im 18 years old i stay in california im one of those strange people everybody stares at the ceiling when bored..most of my life i just stayed and my corner,cut and wrote poetry...im 18 years old and my life is still going no where, im still unsatisfyed i admit i do cut but hey who hasnt or hasnt even thought about it? i hate my life to the fullest if i had a choice either to live or to die i would choose to die.. whats the point where all gonna die anyways...i listen to death,hardcore metal and the cure to calm me down a bit, i have a very goth heart and my whole life i've lived in the darkness, i release negative energy through my poetry... hoping someone out there will understand what im going through...my life is so out of control that i doubt anyone will even want to try to help me or be my friend, ehh the friends i have dont even understand me ...sad i know but hey its life...usually im shy about my poetry.. but if i have comments ill know im not that much alone anymore.i have a boyfriend i love to death and he helps me through this hell i call life, he's the reason im still living now
- Last seen on Oct 28 4:00 AM 2007. Member since January 31, 2007.
- I'm a peridot parrot poet for 44 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "to wish impossible things".
- I am a 18 year old woman (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm going crazy dealing with stupid people.
- Visit my homepage at myspace.com/pinkyboo33
- I am in the groups cutters and bleeders
- I have 44 comments, 24 poems
Poems I'm focused on
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Why must you let me down so much? is there something wrong with me where you cannot keep our secret trust?
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why must i shed these tears i cry every night / why cant i just be normal like everyone else i know / why must i scream and put up this fight / as everyones happinest continues to grow / covered in a slump of mudd
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as i stay with this depression by myside / i will always be alone / i long for no-one to come near / i cant stand their love / their touch / every whisper they try to make / why bother? /
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I am a girl with these broken dreams / i am that stupid girl, that would give anything to be happy like before / i am a depressed girl who waits for that person i know i'll never have / i am someone who just wants to be10 lines, 2 comments, May 14, 2007. In depression, sad
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tired of the lies, / the heart-ace, / and the pain... / will you ever realize what your doing to me? / i stand in front of you crying! / pr27 lines, 2 comments, May 14, 2007. In depression, sad
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as my days get lonely so do my nights i learn to hold on, with all of my might. i learn to be afraid everythings going to be okay..
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did i ever tell you how much i love you / i love the sound in your voice / the love in your heart / every little thing you do for me / did i ever tell you how much you mean to me / you mean the world14 lines, 2 comments, May 7, 2007. In love
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As i sit day by day / and watch my life drift away. / you are the reason / that is keeping me alive today. / I would've ended it already26 lines, 1 comment, May 3, 2007. In love
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tonight i shall cry / and shead all of my tears / for you are the only one / i will hold onto so dear / no-one else matters / but you and I / but my decisions are stupid / and they always make me cry / for yo21 lines, 3 comments, April 26, 2007
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As you and me floated to the very high / we stayed outside and kissed the sky together / to wish impossible things / and as i watched those pictures of you / i realized that / i have nothing left to lose / we w16 lines, 2 comments, April 26, 2007. In love
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im scared / scared of being worthless / scared of being alone / scared of never being able to love again / hopeless of finding help / scare
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I am a women thats been lost through the pain, the shame and now has no more gain.. / for i seek new wonders beyond these closed doors. / i25 lines, 2 comments, April 26, 2007
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how can you tell when a day is not your day?
friends avoid you, you feel alone, people dont even want to look at you?10 lines, April 18, 2007 -
24 lines, 2 comments, March 30, 2007. In hate
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i sit and i scream inside my head as i reach for my razor to end it all..34 lines, 2 comments, March 15, 2007. In anger
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shatteredFaith on May 31, 2007hey sexy! did i tell u that i like you? and your poetry rocks majorly!!!
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risewiththesmoke on May 30, 2007cool username... i love that book xD
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Xcallostxbleederx on May 15, 2007hi love...im sorry for my sudden emo swings these past few days. this one wasn't as bad as the last time my depression made me cry. today it was short but sometimes it lasts for weeks.
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The Squeeze on March 22, 2007Mmm charlotte been looking for you since forever
. Your poetry is like a delicious candid apple, sweet and to the core 
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Me wants it all haha!
Arty
