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[4Oct09]
I wishI could write again.....
ADD ME ON MYSPACE!!!:::: kittenKHAOS_


I'm starting over:
The UnForTunAte Basics Of Me

My name is Miranda. I live in Wisconsin.


Bethany: "Were they sent to Hell?" Metatron: "Worse. Wisconsin. For the entire span of human history." [Dogma]


Is there much to say about me? No, there isn't. I'm your typical teenage female. Struggling to find her place in the world. I eat, I drink, I toke up, I purge, I skip meals in order to obtain desired skinniness that the media has thrust upon society as it always does, I cut, I fight, I sleep, I fall in love. If people have issues with what I do, you can either tell me or keep it to yourselves. I do what I do to find how I truly feel inside. If I want to drag a razor into my arm or if I wish to shove a finger or two down my throat, let me. I'll learn my lesson down the road. I'm getting annoyed with people pulling me into corners to tell me that I need to stop cutting myself.

I don't find myself pretty or skinny in the least bit. I find myself completely opposite of those things. Don't be surprised if I argue back and disagree when you claim that I'm "sexy" or "pretty" or "so skinny".

I get obsessive over things. It changes a lot. But I will always love anime. Despite the fact that I am not as into it as I was when I was in 7th grade, I will always defend it and I enjoy reading manga.


The MenTal DysFunCtionS of Me FTW
Oh, yes. I have mental illnesses. I do do a lot of self-diagnosing. Professionally, I have been diagnosed with severe depression (I got a dangerously high score on the test I had to take that diagnosed me. I forgot the score though) and social anxiety. That means, I hate talking to people. Especially in real life and on the telephone. So, if you happen to know me in real life and I don't talk to you, it means I'm afraid, not because I hate you. (It's a common misconception that I hate people because I don't talk to them.)

I have self-diagnosed myself with Borderline Personality Disorder and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder. I could have either or, I have the symptoms of both.

I have my highs and lows. I am manic and I am depressive. I can push you away or cling to you. Its unpredictable and can change as quickly as someone can snap their fingers.

As much as people will tell me I'm being an "attention-whore" for saying it, but yes, I do cut. Everyone knows it. I do not do it for attention. People do not know when the last time I did it was. They will not know when I will next either. It's my own business and the people who tell me to quit are the ones who need to learn what an addiction feels like.

I once had someone tell me cutting is the stupidest thing I could ever do and that he'll be upset if I die because of it. This same person is out of my life forever because I pushed him out of it.
Don't tell me what to do and how to live my life.


For The PeoPle Who MaKe My LiFe WorTh LivIng
Haley: We've known each other for almost 9 years now, though it must seem like a life time. We've fought and been there for each other. There's been too much drama between us. We've been bitches to each other far too often. I wish we were as close as we were before. But I guess it's hard to change what's already happen. Nonetheless, I love you, Haley even though were drifting apart.

Angel: Oh, dear. Nearly 4 years with you. =P You're the best, though. You made me smile when I was depressed. Though I know it's just a mask, your happiness is contagious. I love your artwork. I wish you hadn't moved, but I know you enjoy your life in Madtown now. I miss you a lot. I know you disapprove of some of the things I do and I'm sorry about them. Don't change, Tenchan.

Alex: What more to say? We have our ups and downs. We fight constantly over my drug use and cutting. I truly am sorry. But moving away from that. You're the best. You're funny, entertaining, and you're intelligent. You're the only person I can watch gory horror movies with and laugh psychotically without being called insane because you're laughing too hard to make that comment.






Add me on MySpace: http://www.myspace.com/psychoticgeek



My Theme:
"Milk of Regret"© OTEP

Was I just your surrogate?
Was I your revenge?
Was I just your surrogate?
Was I just revenge?
I... have... no regrets... yet
And I... have... no regrets...


You wish we never took this ride...
You make me do this
You make me do this
You make me
I wish I was afraid of suicide,
Long ago before I died
We should never be this high
I wish I was afraid of suicide


Once was I... made of glass,
Long ago, before I cracked...
Once was I... made of glass,
Long ago... before I cracked...
YOU MADE ME DO THIS


I just can't forget
The blood,
The stitches,
The bite marks,
The kisses,
The glass memories reflecting back
The suffocating black,
Ill milk of regret
Just smile and pretend,
We never mattered anyway
Smile and pretend,
We never mattered anyway


You wish we never took this..


I'm starving,
I'm starving...
I'm starving for affection
Your heart is made of ash
And you were just a face to me,
A sacrificial lamb
Rejection, Revenge
Deception, Dimense
I might be going down in flames,


But you will burn with me
You wish we never took this ride


I just can't forget
The blood,
The stitches,
The bite marks,
The kisses,
The glass memories reflecting back
The suffocating black,
Ill milk of regret
Just smile and pretend,
We never mattered anyway


..no one will know


This is the perfect place
To hide the crime and burn the remains...
This is the perfect place
To hide the crime and burn the remains...


I was so naive
I refused to feed
Waiting for you to notice me
I was so naive
I refused to feed
Waiting for you...


LIKE A LOVESICK ANOREXIC


I just can't forget
The love you twisted
The lies you enlisted
The killers quietly beat me down
I hope you drown in this shit milk of regret
I WON'T FUCKING FORGET


I hope you drown while you're world is burning down
I hope you drown while you're world is burning down


...the whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning down



My Musical Muses
(AKA, My Favorite Bands)


..10 Years
..12 Stones
..12012
..1800 Zombies
...3!Oh3
..3 Doors Down
..30 Seconds to Mars
..32 Leaves
..36 Crazyfists
..A Perfect Circle
..Abington Boys School
..Acid Black Cherry
..Adema
..All That Remains
..All Time Low
..Amy Can Fly
..Another Animal
..Another Black Day
..Antic Cafe
..Apocalyptica
..As I Lay Dying
..Ashes Divide
..Atreyu
..Attack Attack
..Avenged Sevenfold
..Bayside
..Blaqk Audio
..Blessthefall
..Blood on the Dance Floor
..Boom Boom Satellites
..Breaking Benjamin
..Brokencyde
..Buck-Tick
..Bullet for My Valentine
..Burden of a Day
..Celldweller
..Chemical Vocation
..Chevelle
..Chiodos
..Coheed and Cambria
..Course of Nature
..Cradle of Filth
..Crossfade
..Curve
..Cute is What We Aim For
..D'espairs Ray
..Daughtry
..Deepfield
..Default
..Destroy the Runner
..Dir en Grey
..Dope
..Dot Dot Curve
..Drop Dead Gorgeous
..Drowning Pool
..Egypt Central
..EkoTren
..Emarosa
..Emilie Autumn
..Escape the Fate
..Evanescence
..Everytime I Die
..Eyes Set to Kill
..Fall Out Boy
..Five Finger Death Punch
..FLOW
..Flyleaf
..Foo Fighters
..Forever The Sickest Kids
..Framing Hanley
..From First to Last
..Funeral For a Friend
..Gackt
..Girugamesh
..Handshakes and Highfives
..Hawthorne Heights
..Hit the Lights
..Hollywood Undead
..Hoobastank
..Hourcast
..Hyde
..I Set My Friends on Fire
..In Featr and Faith
..In Flames
..J Bigga
..Jayreck
..Janne da Arc
..Jinkaku Radio
..Kill Hannah
..Killswitch Engage
..Kittie
..Kinki Kids
..Kotani Kinya
..L'Arc-en-Ciel
..Lacuna Coil
..Lareine
..Linkin Park
..LM.C
..Lostprophets
..Luna Sea
..Marilyn Manson
..Mindless Self Indulgence
..Miyavi
..Moi Dix Mois
..Mudvayne
..Nickelback
..Opiate for the Masses
..Orgy
..Our Last Night
..Owl City
..Panic at the Disco
..Parkway Drive
..Paramore
..Plumb
..P.O.D
..Psycho le Cemu
..Psychostick
..Ra
..Red
..Rev Theory
..Revis
..Roadrunner United
..Round Table feat. Nino
..Royal Bliss
..Safetysuit
..Saliva
..Saosin
..Saving Abel
..Say Anthing
..Scene Kidz
..Sever Your Ties
..Shiny Toy Guns
..Sick Puppies
..Silverstein
..Skillet
..Slipknot
..Smile Empty Soul
..Snapkracklepop
..Spineshank
..SR-71
..Story of the Year
..Subscene
..Superbus
..T.M Revolution
..Taproot
..The Academy Is...
..The Almost
..The Audition
..The Autumn Offering
..The Birthday Masscre
..The Brilliant Green
..The Fall of Troy
..The Knife
..The Medic Droid
..The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
..The Spill Canvas
..The Used
..Three Days Grace
..Thrice
..Through the Eyes of the Dead
..Tokio Hotel
..Tool
..Trapt
..Underoath
..Van Atta High
..We the Kings








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  • RainbowNinjaEmpress on November 11
    I do indeed love your display name so deliciously wicked heh heh
  • PinkeyPromise on October 8
    nace page. u seem like a cool girl. luv ur name btw

    ~destiny
  • EdenAnarchy on May 5
    *tags* found you on anime forums- whats up?
  • VierSinneNur on April 15
    Just have to say...pretty much love half the bands you mentioned. Especially Miyavi and AnCafe. Yeah, awesome. XD

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