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MY AP FAMILY:

MY AP sister:
noir eclairage
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My AP sister:
Patient Grace
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MY AP nephew:
bitter scarecrow
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MY AP brother:
Scorpus Noctem
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My AP cousin:
Fatchad12
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FAVORITE QUOTES:

"Life has moments hard to describe feeling great and feeling alive never coming down"- On the Ride Aly and Aj

"We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing"

" People who want to get even with others are usually at odds with themselves"

"Take a chance! Even a turtle gets nowhere until he sticks his head out"

"Don't let nobody tell you your life is over, be every color that you are"- Rush Aly and Aj

"You mostly lose when you really want to win"-Tiara Girls

"Try not to get worried,
try not to turn on to problems that upset you
Oh don't you know everything's alright,yes everything's fine"-Jesus Christ Superstar

"In order for a flower to blossom in all its beauty it requires both sunlight and rain, If it receives too much sunlight it will wilt.I am experiencing my rain"-Betty Wright from Making the Band III

I was always a fragile child both physically and emotionally. This never improved because my parents always sheltered me and ensured that I never had to deal with my own problems. I grew up a very lonely, selfish child, but I always loved to sing. At the age of 5 I got a baby sister and I watched as my parents' relationship fell apart even though they failed to fight in front of me i knew exactly what was going on. Although materially I had everything that I needed and wanted I never had that feeling of having a real family. My mother always insisted that we go to the Roman Catholic Church where I was baptised and made First Communiun church never really had any meaning to me. At the age of 8 the inevitable happened my parents separated and later divorced. Even though I expected it the impact of the split shattered me into a thousand pieces making me as unstable as ever. At 10 I learned to deal with my problems by cutting myself, I barely knew God he seemed to be a figment of my past just like my disposible income and seemingly wholesome family. Never really knowing how to deal with conflict I was the constant target for emotional and physical bullying. I would always break down in school. I keep on singing because it was the only thing that kept me sane. I atempted suicide 2 yrs ago and almost succeeded an overdose and attempted many other times but God seems to have other plans for me. I have always had a low self esteem so when recently I was rejected by the one person that i loved suicide plays over my mind.
Now i know better and although it crosses my mind i pray and hope that it helps. I would love to be a psychologist to help troubled teens such as myself. I also want to become a great musician. To show my dad who ALWAYS DOUBTS ME and NEVER SUPPORTS me that I can.
GOD BLESS US ALL!
I am currently in love with music. No matter how much I am rejected or told that I am not good enough I continue to struggle. I am frustrated a lot because I'm always being compared to other great performers. I hope I meet expectations of myself.