My name is Jan. Just Jan, its not short for anything.
I'm a twenty year old girl.
I'm a recovering alchoholic and cutter. Sober and clean for over three years now.
I am a bisexual who loves all people no matter what color, religion, or culture they may be.
I have an open mind and a strong sense of right and wrong, but I know the world is gray.
I'm in love with my best friend of 14 years who has proposed to me. He is my world.
I have a HUGE family, three brothers, two sisters, and both parents. All blood and all people who have shaped my life so far.
I have a few wonderful friends who I consider family.
I also have a few not so wonderful friends.
This is my life's work.
AP family:
~BloodmoonFox: My little sister in real life. {http://allpoetry.com/BloodmoonFox}
~a lonely soul: My big sis. {http://allpoetry.com/a%20lonely%20soul}
~SoMe: My big sis. {http://allpoetry.com/SoMe}
~Dame de la Rivere: My mommy~! {http://allpoetry.com/dame%20de%20la%20riviere}
My bestest friends are: {this includes my family}
~Haunting Whispers {http://allpoetry.com/Haunting%20Whispers}
~Life-s Joke {http://allpoetry.com/Life-s%20Joke}
~Shameless1 {http://allpoetry.com/Shameless1}
~spice12082 {http://allpoetry.com/spice12087}
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My name is Sarah. I am but three.
My eyes are swollen, I cannot see.
I must be stupid, I must be bad.
What else could have made my daddy so mad?
I wish I were better, I wish I weren't ugly.
Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all, I can't do a wrong.
Or else I'm locked up all the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone.
The house is dark, my folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice.
So maybe I'll get just one whipping tonight!
Don't make a sound! I just heard a car.
My daddy is back from Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse, my name he calls.
I press myself against the wall.
I try and hide from his evil eyes.
I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping. He shouts ugly words.
He says its my fault that he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me and yells at me more.
I finally get free and I run for the door.
He's already locked it and I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor with my bones nearly broken.
And my daddy continues with more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!" I scream but its now much too late
His face has been twisted into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain, again and again.
Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops and heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless, sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah and I am but three,
Tonight my daddy murdered me.
Paste this into your profile to help stop child abuse.
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HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!
~I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
~I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
~I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
~We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
~I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
~I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
~I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
~I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
~We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
~I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
~I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
~I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
~I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
~I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
~I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
~I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
~I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.
~I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
~I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
~I am the girl who attempted suicide again and again because everyone shunned me for who I loved.
REPOST THIS ON YOUR AUTHOR PAGE IF YOU BELIEVE HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
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A girl and guy were speeding on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road...
-Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
-Guy: No, this is fun.
-Girl: No, it's not. Please, it's too scary!
-Guy: Then tell me you love me.
-Girl: Fine, I love you slow down!
-Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
-*girl hugs him*
-Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
-(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people where on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it ment that he would die.
-If you would ever do this for someone... then post this on your page asap!
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92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile.
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QUOTES:
~Become the kind of person you can live with for the rest of your life.
~We have just enough religion to make us hate one another but not enough to make us love one another.
~This is the way the world ends, not with a bang but a whimper.-T.S. Eliot
~Love your enemies, for they tell you your faults.-Ben Franklin
~Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint.-Mark Twain
~I'm all in favor of keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let's start with typewriters.-Solomon Short
~Be master of your petty annoyances and conserve your energies for the big, worthwhile things. It isn't the mountain ahead that wears you out-it's the grain of sand in your shoe.-Robert Service
~Beware lest you lose the substance by grasping at the shadow.-Aesop
~If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work.-Robin Tyler
~I'm glad I didn't have to fight in any war. I'm glad I didn't have to pick up a gun. I'm glad I didn't get killed or kill somebody. I hope my kids enjoy the same lack of manhood.-Tom Hanks
~Half-full? Half-empty? It's not even my F@&%#G cup!!!-Neal Visher
~Do you have a problem? I have a gun. I'll shoot you. No problem.-Billie Joe Armstrong
~Well, if crime fighters fight crime and fire fighters fight fire, what do freedom fighters fight? They never mention that part to us, do they?-George Carlin, may he rest in peace.
~The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.-Martin Luther King Jr, a man who changed the world with his words..
~Show me a hero and I will write you a tragedy.-F. Scott Fitzgerald
~He who joyfully marches to music rank and file, has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would surely suffice. This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once. Heroism at command, how violently I hate all this, how despicable and ignoble war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be a part of so base an action. It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder.-Albert Einstein
~We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.-C. S. Lewis
~Happines is like mercury. Hard to hold, and when we drop it, it shatters into a million pieces. Maybe the bravest of all are those who have the courage to reach for it again.-Mary Higgins Clark
~Minds are like parachutes... they only function when they are open.-Thomas Dewar
~Soldiers who are not afraid of guns, bombs, capture, torture, or death say they are afraid of homosexuals. Clearly we should not be used as soldiers; we should be used as weapons.-Muriel Strode
~Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget. Sy Parrish
~The wrong thing to do about any given circumstance or situation is to do nothing.-L. Ron Hubbard
~Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try.-Yoda
I'm a twenty year old girl.
I'm a recovering alchoholic and cutter. Sober and clean for over three years now.
I am a bisexual who loves all people no matter what color, religion, or culture they may be.
I have an open mind and a strong sense of right and wrong, but I know the world is gray.
I'm in love with my best friend of 14 years who has proposed to me. He is my world.
I have a HUGE family, three brothers, two sisters, and both parents. All blood and all people who have shaped my life so far.
I have a few wonderful friends who I consider family.
I also have a few not so wonderful friends.
This is my life's work.
AP family:
~BloodmoonFox: My little sister in real life. {http://allpoetry.com/BloodmoonFox}
~a lonely soul: My big sis. {http://allpoetry.com/a%20lonely%20soul}
~SoMe: My big sis. {http://allpoetry.com/SoMe}
~Dame de la Rivere: My mommy~! {http://allpoetry.com/dame%20de%20la%20riviere}
My bestest friends are: {this includes my family}
~Haunting Whispers {http://allpoetry.com/Haunting%20Whispers}
~Life-s Joke {http://allpoetry.com/Life-s%20Joke}
~Shameless1 {http://allpoetry.com/Shameless1}
~spice12082 {http://allpoetry.com/spice12087}
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This is Mr. Bunny, post him to your profile to help him DOMINATE the world.
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My name is Sarah. I am but three.
My eyes are swollen, I cannot see.
I must be stupid, I must be bad.
What else could have made my daddy so mad?
I wish I were better, I wish I weren't ugly.
Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all, I can't do a wrong.
Or else I'm locked up all the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone.
The house is dark, my folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice.
So maybe I'll get just one whipping tonight!
Don't make a sound! I just heard a car.
My daddy is back from Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse, my name he calls.
I press myself against the wall.
I try and hide from his evil eyes.
I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping. He shouts ugly words.
He says its my fault that he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me and yells at me more.
I finally get free and I run for the door.
He's already locked it and I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor with my bones nearly broken.
And my daddy continues with more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!" I scream but its now much too late
His face has been twisted into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain, again and again.
Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops and heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless, sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah and I am but three,
Tonight my daddy murdered me.
Paste this into your profile to help stop child abuse.
-----------------------------------------
HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!
~I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
~I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
~I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
~We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
~I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
~I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
~I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
~I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
~We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
~I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
~I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
~I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
~I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
~I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
~I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
~I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
~I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.
~I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
~I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
~I am the girl who attempted suicide again and again because everyone shunned me for who I loved.
REPOST THIS ON YOUR AUTHOR PAGE IF YOU BELIEVE HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
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A girl and guy were speeding on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road...
-Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
-Guy: No, this is fun.
-Girl: No, it's not. Please, it's too scary!
-Guy: Then tell me you love me.
-Girl: Fine, I love you slow down!
-Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
-*girl hugs him*
-Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
-(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people where on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it ment that he would die.
-If you would ever do this for someone... then post this on your page asap!
-----------------------------------------------------
92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile.
---------------------------------------------------------
QUOTES:
~Become the kind of person you can live with for the rest of your life.
~We have just enough religion to make us hate one another but not enough to make us love one another.
~This is the way the world ends, not with a bang but a whimper.-T.S. Eliot
~Love your enemies, for they tell you your faults.-Ben Franklin
~Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint.-Mark Twain
~I'm all in favor of keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let's start with typewriters.-Solomon Short
~Be master of your petty annoyances and conserve your energies for the big, worthwhile things. It isn't the mountain ahead that wears you out-it's the grain of sand in your shoe.-Robert Service
~Beware lest you lose the substance by grasping at the shadow.-Aesop
~If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work.-Robin Tyler
~I'm glad I didn't have to fight in any war. I'm glad I didn't have to pick up a gun. I'm glad I didn't get killed or kill somebody. I hope my kids enjoy the same lack of manhood.-Tom Hanks
~Half-full? Half-empty? It's not even my F@&%#G cup!!!-Neal Visher
~Do you have a problem? I have a gun. I'll shoot you. No problem.-Billie Joe Armstrong
~Well, if crime fighters fight crime and fire fighters fight fire, what do freedom fighters fight? They never mention that part to us, do they?-George Carlin, may he rest in peace.
~The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.-Martin Luther King Jr, a man who changed the world with his words..
~Show me a hero and I will write you a tragedy.-F. Scott Fitzgerald
~He who joyfully marches to music rank and file, has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would surely suffice. This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once. Heroism at command, how violently I hate all this, how despicable and ignoble war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be a part of so base an action. It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder.-Albert Einstein
~We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.-C. S. Lewis
~Happines is like mercury. Hard to hold, and when we drop it, it shatters into a million pieces. Maybe the bravest of all are those who have the courage to reach for it again.-Mary Higgins Clark
~Minds are like parachutes... they only function when they are open.-Thomas Dewar
~Soldiers who are not afraid of guns, bombs, capture, torture, or death say they are afraid of homosexuals. Clearly we should not be used as soldiers; we should be used as weapons.-Muriel Strode
~Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget. Sy Parrish
~The wrong thing to do about any given circumstance or situation is to do nothing.-L. Ron Hubbard
~Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try.-Yoda
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Fancy : WTH! on July 9Every time I go to give someone 5 stars on the comments they leave me, it randomly gives them 2 or 4... am I doing something wrong?! :[
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dame de la riviere on May 22hey sweetie how are you? i miss hearing from you; let me know what's been going on in your life. i hope all is well.
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