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I have dealt with so much pain in my life. Most of it with my own ignorance of trusting people, and them scarring me for life and then walking away. I guess being friendly and "nice" doesnt get you an ything but hurt in this life. So fuck it. I just dont care anymore. Yeah Im married. I dont know why. But I am. First, I am a mother. To 4 wonderful kids, 3 boys and my baby girl. And that takes up my life. I have no real friends. My husband acts as if Im non existant. So I shrug, and push the pain down in my heart with the rest, and move on for my kids. I worry, because one day all this pain ive shove elsewhere, its gotta go somewhere. Its going to explode someday, But, as usual, I will be alone and pick up the pieces again and keep moving foward. I guess this is what we call life. Welcome to my Hell.
RIP My brother, Whom I lost July 4th 2007. He was is and will always be the absolute only person on this great earth who knew me inside and out, every wrong right bad or good thing ive done. When I was down he held me up, when he was down i did the same for him. We screwed up together, we made a difference to gether. we survived together, We made a life for our kids together. This man is the CLOSEST MAN to have ever and will only ever know my heart that deep. He hit ROCK bottom with me, and drug me back to the top. Weve seen each other at our worst and came to our best together. Losing him was is and always will be the most tragic changing part of my life, the only thing that could be worse would be losing one of my sisters or my children. This is just so you know the imapct this has had on my life and will continue to have for the rest of my life. I LOVE YOU CRAIG ALLEN ATKINSON!!!!! 36 was TOO young to leave me here.....


  We are living aRT ,
created to hang on ,
stand up , forbear , continue ,
and encourage others.

Maya Angelou

So, Hi, I am Emily, Ive been around here for quite awhile, know some really great people. Ive been through A LOT in my life, Ive lost the closest people to me in life, but I have to go on for my kids. I have a daughter who is1, Her name is Landry. My sons are Preston 5, Gavin, 4 Austen 3. I love my family. Ive been off and on here. But I always check, I have lost my my muse lol. So I dont write anymore.

To my dearest family, some things Id like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven, Here I dwell with god above.
Here, theres no more tears of sadness; here it is just eternal
love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged and he said " I welcome you"

Its good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
Theres so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the days chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you..in the middle ofthe night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve th pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you know, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and Id like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night...."My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented...that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when its time for you to go...from that body to be free..
Remember you're not going...your coming home to me.

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  • XxLuckyxX : Hey on July 18
    Just wanted to stop by and say hi and let you know I still care about you. Always will.
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    Thanx Em...I am glad you liked it...I lost alot of my inspiration to write...but I am slowly gettin it back
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