Sorry...I quit
- Last seen on Feb 15 8:33 AM 2008. Member since December 20, 2003.
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poetic--vomit : Hey, you. on February 20, 2008I know you don't really get on here much, but it appears to be the only way I can contact you. I really do miss talking to you. You never did get to tell me how your life has been since we last had a real conversation. I would love to be able to talk to you again. If there is an easier way, and you want to talk to me, let me know. I've missed how easy it was to talk to you. Even though we haven't been close in a long time, you have always been very important to me. You are one of very few people who will always be in my heart. As you can see, I still babble on like an idiot a lot. Anyway, I really hope I'll talk to you later.
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Chris... It's been a while since that last comment I wrote, and you still haven't read it. I emailed you too, at an email adress that I'm not sure you use anymore, but it is the last email address I remember you using. Chris, you may have given up on me, but I just cannot give up on you. I promise, I have grown up. I've stopped cutting, stopped fighting, stopped lying. I've got my life back together, and I can actually say, I love living right now. Everyday, at least 3 times a day, I check your author page, hoping that you have read that last comment I wrote you, hoping you would be willing to accept me ((I'm not begging you to love me as your girl anymore, just care about me as a FRIEND)) God, I just cannot give up Chris. You were all I lived for, all I loved, for almost 3 years of my life. I wish you would actually see this. I just hope that, on the off chance you do, you understand.
I always promised to love you forever.
And I do.
I love you, Chris.
Caitlyn -
Wow... it sure has been a while since we really talked, and I suppose it's a wasted effort to try to talk now... but I've been reading through comments I made here on your page, and poems you have written, and also ones I have written about you. You know, I told you quite often that I would always love you, Chris. When I met Tommy, I thought, "Maybe I can give up on Chris... He gave up on me, right?" And, since then, I was hoping to give you the impression that I had no other feelings towards you than a friend, even though it seems we aren't even friends anymore. I know you will probably never see this, you don't visit this site often at all. (( I know this because I check your page every time I'm on here.)) I just wanted to say that, though we have both moved on, whether it was for the best or not, I still love you, Chris. I always will, and I just wanted to you know that, if you had thought otherwise. I feel kind of weak and foolish for admiting that after all this time, and you will probably look over this and just laugh and go on with your life. I just had to say something.
I miss talking to you, you know? I don't know if you miss me at all, and I highly doubt you do. I'm sure you don't have room in your life - or your heart - for an exgirl who never treated you right anyway, but, sometime, I would like to at least talk to you. You don't know how often I contemplate just calling you to see how you are doing. I do care about you, I worry about you.
I'm sure I sound totally stupid basically begging for forgiveness and friendship. I will totally understand if you aren't willing to accept my apologies. Just let me know if you still care...
Maybe we can really be friends, since we never were even when we were together.
Well I will leave you alone now. And forever if you wish.
I'm probably going to regret saying anything because I have the feeling that you don't care. But I do, so I had to do something.
Again, you probably won't see this.
I'm sorry for wasting any of your time.
I still am willing to be here if ever you need to say ANYTHING to someone and you have no one.
Oh yeah, I was going to shut up, wasn't I?
Well then, later... I hope.
Caitlyn
Edited on Jul 16, 11:08 p.m. because 'uhh... messed up a bit'. -
rageheart on May 20, 2005hey Chris...i kno this is a little out of the blue, but i just wanted to see how things were going for you. we had a great freindship, and its been like four months since we talked. i think were both pretty stuborn people and i know our personalitys kinda colided but i dont think we should of let some "he said she said shit" fuck our friendship up.
i just kinda needed to say that for my self. just message me back or sumthin.
-Elliot
