Poetry. Music. Leave me alone. That's what i say. Poetry and music are the only things i live for, so i might as well live for the moment. Right? Right.
Basically, I'm 13 years old and I was clinically depressed since i was 8. I know why. It's both situational and clinical depression, and basically, a very long story. I would go on to explain my situation, but instead, I'll explain my depression. How I feel.
If you could see me, You'd see hopelessness in my eyes, that scarred my soul inside.. If you would touch my wrists, I would cringe and withdraw my hand in pain. If you would get to know me, you would see why I am this way. Why it's my only way to cope... Self injury. A scary, and melochonic word to most people. To me, it's a way to not only show your emotional pain, but relese the blood that carries it. Let the blood that flows through you and lets you feel emotion.. Out.
I've attempted suicide, yes.. But never with much sucess. If you read this, I want you to know that it's not the awnser. After I attempted it, I had a huge gash and needed stitches. There's other solutions to pain that seems to be an eternity, and they're hard to find.. But they're there. If you can look inside your heart, you'll find a way to overcome it. I still cut, but suicidal thoughts come much less often. My way of coping with emotional pain? I try to forget. I go out with friends, I watch tv, Anything at the moment that distracts me. And yes, another outlet is poetry. Just find what works for you and nothing else. I know how hard it is, when nothing is right. When no one cares, if you would just be found dead in a puddle of blood sprawled out on the ground somewhere. Or blue from all the pills you swallowed. Just trust me, there's more ways that you can remember that your presence on the earth is worth keeping. If not for you, think of who WOULD miss you when you're gone. For me, the thing that kept me alive was my best friend. Find someone, Anyone, who cares. I guarantee that life will seem more worth it... If you need ANYONE to talk to, E-mail me....
Now. Some of the bands I listen to. Brace yourself, it's a long list.
Hawthorne Heights
My Chemical Romance
Thrice
Three Days Grace
30 Seconds To Mars
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Atreyu
Poisonblack
ICP
Present Day Nightmare
Bullet For My Valentine
Alesana
Apocalyptica
Escape The Fate
Story Of The Year
Secondhand Sernade
Papa Roach
Greenday
Taking Back Sunday
Him
Evergrey
Dreaming Of Eden
Flyleaf
Water Wings
UnderOath
Paramore
Linkin Park
Sevendust
Greeley Estates
Skillet
Angels & Airwaves
Fall Out Boy
The Undeserving
Fireflight
Avenged Sevenfold
Chevelle
Panic! At The Disco
Red
Bleed The Dream
Breaking Benjamin
Silverstein
Better Luck Next Time
Versus The World
Blue Skies Burning
Matchbook Romance
Rise Against
Led Zeppelin
Saosin
A Dying Light
Good Charlotte
Falling Up
In Flames
Senses Fail
The Starting Line
Madina Lake
Yellowcard
Metro Station
Trust Company
A Day To Remember
Anberlin
Hollywood Undead
Simple Plan
Sick Puppies
System Of A Down
Demon Hunter
Staind
All American Rejects
Break The Silence
Killswitch Engage
The Frey
Sentanced
Disarmonia Mundi
The Offspring
Eyes Set To Kill
Unearth
From First To Last
In This Moment
3oh3
All Time Low
Boys Like Girls
Adema
Eminem
Hinder
Kid Rock
Rob Zombie
Motley Crüe
Incubus
Trapt
...
Believe it or not, there's more. That's just the main ones. Music is my life, I'll never give it up. Without music.. Wouldn't life be so dull? I can't live without it. It's part of the thing that kept me alive at one point.
Basically, I'm 13 years old and I was clinically depressed since i was 8. I know why. It's both situational and clinical depression, and basically, a very long story. I would go on to explain my situation, but instead, I'll explain my depression. How I feel.
If you could see me, You'd see hopelessness in my eyes, that scarred my soul inside.. If you would touch my wrists, I would cringe and withdraw my hand in pain. If you would get to know me, you would see why I am this way. Why it's my only way to cope... Self injury. A scary, and melochonic word to most people. To me, it's a way to not only show your emotional pain, but relese the blood that carries it. Let the blood that flows through you and lets you feel emotion.. Out.
I've attempted suicide, yes.. But never with much sucess. If you read this, I want you to know that it's not the awnser. After I attempted it, I had a huge gash and needed stitches. There's other solutions to pain that seems to be an eternity, and they're hard to find.. But they're there. If you can look inside your heart, you'll find a way to overcome it. I still cut, but suicidal thoughts come much less often. My way of coping with emotional pain? I try to forget. I go out with friends, I watch tv, Anything at the moment that distracts me. And yes, another outlet is poetry. Just find what works for you and nothing else. I know how hard it is, when nothing is right. When no one cares, if you would just be found dead in a puddle of blood sprawled out on the ground somewhere. Or blue from all the pills you swallowed. Just trust me, there's more ways that you can remember that your presence on the earth is worth keeping. If not for you, think of who WOULD miss you when you're gone. For me, the thing that kept me alive was my best friend. Find someone, Anyone, who cares. I guarantee that life will seem more worth it... If you need ANYONE to talk to, E-mail me....
Now. Some of the bands I listen to. Brace yourself, it's a long list.
Hawthorne Heights
My Chemical Romance
Thrice
Three Days Grace
30 Seconds To Mars
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Atreyu
Poisonblack
ICP
Present Day Nightmare
Bullet For My Valentine
Alesana
Apocalyptica
Escape The Fate
Story Of The Year
Secondhand Sernade
Papa Roach
Greenday
Taking Back Sunday
Him
Evergrey
Dreaming Of Eden
Flyleaf
Water Wings
UnderOath
Paramore
Linkin Park
Sevendust
Greeley Estates
Skillet
Angels & Airwaves
Fall Out Boy
The Undeserving
Fireflight
Avenged Sevenfold
Chevelle
Panic! At The Disco
Red
Bleed The Dream
Breaking Benjamin
Silverstein
Better Luck Next Time
Versus The World
Blue Skies Burning
Matchbook Romance
Rise Against
Led Zeppelin
Saosin
A Dying Light
Good Charlotte
Falling Up
In Flames
Senses Fail
The Starting Line
Madina Lake
Yellowcard
Metro Station
Trust Company
A Day To Remember
Anberlin
Hollywood Undead
Simple Plan
Sick Puppies
System Of A Down
Demon Hunter
Staind
All American Rejects
Break The Silence
Killswitch Engage
The Frey
Sentanced
Disarmonia Mundi
The Offspring
Eyes Set To Kill
Unearth
From First To Last
In This Moment
3oh3
All Time Low
Boys Like Girls
Adema
Eminem
Hinder
Kid Rock
Rob Zombie
Motley Crüe
Incubus
Trapt
...
Believe it or not, there's more. That's just the main ones. Music is my life, I'll never give it up. Without music.. Wouldn't life be so dull? I can't live without it. It's part of the thing that kept me alive at one point.
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plumbdamaged on July 17thanks so much for the honorable mention
id LOVE to know when that next contest is -
sophia moonfairy on July 14May you please let me know when you run your next contest?
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Bleeding On Paper on July 9Hello there,
Seeing this profile I read everything on it, and I know how it is to be that one in pain and want to help everyone else, I know it's hard to show everyone else is worth something when you don't think you yourself are. (Although you seem to have figured out you ARE, that feeling goes away sometimes I know) So if you ever want to talk message me or whatever you wish.
Or we can just chat about your amazing taste in music +D Either way you seem like a fun conversation.
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TearsYouBleed on June 26GREAT playlist, man! Couldn't choose better songs, myself! Well... That's not true... I'd take out the songs from ETF's "new" album and put every single one from their first on there. I'm sorry, but I just don't like Craig. Ronnie Radke is the ONLY lead singer for Escape the Fate, in my book...
Anyway, I enjoyed looking at your page!
Keep your chin up,
♥Lixx
