Betrayed? Yes I was over 7 years ago without cause. My flesh and blood, my child, hidden from me for over 7 years without seeing her once, hearing her voice a single time, speaking one solitary word to her while missing over 70% of her life. Think about that, that’s longer then most of your children have been alive. It is easy to say what is right and what is wrong, what the right thing to do is and is not, to forget that all that is important is that your child is returned to you when you have never had to face the choices and decisions that unmercifully come with such a nightmare. Imagine being in the shoes I have been forced to wear, multiply whatever you feel by the unimaginable and ask yourself this… what would you do if you were knee deep in the same circumstances to get your child back? I know the answer already… anything and everything. My future, me and Robyn’s, lies in the hands of one individual that has/is scrutinizing everything I do and have done. Secret life? No, a streamlined life that would encourage the belief that I have my daughter’s best interest at heart. I will soon be allowed to see my lost child (in the coming week), will have my rights protected, will continue to see her, and have the opportunity to reestablish a relationship snatched from us both and for this I make no apologies, have no regrets, and will utter not a single I’m sorry. Nothing I did was ever personal nor reflects anything upon anyone I did what I had to do… simple and turns out the right thing that brought about the only thing that truly mattered for a grieving parent. If you wish to take it personal I will assume you have no children or that you care more about your own feelings then a cruel and wrongful act being corrected. My daughter Monica was emailed and answered the question of my well being more then once and if one knew about me, as we all know, everyone did. I have had 2 people call me and leave a message, no letters in mail, no knocks on the door, maybe a half dozen emails, and about the same number of text messages. I have been loved, hated, persecuted, redeemed, and talked about both in truth and in lies and as you all know I avoided drama yet it always was around me I just couldn’t afford it any longer. I have went all over the country and visited 16 people here on AP, have invited and welcomed 8 more into my home, have spent and sent 1000’s of dollars to assist those in need, literally spent 1000’s of hours listening without prejudice and given all I had to offer asking for little if anything in return. It was time for me to look after my best interests and that meant creating the time to best accomplish what was needed. Erased? I erased my thoughts and musings because it was the right thing to do under the circumstance of being scrutinized I did not erase anyone for the sake of erasing. Karma? Mine has finally come a calling, a sweet tune indeed.
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Amunet Wolfbane on September 19, 2007Be well Michael and take care of you. We all have to do what is best for us in life. Sometime people don't understand and it hurts, but if you are well, do what you must. Blessings, Gypsy
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Naraku No Hana on September 19, 2007I really miss our conversations and a lot of people are so worried about you, but you leaving is your choice and I don't mind. As long as you keep safe, okay? I don't think people need to be so angry with you. I'm not. It would have been nice to know that you are okay but...meh, anyway, I guess this is goodbye until you feel you can talk again.
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luckynsincere : betrayed... on September 18, 2007The question here AP ask: why is this poet great? I could name a million reasons... I could recount numerous things and memories that we have shared... laughs and tears, all in between. There are no excuses here. I loved you. I truly did. We were friends. again, you so easily walk away with no word to let me know you are okay. I mean, no matter what you do and no matter how it was done, you know that I would have stood by you. Friends do not lie to one another. There is enough time in a day to let someone know your heart is still beating. Whether it is a short lil message, or a detailed email, there is always enough time. Even if you could have picked up the phone to spread the word you are okay and that you simply do not want to be a part of our lives. So, that leaves to the path we are at now. I am done. I longer wish to be a part of your lies, and will no longer stand to be made a fool of. If you chose to live this "secret" life, then so be it. I have been left with no choice but to walk away.
This is personal. You know how many people have been worried about you? Still you come and log on here and speak to none of these people that have been worried sick, and defending your name, and all that you meant to us.
I hope it is worth it. I really do. All of the collaborations? all of the dedications? So easy to remove I see, so perhaps I was easier to erase than I ever thought possible.
I wish you the best in life.
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poetryality : See you signed on and still no words from YOU! on September 18, 2007Have a good life Micahel. I'm moving on.
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