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My AP family: ScarletStainedTears: My sis! She is amazing and I love her to death. She has been through a lot so don't mess with her. She is really easy to get along with and she has a beautiful personality. I can't say how much I love her cause there aren't enough words. *tons of hugs* Stay beautiful!

Elaine: I love her so much! She is so beautiful and strong. She listens when you need to spill your guts and shes loyal and always there for me. Love you ****

I'm an ex-cutter so if you ever need to talk, message me, i'll listen and i'll care.

&& she may seem so perfect but behind it all..shes just an accident waiting to happen

this is where the hurting starts & the nightmare begins.

the girl who always looks sad but claims she’s fine.
the girl who puts sad away messages up everyday.
the girl who when she sees you, smiles a half a smile.
the girl who always has time to listen to you vent and is willing to give her opinion to help you in anyway that she can.
the girl who cares about helping everyone but herself.
the girl who cries every night before she goes to sleep.
the girl who pretends that she’s okay while she's dying inside.
the girl who says she’s happy for you when you get a new girlfriend while jealousy is raging inside her.
the girl who hugs you when you’re down but secretly wishes she could hug you forever.
the girl who tries to look beautiful even though she knows she’s not.
the girl who says that she’ll always be there for you & means it.
that’s me that is the story of my life

You should know by now that when I smile and say "yeah, I'm fine" it's really code for "no I'm not okay and I feel like my world is crashing down around me"

& yet she still sits there smiling;;
regardless of all the fake friends.
&& the dreams that were broken.
regardless of the guys she loved
and the hearts that were broken.

I know how it feels
to sit on the edge of your bed
head in your hands
wishing it would all just end...

grave digger, when you dig my grave.. will you make it shallow, so that i can feel the rain

Not even make up could make her
beautiful... Because real beauty
comes from loving yourself and
that's something she can never do

I dream of giving birth to a child who will ask "Mommy, What was war?"

she's just the typical teenage girl..
angry, insecure, confused.
i'd tell her that things will be okay..
but i don't want to [ lie ] to her
see, when her away message says not to IM her because she’s sad or depressed, the only thing she wants at that moment is for you to IM her

ALL SHE WANTS TO BE iS BEAUTiFUL..
she`s gorgeous. she`s beautiful. she stares in the mirror
and hates what she sees. she spends hours in the morning
fixing her hair, putting on make-up, && still hating her
reflection. she exercises five hours a day, starves herself
skinny, makes herself throw up at night. she goes in
depression. starts cutting herself. she spends thousands to
go under the knife to change the beauty she already had.
she`s beautiful. anyone can see it; except her. why can`t
she just learn to love herself instead of putting herself
through all this agony? she`s never good enough for
herself. doesn`t see what the point of her living is. life
is hopeless for her. she gets an overdose && feels the
rush of death.
.. ANOTHER WASTED LiFE.
The girl who seemed unbreakable--broke
The girl who seemed so strong--crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off--cried
&& the girl who would never stop trying--Finally gave up

Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now I feel like I'm facing everything by myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile.

I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I'm just I'm tired of being tired.

The cracks in the concrete remind that no matter how strong you are, you will always fall apart at some point in your life.

The sky isn't always blue. The sun doesn't always shine. So it's okay to fall apart sometimes.
Snapshots of priceless moments cover her walls. She thinks back to a time where she didn't have to
fake a smile ...it just graced her face so naturally. Back then, life was so worth living. Now she thinks its more worth not to. Why pretend to love? Why pretend to laugh? Why pretend to live?...she's dead inside...

she wakes back up and knows she has to face reality

These Days
everyone is depressed;
No one cares about your personality anymore.
There are few songs with out cuss words.
You bring up the Lord && people look at you weird.
You stand up for someone && get called a bad name &
the type of clothing you wear describes you.
How much money you have gives you your popularity.
Everyone breaks each others hearts && doesn’t think much of it
you can become so lonely.. And no one would notice

IT'S FUNNY -- how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. IT'S FUNNY -- how good memories can start to make you cry. IT'S FUNNY -- how forever never seems to really last. IT'S FUNNY -- how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past. IT'S FUNNY -- how friends can just leave you when you’re down. IT'S FUNNY -- how when you need someone, they're never around. IT'S FUNNY -- how people change and think they're so much better. IT'S FUNNY -- how many lies can be packed in one “love letter". IT'S FUNNY -- how people can forgive even though they can't forget. IT'S FUNNY -- how one night can contain so much regret. IT'S FUNNY -- how ironic life turns out to be. But the funniest part of all... None of that seems funny to me.

She could shut out the whole world including herself

I can’t stand it when people ask me what’s wrong....cause in life...something is ALWAYS wrong. It’s like there's no need to ask anymore. But somehow...my friends just keep on asking. I guess that is a sign that they really do care about me...it just doesn't seem like it right now.

Do you think its easy being me? Do you think its easy putting on the act that I do everyday? I smile when all I want to do is cry... I laugh when all I want to do is die.. I want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night when I am laying in bed with tears in my eyes, pleading with god to help me. I want to let everyone know what it is like to be me, pretending to be happy... pretending to like myself, If it was up to me, I wouldn't be pretending, I would actually be happy... Too bad its not.

Sometimes I feel like nobody has held me down and forced me to cry, or made me hug them, or seen the inside of me. I just say "Oh I'm fine" and walk away. Nobody's ever said to me "No, you're not”
When you asked me what was wrong I said “nothing”……. After you left I whispered everything.

If you look inside a girls heart, you'd see how much she really cries. You'll find secrets hidden, best friends and lies, but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothings right and everything is wrong.

This isn't a perfect world, people get hurt. You smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay when you're falling apart, but you got to let go and move on...because there's nothing else you can do.

Just because I can force a smile doesn’t mean I'm happy, and just because I can fake a laugh doesn’t mean I'm okay

A strong girl keeps her shit in line, and with tears running down her face, she still manages to whisper the simple words "I'm Fine."

I wear what I WANT, I say what I WANT, and I am who I AM. You don't like it?
I DON'T CARE.

What do you do when you become too scared?
Too scared to live
Too scared to die
Too scared to love
Too scared to even care

Bleeding is feeling for me.


The only thing worse than being hated....
Is being ignored. To hate, you have to care.

I fake all the smiles-It stops all the questions.

Hope is the vision and the vision is real.



she strikes a pose && she dies inside
nobody knows shes such a beautiful suicide

We scream our insecurities, but mutter our apologies. And that's why this world will always be so wrong.

When you feel like giving up, Just remember why you held on for so long

she was much too pretty and much too depressed. he saw the beauty and overlooked the mess



It was cold.
Your hands were shaking,
& I stepped in front of you
just to wrap my arms around you
as I said, "Lets pretend winter isnt here."
As you buried your head in my shoulder, you said,
"Lets pretend the snow is the only thing falling fast."

Tear me off a piece of blanket. Keep me warm and
we can make it. Here's my heart I'll let you break it.
Touched your skin and I can't take it

do you ever just wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance
wake up in the emergency room
and hear the doctors say she isn`t going to make it
just so you could find out who really care's about you

your lips, they pout and twist
and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you

i wanted to tell her how beautiful she was
but i just stared
i sat behind the wheel and watched the raindrops
and i know i dont deserve this
the capacity to feel

and her heart is still on the floor in pieces
and all she feels is pain
&& she doesnt know why, but she still loves life
she loves living and laughing and flirting and smiling
and crying because sometimes it even feels good to feel pain,
because at least you're feeling something
she loves her friends and defending them in tough times
and loves fighting with her enemies
just everything about living
and she’ll never know why

&& her heart is screaming
GiRL JUST GiVE iT UP
but she promises herself
that she wont

&& she thinks
no one will care
about her, as long
as the only thing
shes bleeding is
mascara...

yeah.
they talk about her.
she smiles like shes so tough
she says inside
"hey can you talk a little louder?
i dont think my heart is broken enough."

&& the worst thing about being lied to is knowing you're not worth the truth

you're such a beautiful disaster
but the scene is breathtaking

there`s a song blaring in her
headphones, it reminds her
of a boy who used to care

So she painted on a smile, and learned how to pretend

i like dead end signs
i think they're kind,
they at least have the
decency to let you know
you're going nowhere

Lonely boy died today.
Hanging from a rope.
Pretty girl died today.
Overdose on dope.
Jock boy died today.
murder for a trend.
Tragic girl died today.
because of lack of friends

They say
"Guns don't kill people, people kill people."
Well i think the guns certainly help.
If you stood there and yelled, "BANG!",
I don't think you'd kill too many people...

Her eyes like shadows
dark and grey
Her lips like razors
without words to say
Her hands are cold
Not lively, nor warm
The heart she once had
now broken and torn

pretty little girl with long dark hair;
no one knows her secrets,
No one seems to care.

i want you to remember the feel of my hair .
and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear.
remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be.
remember the way that you used to love me.

&& tonight she’s blasting her sad love songs
while crying herself to sleep because of him

Now I know you're not my fairytale
&& dreams are meant for sleeping

her tounge has all the BITE marks from all the things she NEVER said.


you say hello. inside im screaming i love you. you say goodnight.
in my mind im sleeping next to you. you drive away from my car crash of a heart

and he comes back to her, after all this time
and he asks her if she still loves him
and she bites her lip, holds back tears
and whispers to him that now, hes just another boy to her
and he turns around and walks away forever


"Just because she comes off strong doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying.
Even though she acts like nothings wrong, maybe, just maybe she's good at lying."


I'm gonna draw a picture, a picture with a twist....
I'll draw it with a razor blade.
I'll draw it on my wrist.

Hurting and being in pain are two very different things.

Bleeding and hurting is what i do, it's what i'm good at.

As beautiful as these memories are-they're evil when they're gone.

Why do we like to hurt so much?

It's okay to cry, but you need to let it go.

Sometimes when we hang on, what we really need is to let go.

Depression-A fancy way of saying "i'm dying inside."

Do you think I care what you think?
I try not to care but sometimes....
Life cuts deep and I can't let go
of what you say.

I want to die.....but i want a reason to live.

Longing for a different kind of pain-Cutting

Memories good or bad will make you cry.

"All the little pieces falling, shatter. Shards of me too sharp to put back together.
Too small to matter. But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces."

"I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears."

I've been alone all along.

How can i feel so empty? Like i've got nothing left.
Maybe because it's true.

You're living a lie-just give it up and drop the mask.

TWLOHA

Maybe if i pretend not to care, it won't hurt anymore.

It's not suicide....if you're already dying.

It's not suicide that hurts.....It's life.

I respect your opinion, I just think it's stupid.

Am i that unimportant, am i so insignificant?

Smile, it's easier that explaining why you're sad.

Evanescence-Breathe it

Your eyes can be so cruel, just as I can be so cruel.

It's only forever, not long at all.

Don't tell me truth hurts little girl, cause it hurts like hell-David Bowie

ι'м иσт ∂єρяєѕѕє∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт αℓωαуѕ ѕα∂.
ι'м иσт ¢яуιиg ----- му єуєѕ αяє נυѕт fυℓℓ σf тєαяѕ.
ι’м иσт ℓινιиg ----- ι נυѕт кєєρ вяєαтнιиg.
ι'м иσт ѕтυρι∂ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т gєт ιт.
ι’м иσт тяуιиg ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у gινєи υρ.
ι'м иσт ωєιя∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт ∂ιffєяєит.
ι'м иσт α яєвєℓ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє σя∂єяѕ.
ι'м иσт α вєℓιєνєя ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у ℓσѕт нσρє.
ι'м иσт α fυ¢к υρ ----- ι נυѕт мαкє мιѕтαкєѕ.
ι'м иσт ємσтισиαℓ ----- ι נυѕт нανє α ℓσт σf fєєℓιиgѕ.
ι'м иσт α ¢υттєя ----- ι נυѕт fσυи∂ α ωαу тσ gєт яι∂ σf ραιи.
ι'м иσт ℓαυgнιиg ----- ι иєє∂ тσ ѕмιℓє fιяѕт
ι'м иσт ρєяfє¢т ----- ι ∂σи’т ωαит тσ вє.
ι'м иσт ιgиσяιиg ----- ι נυѕт ¢нσσѕє иσт тσ ℓιѕтєи.
ι'м иσт α gσѕѕιρ ----- ι нανє му σωи ℓιfє.
ι'м иσт ιмραтιєит ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т ℓιкє тσ ωαιт.
ι'м иσт тσυgн ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє ѕнιт.
ι'м иσт σριиισиαтє∂ ----- ι נυѕт νσι¢є ωнαт ι тнιик.
ι'м иσт qυєѕтισиιиg ----- ι נυѕт нανє му ∂συвтѕ.
ι'м иσт нι∂ιиg ----- ι נυѕт ωαит тσ ∂ιѕαρρєαя.
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I'm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~F ucked up~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I nsecure~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~N eurotic~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~E motional~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~See im just F.I.N.E.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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You Say Pink
I Say Black
You Say Paris Hilton
I say Amy Lee
You Say Zac Efron
I Say Gerard Way
You Say Pop
I Say Rock
You Say Im Weird
I Say Im Different
(put this on your profile if you agree)
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Keven.....breaks my heart but I can't help but love him. I guess being a masochist is my job.