindset...see if you can play another character...cuz i bet you that if you try...you will...and you'll begin to take on characteristics of that character...and you'll begin to smile a lil more...and life will begin to seem a lil lighter...not quite so miserable...when ppl ask how u'r doin..."i'm alright...or i'm good" will just kinda pop outa u'r mouth and you'll thnk about it and realize...life is pretty good. even with the hardships taht we go through...life is still good. think abuot it...and remember it



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I did not put my work on this site to be praised. I just write what I feel. But i know that it is not perfect. Infact, it is far from that. If you can please help me to be a better writer and poet and better express myself. Please critique my peices with brutal honesty. That doens't mean pull out every horrible thing, well do that but also tell me what I  am doing well so I know what to capitalize on. I really don't know a whole lot about writing and poetry. I just write to write...and I hope it helps those in similar situations. But please...please don't try and pity me and build up my peices to make me feel good. Just give me an honest critique of your feelings and of the peice from a literal perspective too. Thank you and I hope you enjoy.

ConnArtist