okay...where to start... uhm im 18 years old, my birthdays on Halloween..I grew up in what most would call a "Broken Home". from the time that i was 1-3 my mom and dad had broken up and got back together 5 times..atleast. and then from 3-5 everything was going okay.. except my parents were both heavy alcohaulics and they left my 8 year old sister to watch me nearly every night.. i was her shadow..everywhere she went i followed..My Hero.but also i was teased a lot because of my birth defect (i was born with a bilateral Cleft-lip-and-palet) and i was teased pretty harshly and beat up a lot on the schol playgrounds..i hardly had any friends except my neighborhood pals.. it was great with them.. they were all boys but i didnt are i was a tomboy anyway. Then at 5 1/2 my mom Cheated on my dad and they broke up again.. only this time it was final.. My mom took me and moved to the other side of town.. leaving me with a knew babysiter whom i Hated. taking the childsupport money my dad gave her to support her alcohaul problem.. later getting involvedf in heavy drugs and abandoning me at my babysitter's for nights on end.. tho life was hard at that point i was still semi content because i knew that every other weekend my daddy would come and RESCUE me from her. until i was about 7 when in the middle of the night we moved off to a different state without my dad knowing or anyone... i still got to talk to my dad as few times a month but it wasent the same as being with him...i had no friends what so ever up in Wisconsin where she had moved us.. my best friend in fact was a pet rock..i kno its sad..but its true.
then one day in school.. obvcorse my mom came drunker than a skunk and triped out on acid she came in my 1st grade classroom and told me to come with her that i was going to get out of school early and go see my dad for the summer/... I was THRILLED.. we left for Minnesota where my dad lived. and when we got there no one was home.. because of corse no one knew i was comming.so she left me on the front doorstep. about 2-3 hours later my sister came home from school and asked what in the world i was doing there and how i got there. i simply replyed "Mommy brought me"..we went inside and talked she wouldent let me go until my dad came home and then he wouldent let me go.. after that i got to go back to my old life.. the one i left behind at 5...things wree going good.. but my dad was still an alcohaulic and was rarley there..but when he was it was great!..and i didnt so much mind that he wasent around because i had my Sissy back..then we moved across town when i was like 10. and at the age of 11.. my life turned back into Complete Hell.. my Dad had gotten a knew girlfriend.. she was horrible.. WORSE than my mother.she verbally adn physically abused me and since my dad was always too drunk to realize it.and when he wasent she abbused him, and he refused to hit a women so he took it.. well i jumped in the way of a lot of the swings..i turned physically violent in school myself.. fightring everyone who came my way or even looked at me funny.. after 4th grade when i beat up an 8th grade boy and broke his nose and slightly dislocated his jaw i got respect in school and had many friends and they stuck up from me. so i didnt have to fight anyone else.. but even though that was a good thing, it really wasent because all the anger i had against my dads girlfriend, my mom,, My dad, i took out on those people.. so after all my friends shielded me from fighting i hhad nothing to vent my anger out on.. so i became a Cutter, and very suicidal..later landing myself in the psyche ward 4 times..then at the age of 13 i finally herd from my mom again..she called me, wanting to pick up where she left off, and me to be her little girl again..well i wasent having it, but it was better than being home so on hollidays i went up to wisconsin to see her. tho i couldent be up there from more than a weekend without fighting with her and her drunk/druged self..still cutting and cutting,and the abuse with my dads girlfriend kept going, the worste thing happend.. My sister moved out. i was devistated, the only thing that kept me sane left me.. so now i had NO ONE.. i was all alone, feeling hollow and hated, filled with only anger adn revenge. then in a drunkin brawl my dads girlfriend took a hammer after him and tried to bash his head in with it, he just went into the bathroom and locked the door... banging on the door woke me up.. i went upstairs to find her being the one banging ion the door with the hammer with my dad in the bathroom, i grabed the first thing i saw, which happend to be a Butcher knife and i Put it to her throat saying that if she took one more step id slit her throat from ear to ear, and i wasent lying..she droped the hammer and i called the police, they came, believed her and took my dad off to jail for domestic abuse.. even tho as i said b4 he'd never lay a hand on her because he doesnt believe in hitting women.. i i was stuck with her for the next 3 days., she tryed to set my room on fire while i was asleep but i woke up to smoke and put it out.. then my sister came over and took me to her house till the court date. now this was the 3rd time she put him in jail for domestic..on false charges.. he was released each time.. but he was still inlove with her so hed never done nothing about it...but this time after the charges were droped we filed a restraining oarder against her and she had 14 days in our house to get anything she wanted then leave.. well we basically blindly got robed by her. she took everything she could get her filthy hands on. we were left with an empty house and a can opener. we had to rebuild from there.. being only 13 i didnt know what to do.. so i again attempted suicide.. making things worse for everyone. it didnt work.. obviously im still alive..but then after we rebuilded our lives.. My dad CONTINUED to see her. he gave her money that we didnt even have to pay our bills, and continued to drink adn fuck her.. until we nearly got evicted from our house. then he wised up. and only fucked her. then she got a knew bf, adn they quit seeing eachother.. my aunt then moved in with us.. starting off a good thing then turning into a living hell..we moved from our house becauxe of the bad memories and the fact that our landlord sold it.. we moved.. my dad is still an alcohaulic, my mom is also, my sisters now engaged and pregnant, i rarely see her, i have a pretty good school life, and a boyfriend, my aunt and me still fight like cats and dogs, and im in a lot of therapy for depression, i take pills for ADHD.. i quit cutting for the most part, and im still searching for JESUS, i believe but..its confusing. anyways. thats pretty much my life story..so far....
*OK on to HAPPY*
AbOuT mE: My Name is Aly Pronounced (Alley) N' *I am one of the WeIrDeSt ppl you'll ever meet!! i like so many different things n im cool with so many diff types of ppl, im just cool with erryone thats cool with me! Im funny, i can make anyone laugh, i have a good sense of humor.. im always open to new friends... Im a tomboy.. I LOVE sports, well anyways you'll find out more below..
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*Appearence:
Height: 5'5
Eyes: Blue, but they change colors wid the background im in
Shape: CuRvAlAtIoUs!!! lol... hour-glass figure.u know big b00bs ghetto booty ( IM SeXy) hahaha
Hair: past my shoulders, wavey Dark Golden brown
Ethnicity: Im White
Style: I got my own style... well.. its more basically the "Gh3tto" style (what the popular chickz wear)..but i mix my own stuff in there too!
Favorites:
Band: uhmmm band is prolly Pretty Ricky, or Three 6 Mafia
Rapper(s): Eminem & Tupac
Food(s): i like Fried N' BBQ chicken, Mac N Cheese (Kraft Only), chicken fried rice, egg roles, fajitas, Tacos, & CheeseBurgers
Sports: Basketball, football, wrestling, & softball
Drug: Marijuana
Car: 65' (candy apple red) Electra, or a 69' Corvette (baby blue)
Color(s): Blue, Pink, Black, White, & Red
wellllllllllll thats about all i can think of for now but who knows how ima change it later!!
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then one day in school.. obvcorse my mom came drunker than a skunk and triped out on acid she came in my 1st grade classroom and told me to come with her that i was going to get out of school early and go see my dad for the summer/... I was THRILLED.. we left for Minnesota where my dad lived. and when we got there no one was home.. because of corse no one knew i was comming.so she left me on the front doorstep. about 2-3 hours later my sister came home from school and asked what in the world i was doing there and how i got there. i simply replyed "Mommy brought me"..we went inside and talked she wouldent let me go until my dad came home and then he wouldent let me go.. after that i got to go back to my old life.. the one i left behind at 5...things wree going good.. but my dad was still an alcohaulic and was rarley there..but when he was it was great!..and i didnt so much mind that he wasent around because i had my Sissy back..then we moved across town when i was like 10. and at the age of 11.. my life turned back into Complete Hell.. my Dad had gotten a knew girlfriend.. she was horrible.. WORSE than my mother.she verbally adn physically abused me and since my dad was always too drunk to realize it.and when he wasent she abbused him, and he refused to hit a women so he took it.. well i jumped in the way of a lot of the swings..i turned physically violent in school myself.. fightring everyone who came my way or even looked at me funny.. after 4th grade when i beat up an 8th grade boy and broke his nose and slightly dislocated his jaw i got respect in school and had many friends and they stuck up from me. so i didnt have to fight anyone else.. but even though that was a good thing, it really wasent because all the anger i had against my dads girlfriend, my mom,, My dad, i took out on those people.. so after all my friends shielded me from fighting i hhad nothing to vent my anger out on.. so i became a Cutter, and very suicidal..later landing myself in the psyche ward 4 times..then at the age of 13 i finally herd from my mom again..she called me, wanting to pick up where she left off, and me to be her little girl again..well i wasent having it, but it was better than being home so on hollidays i went up to wisconsin to see her. tho i couldent be up there from more than a weekend without fighting with her and her drunk/druged self..still cutting and cutting,and the abuse with my dads girlfriend kept going, the worste thing happend.. My sister moved out. i was devistated, the only thing that kept me sane left me.. so now i had NO ONE.. i was all alone, feeling hollow and hated, filled with only anger adn revenge. then in a drunkin brawl my dads girlfriend took a hammer after him and tried to bash his head in with it, he just went into the bathroom and locked the door... banging on the door woke me up.. i went upstairs to find her being the one banging ion the door with the hammer with my dad in the bathroom, i grabed the first thing i saw, which happend to be a Butcher knife and i Put it to her throat saying that if she took one more step id slit her throat from ear to ear, and i wasent lying..she droped the hammer and i called the police, they came, believed her and took my dad off to jail for domestic abuse.. even tho as i said b4 he'd never lay a hand on her because he doesnt believe in hitting women.. i i was stuck with her for the next 3 days., she tryed to set my room on fire while i was asleep but i woke up to smoke and put it out.. then my sister came over and took me to her house till the court date. now this was the 3rd time she put him in jail for domestic..on false charges.. he was released each time.. but he was still inlove with her so hed never done nothing about it...but this time after the charges were droped we filed a restraining oarder against her and she had 14 days in our house to get anything she wanted then leave.. well we basically blindly got robed by her. she took everything she could get her filthy hands on. we were left with an empty house and a can opener. we had to rebuild from there.. being only 13 i didnt know what to do.. so i again attempted suicide.. making things worse for everyone. it didnt work.. obviously im still alive..but then after we rebuilded our lives.. My dad CONTINUED to see her. he gave her money that we didnt even have to pay our bills, and continued to drink adn fuck her.. until we nearly got evicted from our house. then he wised up. and only fucked her. then she got a knew bf, adn they quit seeing eachother.. my aunt then moved in with us.. starting off a good thing then turning into a living hell..we moved from our house becauxe of the bad memories and the fact that our landlord sold it.. we moved.. my dad is still an alcohaulic, my mom is also, my sisters now engaged and pregnant, i rarely see her, i have a pretty good school life, and a boyfriend, my aunt and me still fight like cats and dogs, and im in a lot of therapy for depression, i take pills for ADHD.. i quit cutting for the most part, and im still searching for JESUS, i believe but..its confusing. anyways. thats pretty much my life story..so far....
*OK on to HAPPY*
AbOuT mE: My Name is Aly Pronounced (Alley) N' *I am one of the WeIrDeSt ppl you'll ever meet!! i like so many different things n im cool with so many diff types of ppl, im just cool with erryone thats cool with me! Im funny, i can make anyone laugh, i have a good sense of humor.. im always open to new friends... Im a tomboy.. I LOVE sports, well anyways you'll find out more below..
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*Appearence:
Height: 5'5
Eyes: Blue, but they change colors wid the background im in
Shape: CuRvAlAtIoUs!!! lol... hour-glass figure.u know big b00bs ghetto booty ( IM SeXy) hahaha
Hair: past my shoulders, wavey Dark Golden brown
Ethnicity: Im White
Style: I got my own style... well.. its more basically the "Gh3tto" style (what the popular chickz wear)..but i mix my own stuff in there too!
Favorites:
Band: uhmmm band is prolly Pretty Ricky, or Three 6 Mafia
Rapper(s): Eminem & Tupac
Food(s): i like Fried N' BBQ chicken, Mac N Cheese (Kraft Only), chicken fried rice, egg roles, fajitas, Tacos, & CheeseBurgers
Sports: Basketball, football, wrestling, & softball
Drug: Marijuana
Car: 65' (candy apple red) Electra, or a 69' Corvette (baby blue)
Color(s): Blue, Pink, Black, White, & Red
wellllllllllll thats about all i can think of for now but who knows how ima change it later!!
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