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"There's nothing you can learn in college that you can't learn from a manic-depressive hobo named Crackers."

If you really love me, you'll read this:

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Hello! I'm a self-labeled freak. Outcast and loner by nature, pretty damed paranoid, I "suffer" from obsessive compulsive disorder, I can be anti-social and at times, and a wee-bit suicidal. I'm aggressive, short-tempered, impatient, dark, angsty, hateful, judgemental, and I don't really like most people. But when you talk to me, you wouldn't have the slightest idea.


I'm bi sexual. [Ooh scary words] I don't see anything wrong with that. I've only been called a dyke (in a hurtful way) once. My friends call me all sorts of shit refering to my sexuality anyway. I'm pretty sure my whole town knows, and hardly any of them care.


I always worry about what other people think of me. I'm not exactly the most beautiful person on earth, and not the thinnest either, obviously, so I get kind of worried about what others see in me. My first impressions suck in person. I'm very... withdrawn, shy, and incredibly quiet, unless I've known you for awhile. Sometimes it's to the point that my whole body is shaking with nervousness and I tense up.


It takes me a long time to be comfertable in your presence. I am normally a very silly person, but when I don't know you well I'm quiet and boring.


Give me time.


Who says goths can't have a sence of humor?

I sure as hell don't know, because I love to laugh and love to make people laugh! If I can't make you laugh or be happy when you're sad, my job is not complete. I love to be there for people in times of need, and try to cheer them up. It seems I'm everybody's little listener, sometimes I dont like it, but mostly I don't mind. I just don't like it when its to much, or when they don't take my advice.


I wouldn't say I was a bad person or a good person I just give back what people give to me. Im not impressed by material things or what you have or who you've met/friends with. Im impressed by intelligence, dedication (towards everything) and artistic people or people willing to take risks. I don't want to settle for anything in life which I feel is not real or mediocre. Im not into this culture that the more numb feeling less and 2 faced, bitchy umm cunt-ish u are the "cooler" you are . I don't want to be associated with lazy, crappy mediocre, fake people with no ambition or motivation... I love my life and want to go far and will not stop along the way for anyone.


I don't easily hate people. In fact, I know that I could never actually hate someone.



My nicknames are strange.


Addy, Autistic, Tee Tots, Ta Ta, Pop Tots, Ahts, Chicken Tartallini, Tarts & *cough* the worst one is of course from Dylan... Tartikians.


I have four guinea pigs and a dog. They are my life.


I won't push my opinions of smoking on you unless you're doing it in my house.


Education is the most effective form of rebellion.


I wish that I was hispanic.


Or at least black.


Thanksalot is one word.


My hair smells and [occasionally] tastes like coconuts.


Sometimes I forget that I have to pee, so I'll end up remembering I have to go three hours after I first realized it.


I run like a sissy.


I can't hold a grudge.


Sometimes, when it's a really quiet night, I'll run screaming through the living room and scare my parents half to death.


I like roast beef sandwhiches.


Insects seem to like me.

I don't like them back.


I obtain fabulous conversational skills.

(If you wish to speak to me, PLEASEbring good conversation.)


I don't tolerate idiotic people.


Lack of grammar and punctuation makes my brain ache. I am a major grammar freak. You better let me FUCKING correct your sad ass grammar, little boy.




Quotes


"I talked to snoop doggy dogg today. Well Im not sure if you would really call it talked because I could hardly understand what he was saying. But I think what he was trying to communicate was that he wanted to work with me in some sort of capacity and something involving marijuana." Marilyn Manson


"I'm been sober now, for three whole months. It's one accomplishment that you helped me with. The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again. In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate. You made me compliment myself when it was way to hard to take. So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind. And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind." - Blue October - Hate me.


My Email is lust_for_death101@yahoo.com

You should Email me... I love getting email.