About Me:
[Duhhhhh!]
I am a very complicated person. Well maybe not.. but I do confuse myself and others. &&& I'm very manipulative (apparently) I can make anyone do pretty much anything. No sense in lying about it. But I'm trying. I have a hard time opening up to others. It just don't work for me. People will disappoint you. BUT you all know that s'ok.
I AM A MUTHA FREAKIN LESBIAN
&&& I'M PROUD [:
Upon meeting me you will probably think I'm shy and/or stuck up. Which is not true. I just think that the more people talk the less they really have to say. I'm comfortable with silence. Get me in a car && there's no way you can get me to talk unless I want to. Driving makes me really calm & mellow. I think ALOT. I practically live in my head. But that's okay. Because like I said,I am comfortable with myself. I'm a good person. I have good intentions. But I do have boundary issues. Apparently. Hmm let's see..bad things.. bipolar..instigator..stubborn..boundary issues- we went over that.. hmm la di da okay so I'm not exactly perfect but what fun is that anyways? I like challenges. And I think everyone makes mistakes & get way in over their heads & can't exactly show who they really are at the drop of a hat & it takes time to really know people so you can't judge & if you do then what does that really say for you huh? Not a lot. [btw, I DO like run ons, fyi]
ANYWAYS...
I think there is good in every person & I try to find it, no matter what the circumstances. I am not very forgiving though. I want to be. I just haven't figured out how. So don't intentionally try to fuck with me please, because I don't want to be upset with you & you probably don't want me to be either. But yeah, I'm a pretty awesome person face to face. I'll try to make you like me. I just am flawed. Like everyone else
The people that make up my life:
Ashley, my girlfriend
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/l_87164a865e1df9d9efe12d7948bd0ab8.jpg
Natalie and Josh, my brother and baby girl
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/zix5mbo.jpg
Landin's finally here. Look how beautiful he is
Nat's little brother:
http://i295.photobucket.com/albums/mm124/faceyourtruth/Natalie%20and%20Landin/1212537229.jpg
Lyric, my rat baby
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/playing5.jpg
Sailor, the new baby
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/DSCN2255.jpg
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+I know I talk alot of shit and say exactly how I feel.. because I can actually think for myself. And EVERYONE needs to be like that. You may think self-esteem advice shouldn't come from someone who wears a full face of makeup, but you'd be wrong. I don't wear makeup and dress up because I HATE myself. I'm not trying to hide anything, because I let my insides show through. Every fucking day. I'm a strong believer in self-love. And I dont mean acting like a bitch and pretending your the best thing on earth, because no one is. But being confident get's you alot further then second guessing yourself and wishing you were someone else....
Has anyone ever called you ugly? I've been called every name you could think of. But I love it, because by being myself I'm opening up other people's closed minds. Because no one's opinions matter but YOUR OWN. If I cared what anyone thought of me, I wouldn't have gotten this far with my career at such a young age. Sadly, there isn't a pill you can swallow that makes you feel beautiful. Nothing's that easy. But when you really think about it.. nothing anyone says to you means anything. Because if YOU know who you are, then thats ok. Whether you're gay, bi, straight, anorexic, overweight, believe in something different.. it DOESNT matter if someone doesn't agree.
+Jeffree Star
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[ash, i love you]
Support love .
Marriage is a human right , not a heterosexual privilege.
[Duhhhhh!]
I am a very complicated person. Well maybe not.. but I do confuse myself and others. &&& I'm very manipulative (apparently) I can make anyone do pretty much anything. No sense in lying about it. But I'm trying. I have a hard time opening up to others. It just don't work for me. People will disappoint you. BUT you all know that s'ok.
I AM A MUTHA FREAKIN LESBIAN
&&& I'M PROUD [:
Upon meeting me you will probably think I'm shy and/or stuck up. Which is not true. I just think that the more people talk the less they really have to say. I'm comfortable with silence. Get me in a car && there's no way you can get me to talk unless I want to. Driving makes me really calm & mellow. I think ALOT. I practically live in my head. But that's okay. Because like I said,I am comfortable with myself. I'm a good person. I have good intentions. But I do have boundary issues. Apparently. Hmm let's see..bad things.. bipolar..instigator..stubborn..boundary issues- we went over that.. hmm la di da okay so I'm not exactly perfect but what fun is that anyways? I like challenges. And I think everyone makes mistakes & get way in over their heads & can't exactly show who they really are at the drop of a hat & it takes time to really know people so you can't judge & if you do then what does that really say for you huh? Not a lot. [btw, I DO like run ons, fyi]
ANYWAYS...
I think there is good in every person & I try to find it, no matter what the circumstances. I am not very forgiving though. I want to be. I just haven't figured out how. So don't intentionally try to fuck with me please, because I don't want to be upset with you & you probably don't want me to be either. But yeah, I'm a pretty awesome person face to face. I'll try to make you like me. I just am flawed. Like everyone else
The people that make up my life:
Ashley, my girlfriend
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/l_87164a865e1df9d9efe12d7948bd0ab8.jpg
Natalie and Josh, my brother and baby girl
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/zix5mbo.jpg
Landin's finally here. Look how beautiful he is
Nat's little brother:http://i295.photobucket.com/albums/mm124/faceyourtruth/Natalie%20and%20Landin/1212537229.jpg
Lyric, my rat baby
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/playing5.jpg
Sailor, the new baby
http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h250/flapow/DSCN2255.jpg
''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''
+I know I talk alot of shit and say exactly how I feel.. because I can actually think for myself. And EVERYONE needs to be like that. You may think self-esteem advice shouldn't come from someone who wears a full face of makeup, but you'd be wrong. I don't wear makeup and dress up because I HATE myself. I'm not trying to hide anything, because I let my insides show through. Every fucking day. I'm a strong believer in self-love. And I dont mean acting like a bitch and pretending your the best thing on earth, because no one is. But being confident get's you alot further then second guessing yourself and wishing you were someone else....
Has anyone ever called you ugly? I've been called every name you could think of. But I love it, because by being myself I'm opening up other people's closed minds. Because no one's opinions matter but YOUR OWN. If I cared what anyone thought of me, I wouldn't have gotten this far with my career at such a young age. Sadly, there isn't a pill you can swallow that makes you feel beautiful. Nothing's that easy. But when you really think about it.. nothing anyone says to you means anything. Because if YOU know who you are, then thats ok. Whether you're gay, bi, straight, anorexic, overweight, believe in something different.. it DOESNT matter if someone doesn't agree.
+Jeffree Star
----------------------------------------------------------
[ash, i love you]
Support love .
Marriage is a human right , not a heterosexual privilege.
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- I am a 17 year old girl from Oklahoma (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm taking care of the brats.
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A New Light on March 7I seen that this girl had CJ name on her site so I told her everything that happened. I'll send the messages to you.
I'm at my house now. Where are you? -
A New Light : Kaila! on March 7Who's Mason? Is that Josh's friend? Well his journal is on your table and pretty sure that's a weird little boy. Have you seen the pictures in that? :S
Anyways, you need to answer your phone or get online. You're probably going to be mad at me but I couldn't help it. Love ya, babe. -
Hidden Girl : Stupid AP and life in general. on January 6Ack. For some reason it didn't pick up your messages until I clicked on today and went to my messages page by mistake. (You're the only one on here I now contact).
So....... (apologies for the lateness) Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!! (yes I know their stupid commercial festivals and my festive spirit was holidaying in Australia but still... eesh.. I sound all .. aaah.)
Life goes on. Dad is out... (and that is not going well).. erm the older guy broke my little heart... a guy I should have gone out with (but didn't because I was still too in love with the older guy who broke my heart) ran away and now I miss him heaps
and a 29 year old asked me to marry them yesterday (lol)...
But anyways... I wanted to say hi and errrr and grovel again because we never chat anymore... and you probably don't like me much anymore... I sort of stopped talking to everyone last year... resolution for 2008 - talk to some of the great people I knew again... which includes you I hope - if you'll still have me as a friend?
anyways, hope you're well and to hear from you soon
Philippa x x x
