Bound-In-20-Chains• Show poetry

Hey, I'm 17 years old, born in Japan. Um, when I was little I had bright/dark blue eyes and allegedly, I was rather enamored with my big "sister" and really looked up to her. In the past, I've had some really hard feelings for her and anger... I suppose some could say it was deserved, but I'm no longer sure if it was... She was so proud of me and apparently would never let me sleep cause she always wanted to be doing something with me and would frequently crawl in the bed with me and hug me, nearly squeezing me to death. lol She really could've used me for support a few years ago, but I was to busy seeing her flaws and never seeing her for who she was... There are times I've felt like I was gonna die and no one would be there or care and I would die alone and I was really scared, tormented by the darkness, but my "sister" felt the same and I couldn't even see it, even though it was right in front of me...

I used to sleep with my arms above my head allot and I guess I still do. Best position there is, about. lol Apparently I used to always work and work to get my pacifier, if it was sitting somewhere, until I finally got it. And anytime a big group of people were around me and staring at me or something, I'd start crying and be really scared, but big groups of people themselves didn't bother me.

I'm not the greatest Christian, or person, for that matter. I've had some rough spots and bumps, who hasn't, and I'm sure there are manny more to come. I'm not sure if I would want you to expect anything from me or not... If it's just as a writer I still don't know... If it's as a person or friend... I don't know how I could ever make you proud or do the right thing, or not fail you, for that matter... I guess I tend to give up on myself before I've even begun or tried.

I like music, art, sports, science, cars, computers, psychology, writing, math, um, lots of stuff, I guess.

 

 

Favorite Quote From A Biography:

 

"Although Sabbath has long been plagued by cries of 'Devil Worshipers' and 'Satanists', the devil had nothing to do with the choice of the name, regardless of how dark and satanic the name sounded. This point is strengthened by the following incident: As the band began to make news a group of satanists asked them to play at their "Night of Satan" at Stonehenge. They flatly refused, for which they were later informed by the head witch, Alec Sanders, that the group had placed a hex on the band members. Ozzy apparently asked his father to make them up some aluminum crosses, and they wore them 24 hours a day for protection, seeming to take the threat seriously." - http://www.veinotte.com/ozzy/bio2.htm

 

" "Reporter: "Do you have a drinking problem?" Ozzy: "Yes, I can't find a bar." "

 

 

~Should I stop breathing because I know I might breath poison?~

 

~I trust more in what I can't see than in what I can see with my eyes, because what I see with my eyes is nothing but retold lies.~

 

 

Forsaken Betrayal

 

 

You were supposed to love me and care,

You said you would never leave me there,

But you dropped me behind,

Abused me and used me,

I guess you were all just one of a kind.

 

I'll never forget what you did to me,

You lied to everyone and now I see,

Your policy was simple,

I'll be your friend but I wanna see your end,

And when you smiled, it was only pretend.

 

They all promised and they all ran,

They left me behind to fight a demon back where it all began,

I was always screaming why,

And I never understood how they could say they were good,

Because they left me forsaken, alone to die.

 

 

 

 

"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand." --Randy Pausch

 

 

"But engineering isn't about perfect solutions; it's about doing the best you can with limited resources." -- Randy Pausch as well

 

 

"A sword can pierce the body, but a song can pierce the soul." - A Duel Masters card

 

 

"A duel match is like life; You never know what's gonna happen." - Shobu Kirifuda of Duel Masters

 

 

"You should've been there when we picked out our first couch." - Patrick Gates of National Treasure (2)

 

 

"Yes, I'm an evil person and I wanted to run my kitty over with a madd dog." lol It was a sarcastic joke...

 

 

"The healthy man does not torture others - generally it is the tortured who turn into torturers” -- Carl Gustav Jung

 

 

"o.o;;; I dono o.o;;; I might speculate, but I dono o.o;;"

 

 

"If you can dream it, find a way to make it happen."

 

 

"It is safer to have no knowledge at all, than a little used unwisely." -- somewhat unknown

 

 

"Just... Stop trying to fix things and just help." -- Kate Henessey of 8 Simple Rules

 

 

"I would rather be happy in a dark and vile place then miserable in a cracking, superficially perfect world filled with flowers and sunlight."

 

 

"...even worse than the pain of a breakup, is continuing a relationship that was not right for one or both of you." -- some internet page

 

 

"There's a difference between 'My house is burning!!!' while you're standing outside at your flagpole and 'My house is burning!!!' while you're trapped inside it."

 

 

"The only way to be the best is to have the best deck." -- Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's Duelist Pack Collection Beginner's Guide (page 19, paragraph 2)

"Peh. The best deck in the hands of a fool is a fool's deck. You either are the best or you aren't."

 

 

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http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/hedley/beentheredonethat.html

 

 

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/hedley/dearblank.html

 

 

It is you that I fight for,

It is you that I live and die for,

It is you that is my motivation every day

You are the one who hurt me, who scarred me

I love you still