Alex Cross• Show poetry

Okay. So. My name is Alex. Yes, im serious. It's short for Alexandria. Call me that and be harmed in some fashion. Im 18, finally. My life is a short story. I was born. I grew up by myself. I have a best friend. I fell in love with a boy. I fell OUT of love with said boy. I lived In Kentucky. Now I live in Toronto. I am bisexual, get over it. It doesnt mean I can't make up my mind. It means I am attracted to members of both genders both physically and emotionally. I don't want any bashing from anyone. I am not a nice person to tick off.

I'm not going to do the whole "AP Family" thing unless I actually get requests to join. Simply becuase, as far as I can tell, they are just for show. I'm no a showy kind of girl. You're either here or you aren't. It's as simple as that.


Here are some random quotes and shit that I like:

"It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done;
it is a far, far better rest that I go to, than I have ever known."
- Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities


"Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts
and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is heard no more."
- William Shakespeare, Macbeth


"Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live."
- Dorothy Parker, "Resume"


"There are no happy endings. There are no real endings ever -- happy or otherwise. We all have our own stories which are just a part of the one Story that binds both this world and Faerie. Sometimes we step into each others' stories -- perhaps just for a few minutes, perhaps for years -- and then we step out of them again. But all the while, the Story just goes on."
- Charles de Lint, Dreams Underfoot

Do not pass by my epitaph, traveler.
But having stopped, listen and learn, then go your way.
There is no boat in Hades, no ferryman Charon,
No caretaker Aiakos, no dog Cerberus.
All we who are dead below
Have become bones and ashes, but nothing else.
I have spoken to you honestly, go on, traveler,
Lest even while dead I seem loquacious to you.
- Roman Tombstone



[X] Smoked a cigarette
[X] Drank so much you threw up
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[_] Been arrested
[X] Gone on a blind date
[X] Skipped school
[X] Seen someone die
[X] Been to Canada
[X] Been to Florida
[X] Been to Mexico
[X] Been on a plane
[X] Been lost
[X] Been on the opposite side of the country
[X] Gone to Washington , DC
[X] Swam in the ocean
[X] Felt like dying....
[X] Cried yourself to sleep
[X] Played cops and robbers
[X] Recently colored with crayons
[X] Sang karaoke badly
[X] Paid for a meal with only coins
[X] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[X] Made prank phone calls
[X] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[_] Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
[X] Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
[X] Danced in the rain
[X] Written a letter to Santa Claus (Even though I don't celebrate Christmas)
[X] Been kissed under the mistletoe
[X] Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[X] Blown bubbles
[X] Made a bonfire on the beach
[X] Crashed a party
[X] Gone roller-skating
[X] Ice-skating
[X] I'm single
[_]I'm in a relationship
[X] I've had someone cheat on me.
[X] I've gone on a blind date.
[_] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[_] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[_] I've cheated in a relationship.
[_] I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person some cheated on their gf/bf with )
[_] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[_] i've been molested and/or raped repeatdly by sumone i knew
[X] get a new girlfriend/boyfriend
[X] Got dumped

Sexuality

[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[_] I love to flirt.
[X]I've been kissed in the rain. =]
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[X] have kissed a stranger.
[_] is gay
[_] is lez
[X] is bi
[_] is gay but no ones knows
[_] is lez but know one knows
[_] is bi but know one knows
[_] isnt any of them
[X]has had sex
[_] has had sex with more then one person
[_] regrets it
[_] is a virgin

Drugs/Alcohol

[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[_] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[X] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[_] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I take anti-depressants.
[_] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[_] I'm addicted to self harm
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.

Random

[_] I can sing well.
[X] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[X] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I curse regularly. (sometimes)
[X] I sing in the shower.
[_] I am a morning person.
[_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[_] I'm a snob about grammar.
[_] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair
[_] I love being neat
[_] I love Spam
[X] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[_] I bake well.
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[_] I like Martha Stewart. (who??)
[_] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am in love with love.
[_] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly
[X] I believe in ghosts. (depends)
[X] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
[X] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails
[X] I play video games
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[_]I'm good at remembering names.
[_] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[X]I have tried to join a circus and failed (long story)
[X] own a knife
[X] get picked up by the cops
[_] tell a cop to :go to hell, go fuck him /her self ect... (SO CLOSE!)
[x] works out
[X] has a tattoo
[x] is something
[_] is an alien
[x] is "idk"
[_] ever been to juvy
[x] loves life
[x] hates life(well parts of it anyway)
[_] wants to die
[x] wants to live
[_] wants to die but not kill them self
[_] wants to kill them self
[x] has ever cut
[X] likes to cut
[_] loves to cut
[_] fuckin loves to cut
[x] thinks cutting is wrong
[x] thinks cutting helps
[x] has more then 1 friend
[x] has a best friend
[X] has gone out with a girl/boy for over a month
[x] beleves in one gf one bf relation ships
[x] has some one to talk to
[x] think your smart
[_] think your dumb
[_] think ur cool
[_] think your lame
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[x] liked this thingy?
[X] My answers are totally honest
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At Eight Weeks
At eight to nine weeks the eyelids have begun forming and hair appears. By the ninth and tenth weeks the preborn child sucks her thumb, turns somersaults, jumps, can squint to close out light, frown, swallow, and move her tongue.

At this early stage of development, suction abortions are performed using a smaller tube, requiring little dilation of the cervix. This is called "menstrual extraction." However, if all the fetal remains are not removed, infection results, requiring full dilation of the cervix and a scraping out of the womb.

Suction Aspiration
This is the most common method of abortion during the first 12 weeks of pregnancy. General or local anaesthesia is given to the mother and her cervix is quickly dilated. A suction curette (hollow tube with a knife-edged tip) is inserted into the womb. This instrument is then connected to a vacuum machine by a transparent tube. The vacuum suction, 29 times more powerful than a household vacuum cleaner, tears the fetus and placenta into small pieces which are sucked through the tube into a bottle and discarded.

Dilation and Curettage (D&C)
This method is similar to the suction method with the added insertion of a hook shaped knife (curette) which cuts the baby into pieces. The pieces are scraped out through the cervix and discarded [Note: This abortion method should not be confused with a therapeutic D&C done for reasons other than pregancy.]

At Twelve Weeks
By the end of the third month all arteries are present, including the coronary vessels of the heart. Blood is circulating through these vessels to all body parts.

The heart beat ranges during this fetal period from 110 to 160 beats per minute. All blood cells are produced by the liver and spleen, a job soon taken over by the bone marrow. White blood cells, important for immunity, are formed in the lymph nodes and thymus.

Vocal chords are complete, and the child can and does sometimes cry (silently). The brain is fully formed, and the child can feel pain. The fetus may even suck his thumb. The eyelids now cover the eyes, and will remain shut until the seventh month to protect the delicate optical nerve fibers.


14 weeks: Muscles lenghten and become organized. The mother will soon start feeling the first flutters of the baby kicking and moving inside.

15 weeks: The fetus has an adult's taste buds and may be able to savor the mother's meals.

16 weeks: Five and a half inches tall and only six ounces in weight, eyebrows, eyelashes and fine hair appear. The child can grasp with his hands, kick, or even somersault.

At Eighteen Weeks
The fetus is now about 5 inches long. The child blinks, grasps, and moves her mouth. Hair grows on the head and body.

20 weeks: The child can hear and recognize mother's voice. Though still small and fragile, the baby is growing rapidly and could possibly survive if born at this stage. Fingernails and fingerprints appear. Sex organs are visible. Using an ultrasound device, the doctor can tell if the child is a girl or a boy. The one on the left is a baby girl.

Dilation and Evacuation (D&E)
This method is used up to 18 weeks' gestation. Instead of the loop-shaped knife used in D&C abortions, a pair of forceps is inserted into the womb to grasp part of the fetus. The teeth of the forceps twist and tear the bones of the unborn child. This process is repeated until the fetus is totally dismembered and removed. Usually the spine must be snapped and the skull crushed in order to remove them.

Salt Poisoning (Saline Injection):
Used after 16 weeks (four months) when enough fluid has accumulated. A long needle injects a strong salt solution through the mother's abdomen into the baby's sac. The baby swallows this fluid and is poisoned by it. It also acts as a corrosive, burning off the outer layer of skin. It normally takes somewhat over an hour for the baby to die from this. Within 24 hours, labor will usually set in and the mother will give birth to a dead or dying baby. (There have been many cases of these babies being born alive. They are usually left unattended to die. However, a few have survived and later been adopted.)

At Six Months
Seen here at six months, the unborn child is covered with a fine, downy hair called lanugo. Its tender skin is protected by a waxy substance called vernix. Some of this substance may still be on the child's skin at birth at which time it will be quickly absorbed. The child practices breathing by inhaling amnionic fluid into developing lungs.


Prostaglandin Chemical Abortion
This form of abortion uses chemicals developed by the Upjohn Pharmaceutical Co. which cause the uterus to contract intensely, pushing out the developing baby. The contractions are more violent than normal, natural contractions, so the unborn baby is frequently killed by them -- some have even been decapitated. Many, however, have also been born alive.

Hysterotomy or Caesarean Section
Used mainly in the last three months of pregnancy, the womb is entered by surgery through the wall of the abdomen. The technique is similar to a Caesarean delivery, except that the umbilical cord is usually cut while the baby is still in the womb, thus cutting off his oxygen supply and causing him to suffocate. Sometimes the baby is removed alive and simply left in a corner to die of neglect or exposure.

At 30 Weeks
For several months, the umbilical cord has been the baby's lifeline to the mother. Nourishment is transferred from the mother's blood, through the placenta, and into the umbilical cord to the fetus. If the mother ingests any toxic substances, such as drugs or alcohol, the baby receives these as well.

32 weeks: The fetus sleeps 90-95% of the day, and sometimes experiences REM sleep, an indication of dreaming.

Partial-Birth Abortion
Five steps to a partial birth abortion:

Guided by ultrasound, the abortionist grabs the baby's legs with forceps.

The baby's leg is pulled out into the birth canal.

The abortionist delivers the baby's entire body, except for the head.

The abortionist jams scissors into the baby's skull. The scissors are then opened to enlarge the skull.

The scissors are removed and a suction catheter is inserted. The child's brains are sucked out, causing the skull to collapse. The dead baby is then removed.

PUT THIS ON UR PAGE IF U ARE AGAINST ABORTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!