Blue-Rose Beauty• Show poetry

                                          I am a Poet

Hello paper, alas we meet again. Nights of tears, days of jeers and many fears have brought me back here. Back to the start. The start of it all. I will quote myself for the last time: "with my pen I can wipe the smile right off your face. With my pen I can make you hide in disgrace. You can sense the bitterness, sense the hatred, sense the rage in the way I write. My pen can bite. Deep, where it gets you. I have the power to make you cry until no tears can come out. I've done it before, I'll do it again."

Keep penning they say, you sure? I want to scream.  I'm different than I seem. I'm different than you'd dream. Look at me in real life. See my eye lined eyes, my full lips, my curly hair, my imperfect body. Read my writing and you'll see inside, I'm a soul hottie. Innocently naughty. The opposite of yes is maybe, the opposite of me is you. I've been disappointed too many times than I can count. I've been wrong without even a doubt; yet I still seem to be alive. You could say I've had a hard life. It's subjective, there's been better, there's been worse, there's been days when I realize I'm still breathing and curse.

I've learned the rules of life but they always change. It's like a never ending hide and seek game. There are winners, there are losers, but why can't at least some of us get honorable mention. A hateful intervention? A righteous suspension? No such thing as unconditional love, I've learned there's always, always something you can do to test the vulnerable heart, make it bleed inside out.

777 times I will forgive but not once more. I've strained my boundaries for the last time. Keep the loopholes in mind. The guilty go free, the innocent are charged. How's that for motivation? It's like caramelized s---. It's like a rainbow made of black and white. It's like giving custody to the one who hit. It's like a never ending commercial site. When does the good part start? I've come back to you dear paper, not because I need you, not because I don't have a choice but because you're my unwashed security blanket. Now do your job.

- Jenny

           



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Hiya, I am Jenny. I am 14 years old and I am from the United States. I just write poetry in my free time. I'll just get a line in my head and once I get it down, I can elaborate on it. I like softball, volleyball, basketball, THE REDSKINS, writing, reading, listening to music, hanging out with my friends. My favorite music artists are Boys like Girls, We the Kings, The All American Rejects, Sarah Reeves, Casting Crowns, Avril Lavigne, Skye Sweetnam and Lily Allen, Flight of the Conchords. Hm, if you want to know more, message me. I collect ducks. I am a Christian.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7gbV7ZmmbM
(Favorite song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4a9O_jm8YA4

(Other favorite song) I'm missing someone and no, I'm not in love

Tenth Avenue North- Hold my heart 

How long must I pray, must I pray to You?

How long must I wait, must I wait for You?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.
I'm on my knees, Father will you turn to me?

One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breakin' heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart

I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye.
But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why.
Cuz I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees, Father will you run to me?

One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breakin' heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart.

So many questions without answers, Your promises remain
I can't sleep but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breakin' heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart.

I love that song. It speaks to me.

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

Why are you striving these days

Why are you trying to earn grace

Why are you crying Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough

To where will you go child

Tell me where will you run

To where will you run

And I'll be by your side Wherever you fall

In the dead of night Whenever you call

And please don't fight These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin

So I could carry you in

And give you life I want to give you life

And I'll be by your side Wherever you fall

In the dead of night Whenever you call

And please don't fight These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Cause I, I love you I want you to know

That I, I love you I'll never let you go

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