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"Lie to me," she whispered.
"I love you," he said.

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill -
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will.
Five percent p l e a s u r e, fifty percent pain-
And a hundred percent reason to
                                                     remember
                                                                   the
                                                                     name.

Here's the truth about me.
soft spoken with a b r o k e n jaw

I swear I'd burn the city down just to show you the light...

They call her a
killer,
and they call her a
sinner,
and they call her a whore.

I've seen a rich man beg-
I've seen a good man sin-
I've seen a tough man cry.
I've seen a loser win-
And a sad man grin-
And I've heard an honest man lie.
I've seen the good side of bad,
And the downside of up,
And everything between.
I've licked the silver spoon-
Drank from the golden cup-
And s m o k e d the finest green.
I've stroked the daddies dimes-
                          [ at least a couple of times ]
before I broke their heart.
You know where it ends-
It usually depends on where you start.
[Then you really might know what it's like... ]

Untouchable, Unstoppable, Unreal.


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Ps.- Jesus was a zombie too.  You're in good company.

But the beat  goes on..
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Somebody call the cops -
It must be illegal to be this fucking
good.

everything's a little clearer in the light of day
and you know the night is always gonna be there anyway.

Sex on the beach, Zombie, 151, Hpnotiq. l o v e.


We'll raise high our white flags-
And say hi and shake hands.
Declaring the land we're on- Unamerican.
We'll call it even.

I am an accident waiting to happen-
My place may be taken, but Make no mistake.
From a little black black box I Can say without shame-
That you've lost.
Do you know what you've lost?

***

you don't want to hear about my good day?
you have better things to do than to hear me say
god its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i took out the trash today and i'm on fire...

so you don't want to hear about my good friends?
you dont have the guts to take the truth or consequence
success is in the eye of the beholder
and its looking even better over your cold shoulder

i'm not suggesting you up and line me up for questioning
but jesus think about the bridges you are burning
and i'm betting
that even though you knew it from the start
you'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart

so go ahead and talk about your bad day...
i want all the details of the pain and misery
that you are inflicting on the others
i consider them my sisters and i'd like their numbers

i picked up the pieces of my broken ego
i have finally made my peace as far as you and me go
& i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face.....

hey! its been a lovely day! everything is going my way
i had so much fun today and i'm on fire
god it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way
ever since you went away hey i'm on fire.....
i'm on fire...
i'm on fire...
so you dont want to hear about my good day?




pvpa '07                               we're taking over.

What you do on your own time is just fine-
My imagination's much worse-
I just never wanna know.

Morning calls for pain relief-
A line above the step beneath-
The worst that you could do.
And the best that you could hope for-
Is hardly the best.

Tepid water chase the pills-
With turpentine & chamomile-
And don't get cheap with the wine.
[You need to be up all of the time]

Shield your eyes-
Conceal your lies.
Don't blink, everyone's watching-
They'll think- you're up to something.
They need for you to be
Everything that they cannot-
Be themselves.

I'm careful not to wake you-
Fearing conversation
It's better just to hold you-
And keep you pacified.
I'm talented with reason-
I cover all the angles.
I can fail before I ever try.

Every pane of glass that you're pebbles tap- negates the pains I went through to avoid you.
And every little tap on the shoulder for attention fails to mention-
I still hate you.

There's a light on- in Chicago
and I know- I should be- home.

and i'm so sorry dear; i must escape before you suffocate me. so, i waited patiently as long as i could.

rent.

DIRTY DEEDS
done dirt cheap

How have you been- nice to see you again-
How quickly these conversations seem to end.
You meet a friend- every now and then-
How quickly these relations turn into trends.

Put all your walls up and open your windows-
[Close all your doors]
You catch yourself standing in front of the mirror-
And now you need more.

What do you wish for
To catch you as you're falling?

I wouldn't want to be you-
This lonely game that you play.
Between your walls you confuse-
Every heart that you break.
So afraid that you'll lose-
Always a void to replace.

Try and pretend, the truth is hard to bend-
How easy these translations can be read-
What if you were learn to play a different game instead?
How hard these frustrations are to mend?

Does it matter to you?

Just Wait


s i r   Doser signed on at 7:13:54 PM.
s i r   Doser:I hope you have a huge car because I'm going to place my bike in your trunk.

'When they knocked down the towers it kinda sucked, and when they fucked up my mail box it pissed me off, but fuck if they start poisoning my weed I'm fucking joining the army and kicking their fucking asses'

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind-
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time-
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial-
For what it's worth- it was worth all the while.


[Prove it]

What does it take to get through to you, precious?

Haishao Suikei: I was just thinking about you. Naked. With a box of cornflakes.
Haishao Suikei: Mind you, I was the naked one, you had the cornflakes, just to set that straight.

Does it matter to you?

so we bottled and shelved all our regrets and let them ferment and came back to our senses.

Just Wait

This place is a prison
And these people aren't your friends
Inhaling thrills through $20 bills
And the tumblers are drained and then flooded again
And again


Can you see?
The more you hurt-
The more you strain-
The price you pay to play the game.
What you pay to play the game.

In this time are we loving-
Or do we sit here wondering-
Why this world- isn’t turning around?
It’s now or never.


Esuohroom Asetrht Aronele
+
Reaydoog Eiram Rehteah


Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make
And some of the easiest habits are the hardest one's to break
And I'm not asking for value nor the pain but I am asking
For a way out of this lie

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe


What does it take to get through to you, precious?

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence

They were right about you.

Ignore the smoke.
Call an optimist, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you

This place is a prison
And these people aren't your friends
Inhaling thrills through $20 bills
And the tumblers are drained and then flooded again
And again


*I Know What You Do To Yourself-
\Because I Am The Same Way.\*

...did he allow his comrades to read that letter in which I said that capital punishment could not be justified in any society calling itself civilized? Socialism is not supposed to reproduce the stupidities of capitalism! Here in America, your prisons are crowded.  Who is in them? The poor.  Some of them have committed violent and terrible crimes.  Most of them are burglars, thieves, robbers, sellers of drugs.  They believe in free enterprise! They do what the capitalists do, but on a much smaller scale.  Rather than punishing individuals for their crimes, we should destroy the social conditions which engender crime.  Oh yes, a dictatorship of the proletariat.  Not a dictatorship of a party, of a central committee, not of one man.  No, we spoke of a dictatorship of the working class.  The mass of the people would take over the state and govern in the interests of all.  -Marx in Soho

Remorse is one hatred that we are allowed to detest...

A love with two different faces
A lover in two different places

Color me deep- Move me brightly.

-somehow-
The City Lights Shine Down,
And They Blind Me Sometimes
-because i'm-
Ecstatic as ever, yet not far from despair...
-because-
It Used To Be The Reason I Breathe
           ->Now Its Choking Me Up
-and somehow-
I envy your demise
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me


...and you can still see the scars from her trip to the stars...


YOU- how do you own the world? How do you own...disorder?

"By the time I was old enough to know what religion was, I was catholism numb and truly didnt give a FUCK"


MaCh1aV3lL1: I'm a tall fat brown haired... Stoner Hippie Gangster.

Ecstatic Despair: vote barb for lesbain advocate of the year
Ecstatic Despair: spread it on to your friends
Ecstatic Despair: "vote barb or die" campaign

I'm through with playing by the rules
of someone elses game

-It continues
Dear Die-ary-
Today I learned, that on the inside, I'm pretty fucking ugly. [Help me]

-and then he said-
YOU, HOW DO YOU OWN THE WORLD, HOW DO YOU OWN DISORDER?
-and I was no more-

AKwArd BeGinNinG: lol ... how can i call you if your in the shower? you phone would ring and you would pick up and start talking to me and soap would get in yout eye and turn red then every one would think you were stoned then you woulld have to drop the phone because your eye was in so much pain. so when you drop your phone it shatters into 1 million pecies and big sparks fly from the ground and your hair catches on fire then you are running around your house naked covered in soap with a red eye and your hai is on fire...

you want apologies
well, you might hold your breath
until your breathing stops f.o.r.e.v.e.r...
the only thing you'll get
is this curse on your lips:
i hope they taste of me forever


*\An empty hole that the world can't fill-
An empty childhood that just can't be still-
It's a - shadow upon the wall.
It's a - mirror, upon your fall. \*

Leave yourself open, you'll never get your say-
Slice it all open and it never goes away...

Vodka

The Stoli bottles frost melts to brilliance where I press my
fingers. Evidence. Proof Im here, drunk in your lamplit kitchen,
breathing up your rented air, no intention of leaving. Our lust
squats blunt as a brick on the table between us. We're low on
vocabulary. We're vodkaquiet. Vodkadeliquescent. Vodka doesnt
like theatrics: it walks into your midnight bedroom already
naked, slips in beside you, takes your shoulders in its icy hands
and shoves. Is that a burglar at the window? No, he lives with
me, actually. Well, let him in for Christs sake, lets actually get this
over with.


Does anybody feel the way I do? Is there anybody out there? Are you hearing me? If I believe in you will you you believe in me? Or am I alone, in this hall of dreams...

*"sometimes anger's subtle, stocked in metaphor
full of finesse and dressed in allure
yes, sometimes anger's subtle, less rage than sad
leaking slow through spigots you didn't know you had.
and sometimes it's just

fuck you.
fuck you.
you see, and to me,

That's poetry too."
-"Subtle Sisiter" Alix Olson*


...Best way to start a relationship that, being friends first. A lot of people skip that part and move on to the relationship, saying 'I love you' and stuff. That's when you know things aren't going to last. Those kinds of people are in love with the idea of being in love. Love at first sight you say? I'm not a complete believer in it. You can be in love with an image, but until you know the person then it can't be real love, meaningful love.
~Darianna

"I used to ride bikes alot.  But that all slipped away from me, the same way she did.  Man, sometimes I swear i've got butter fingers the way things just slip through them.  Family, friends, and love.  What, aren't I sticky enough for you people?!?!?!?!"
-don't ask lol

*MY MOM IS THE BEST! Check her out- she will amaze you!
www.allpoetry.com/poets/Avoicewithin*

"COPS is the best tv show ever, I dotn know there is just somehting about minorities getting arrsted that never gets old.  And they all do the same thing: 'I didnt do it' but sir your holding a bag of coke in your left hand a bag of weed in your right and and a gun in your pants 'this aint my shit go arrest him' your under arrest 'man you such a racist, you not even gonna let a brother run his business'


*\I promised myself I wouldn't be sad when you died.
I won't.
And i'm not. \*
\{[heres to the f.u.t.u.r.e. cause we made it  t h r o u g h the past]}\

*\the answers I'm looking for just can't be found here....\
And it still hurts and you know, that's not the sad part.  The sad part is _I can't remember why._*


                   JUNIOR OLYMPICS '04!!
All in all, it was an amazingly awsome trip.  


I scratch at
the wall I built
around my heart
and feel
your fingertips
pressing
against mine

digging
your way in
from
the other side
to pull me
safely
through
the gashes
I leave behind

~BMJ

*"I want this, Mam.  I want this so bad.  I want it, and somehow, I'll make sure I get it.  One day, I'll have it."
-Me talking to Master Nancy before my fight. *




                                               *I'm untouchable.*
                                                      *I'm unstoppable.*
                                                            *\I'm OUT OF CONTROL.\*


    Give me the dust of my fathers
    Stand on the face of the ancients
    Bare the secret flesh of time itself

    Follow me... I've come so far, I'm behind again
    Follow me... I Wish so hard, I'm there again
    Follow me...

    All that I wanted were things I had before
    All that I needed, I never needed more
    All of my questions are answers to my sins
    And all of my endings are waiting to begin

    I know the way, but I faulter
    I can't be afraid of my patience
    There's a sacred place Razel keeps safe

    Follow me... I've seen so much I'm blind again
    Follow me... I feel so bad I'm alive again
    Follow me...


Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything.

- Katherine Hepburn


Yea that's right, you know Im one of the kind.
I'm that crazy little bitch, who's outta her fuckin mind...

*I've Learned that*
Kisses, They- Dont always mean *Something*
Promises can easily be broken
just as quickly as they were made...
and Sometimes Goodbyes,
Really Are Forever

If I could,
I would shrink myself,
Sink through your skin,
To your blood cells..
Remove whatever makes you hurt,
But I am too weak to be your cure...


*\Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away*\


There's nothing ever wrong
But nothing's ever right
Such A Cruel Contradiction

*What is a physical body? The body is merely an object. It is an existence all too impure to store the gods within us called souls. Now you will remember. The blood stained history! Material desire. Hunger. Sexual drive. Desire to dominate. Desire for fame. As long as there is a body, desires will be born. As long as there is desire, human ego will not disappear. Humans will continue to fight to fulfill their bodies' desires, and it will never end. At this rate, there is no future! Now awaken your soul! Now be rid of that filthy body!

Welcome to scratch, the migrate to electronics movement.*
\-Jenna\


"Together we learned the true meaning
Of self-destruction, the lies sticking to my tongue
As a cold scourge grazed my hitherto unremarkable rib"
-Judas Denied


And I don't want the world to see me
*'Cause I don't think that they'd understand*
When everything's made to be broken
\I just want you to know who I am\
And _you can't fight the tears that ain't coming_
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah *you bleed just to know you're alive*


I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
That the dreams in which im dying
Are the best i've ever had
-Mad World

closing time time for you to go out to the places you will be from
closing time this room won't be open til your brothers or your sisters come
so gather up your jackets move it to the exits i hope you have found a friend
closing time every new beginning come from some other beginning's end
i know who i want to take me home...
-Closing Time


*Sometimes I feel so stupid
Sometimes I feel so low
Sometimes I think of all the things,
That I'll never know*
Sometimes I don't know what to do
But most motherfuckers don't have a clue

Here's the weight of the world on my shoulders
*Here's the weight of the world on my shoulders
On my shoulders
All alone I pierce the chain
And on and on the sting remains
And dieing eyes consume me now
The voice inside screams out loud*

I am focused on what I am after
The key to the next open chapter
Cause \I found a way to steal the sun from the sky\
Long live that day that I decided to fly from the inside

Every day \_a new deception_\
Pick your scene and take direction
And on and on I search to connect
But *I don't wear a mask and \I have no regrets\*

I am focused on what I am after
The key to the next open chapter

*I can't escape the pain
I can't control the rage
Sometimes I think that I'm gonna go insane*
I'm not against what's right
I'm not for what's wrong
I'm just making my way and I'm gone
-Shinedown


I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake,
If it means that you'll always be mine.
This facade i'm keeping, This lie i'm living,
Is slowly all falling out of time.
I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake,
If it means that you'll always be mine.
-Azul Corte Katze

Your just another pretty face
In a room full of whores
-Nikihayami

"well i guess theres just a part of me that likes to bring you down, to make sure you'll stay around...cuz the day you find out your amazing, well are you gonna leave me?"


*I catalog these steps now
Decisive and intentioned
precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I'm talented at breathing
Especially exhaling
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours*

I'm careful not to wake you
Fearing conversation
It's better just to hold you
And keep you pacified
I'm talented with reason
I cover all the angles
I can fail before I ever try

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)

I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile
And I am so resilient
I recover quickly
I'll convince you soon that I am fine

Try to understand there's and old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
Wont you hold me now (For you I rise, for you I fall)

Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you
Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you, to you

And try to understand there's and old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
So wont you hold me now?
Wont you hold me now?
-DC


i am eating... oh wait while your here; would you please pass the dead baby sauce?
-The Sean


\Did our world give us this disbelief we live in or did our disbelief give us the world we live in?\
-Unknown


Life is like walking through a field after the cows have just been through it. Eventually, you're going to step in cow shit. Now, you can stand there bitching about the cow shit on your shoe, or you can move your foot, wipe it on the grass, and get on with your life
-Azul Corte Katze


Gas station, 11:11, "Make a wish." But all my wishes have been shattered in the last twenty-four hours. "We could talk about this tomorrow," but you and I both know that by tomorrow, you and I will long since have been friends. And it'll seem like years ago that you were just another guy that I never got to hold. So new plans for tonight; I'll sit under street lights, and wonder how I ended up with rotten fast food taste in my mouth instead of your tongue. I'll try to draw you back with all the stupid things I've said, but you'd just laugh and tell me "lets just be friends first" I wouldn't have it any other way.


*I am not what you expect.*  I do not *say* what you expect, i do not mean what you expect, I am not what you expect.  \I dont give what you expect of me, _I dont take what's expected._\  It's time you all realized that everything isn't about your shallow worlds- that there are *TRUE* people out there, who care.  Just because you don't \see them,\ dosen't mean they aren't there. * You just don't expect to see them. *


*_beware of pretty faces that you find,
a pretty face can hide an evil mind._*


“The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.”


"Am I pretty?" a girl asked a boy.  He said no."Do you want to be with me forever?"He said no. "Will you cry if I walk away?"  He said no.  She had had enough.  He grabbed her arm and said,  "You're not pretty because you're beautiful.  I don't want to be with you forever because I need to be with you forever.  I wouldn't cry if you walked away because I would die..

How will you know i'm hurting
if you cannot see my pain?
to wear it on my body
\tells what words cannot explain.\
-C. Blount



\Love is just a way to get rid of the boredom of fidelity\



And remember when they looked through you,

                                   and then looked past me.

We were the ones they said would always leave.

                       So when you go, just think of me,

think of me


..I dream so many dreams, but I can only live so many lives..


I've come to the conclusion that people suck.  And therefore, most people that I affiliate myself with, suck.  Being alone is more preferable to lies, hatred, and just the narcissity of the world.  How's this for little miss perfect? Fuck you, fuck your lies, fuck your misguided conceptions of what or who I am.  You don't understand me.  It's about time I walk away from that.  

Liar.. you tempt me...
   Liar.. you tempt me..


Peacelily my adopted mom, REALLY COOL
Lady Wiccae my adopted daughter
Seaside= my adopted son


~!)o(Azul Corte Katze)o(!~