13darkhearts• Show poetry

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YO!!!! I love living in NC, there are so many trees!!  Middle school blows, but no one confermed(sp?) life is perfect.  I'm still not really a particular FAN of love, it's never REALLY been good to me. Uhhh.... my favorite bands/musicians are: the killers, LINKIN PARK, evanesence, good charlotte, simple plan, and eminem.  There are others, but i'm lazy and can't find the energy to write them all down.  Hope you enjoy my poetry, and if you are one of my friends reading, you better leave me a comment, even if you think it compelty aweful, lamentably deproable, and is a disgrace to poetry .  What are friends for??  Happy reading!!! **smile** OH! and 1 more thing.  My sister FINALLY got her own name (Crazed Cows), so we r trying 2 figure out how to put her poems on her own name. HAPPY READING!!!

General info:
hair: reddishy blondishy light brownishy (but mostly red)
eyes: denimy grayie blue w/hazle ring around my pupil
height: 5' 1/2 inch
wieght: **GASP!** as if! (between 100 and 108)
religion: none
fave movies: pirates of the carribean; LOTR (II); interview w/the vampire
fav subject: LUNCH! heheheheheh.........uuuuhhhhh........chess.........
fave songs: mr. brightside; crazy for this girl; my immortal; in the end; breaking the habbit; taking over me
4 (real) food groups: dark chocolate, herbal tea, peanut butter, chocolate
i wish: my friends wouldn't get mad @ me 4 wut seems like no reason; to be understood; i didn't SNORT!
awesome ppl/poets i've met on this site: dame de la riviere; poem prince
who introed me 2 da site: apiratespromise
I LOVE U GUYZ (as friends)!!!!!

list of things I love: Pink (da pop*); nature; reading; purple; black; domestic things (knitting, sewing); my friends, all 5m and 5f of them; history; france; anything Celtic; music; sk8boarding

list of things I hate: Pink (da color), cities, da ocean, enemies, too much t.v., being told what to do, being told 'no', safe/boring guys
um..... and i think that's it
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anad also, i was really bored one day, so i decided to to come up w/a list of lyrics by (so far) Kelly clarkson and Linkin Park (da best band in da world). I kno its long:

Linkin Park (meteora):
… sometimes I’m in disbelief … sometimes I fell like I trusted you too well, sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself … somehow I need to be alone … [just give me myself back …] … I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored, I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away, with no apologies

SOMEWHERE I BELONG (the whole song b/c there is no use in writing down the whole song; check lyrics.com if you don’t know the song)

LYING FROM YOU (again, the whole song and if u don’t kno it, lyrics.com)

there are just too many times that ppl have tried to look inside of me wondering what I think of you when I protect u out of courtesy, too many times that iv held on when I needed to push away, afraid to say wut wuz on my mind, afraid 2 say wut I needed 2 say, too many things that uv said about me when I’m not around…but iv had too many stand-offs with u, its about as much as I can stand…u think u won, and then its all gone, so many ppl like me put so much trust in all ur lies, so concerned with what u think to just say what we feel inside, so many ppl like me walk on eggshells all day long, all that I kno is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on, there are so many things u say that make me fee like uv crossed the line…I kno ill never trust a single thing u say, u knew ur lies would divide us but u lied anyway

…its so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone, something has been taken from deep inside of me, a secret iv kept locked away no 1 can evr see, wounds so deep they never show they nevr go away, like moving pictures in my head 4 years and years theyv played…take back the pain I would, retrace every wrong move iv made I would, if I could…if I could take all the shame to the grave I would…sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have, sometimes I think of letting go and nevr lookin back and nevr movin forward so there would nevr be a past…just washing it aside, all of the helplessness inside, pretending I don’t feel misplaced is so much easier than change…

I am little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard, a handful of complaints but I cant help the fact that evry1 can see these scars, I am what I want u 2 want, what i want u to feel but its like no matter what I do I cant convince u 2 just believe this is real, so i let go, watching u turn ur back like u always do face away and pretend that im not but ill be here…I cant feel the way I did before…time wont heal this damage anymore…I wont be ignored, I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident cuz u don’t understand I do what I can but sometimes I don’t make sence, I am what u nevr want to say, but iv nevr had a doubt its like no matter what I do I cant convince u 4 once just 2 hear me out…

FIGURE.09 (once again, da whole damn thing. I kno I have a lot; lyrics.com if u r unfamiliar w/it)

BREAKING THE HABIT (do I need 2 say it?)

…Don’t kno who to trust (no surprise) every1 feels so far away from me…and the lies, trying not 2 break, but im so tired of this deceit, evry time I try 2 make myself get back up on my feet all I evr think about is this, all the tiring time between and how trying to put my trust in u just takes so much out of me…tension is building inside steadily,…heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me…

NOBODY’S LISTENING (not gonna bother anymore…)

NUMB (mom, if u evr read this [wich I hope u don’t ] this song is mostly about u that is relative)

Kelly Clarkson [slap me 4 putting her *twitch*]:…I used 2 stand so tall, I used to be so strong…now I cant breathe, now I cant sleep, im barly hangin on, here I am, once again, im torn into pieces, cant deny it cant pretend…broken up deep inside, but u wont get to see these tears I cry, behind these…eyes, I told u everything, opened up and let u in, u made me feel alright for ONCE in my life, now all that's left of me is wut i pretend to be, so together but so broken up inside…seeing you it kills me now…no I don’t cry on da out side anymore, anymore…[in truth I’v only listened to 4 k.c. songs, and BEHIND THESE HAZEL EYES was da only 1 that I liked, and as u can see, a lot relates 2 my life and I didn’t feel like copyin down da chorus more dan once]

more coming!

write me if ur bored and wanna talk!






now..........shoutouts.........

*dame de la riviere, grl u r awesome!!

*Poem Prince, (he's mi uncle, and the 1st member of mi personal AP family ) his poetry is always so happy

*alone i stand, my ap sis cool to talk 2

*see me fly, lol, i dont kno wut to say. i really like ur work, dude, evn if it is created out of boredom and talking 2 u is always a joy

*Crazed Cows, mi sis who is off her rocker, but cool anywho.

*s-man23, a lil wierd..poetry is wierder....but it will always @ least make ur smile

*Mikiarra- Star ofRah, cool to talk 2, poetry and stuff is good

*Thoreau47, some of the most intelligent poetry u'll evr read, and will make you stop and think.

*Stargazer Lullaby, recently started talkin 2 u, ur a cool person

*bassclarintebuddy92, nice work (as i have read) and ur cool 2 talk to (as lil as i hav done but look forward ot more)

*linkinparkchic, i hav no idea what to say, really, soul sister, tho really can tick someone off if she feels like it , she is a who needs

*Lestat de lioncourt, your poetry is like magik, a beautiful spell, and from what i hear, a dream 2 talk 2, and full of wonder.


and if i missed you, i am deeply sorry, let me kno and i will fix it asap.


and one last thing......
the immortal words of crossfade (from their song cold)

*I never wanted you to see
The screwed-up side of me
That I keep locked away inside of me
So deep,
It always seems to get to me.
I never wanted you to go,
So many things you should have known.
I guess for me there is just no hope,
I never meant to be so cold.*

i turn to those words fo rcondolence so often...